.....not today!

I finally got to bed at 2:30 last night. :o( Not a good thing. I got up at 6:30. :o( Just as I thought, it has taken it's toll on me to pack. I feel like I had been ran over by a bus! I have pain in my neck, shoulders, back, and my upper arms. :o( But at least I know what it's from. The only thing that I feel that is good, is my legs! I can feel the muscle tone coming back in them! YAY! Thats so good! :o) Something I'm doing is good. Plus, this cold weather doesn't help matters. It was 30 degrees when I got up! I'm trying to "get" tired so I can take a nap. I realize how funny that must sound. But, with a sleeping disorder with all of this other stuff, it makes it hard to sleep. So, I'm waiting. I'm hoping to get a lot of sleep today. My body really needs to regenerate itself. Plus, get rid of this headach as well. :o( Well....my body is doing what I thought it would. Which shows that I am getting to know this stupid fibromyalgia stuff, and my body. `*`*~*~*~*`*`*`*~*~*~*~*`*`*`*`*`*~*~*~*POOF`*`*`*~*~*~*~`*`*`*~*~*~

Just another day.

I can't sleep. So, I'm up writting in this thing. Today, we packed all of my daughters things, and her whole room. One room down, 12 more to go. My back is really hurting so bad. I hate at times that I look "ok" on the outside, and no one can see how I feel on the inside. I packed so much, and I over did it. Big time. I know I will pay for this tomorrow. But hey...thats life, right? I did get to talk to my daughter as well today. She got sick again last night. :o( My son packed a few of his things, plus a box of clothes for donation. I took 2 naps today. One in the morning, because I got up at 3:00 this morning, and then after I got back down stairs from helping to pack my daughters room. I had to sit in front of my fan for a long time, to cool down. I felt like I was going to pass out. I just put something else on that was cooler. I went back up stairs to help again in the craft room. Which is basically a storage room for everything. My daughter had stuff in there as well. I just called it a night. I couldn't force anymore energy from my body. My husband ordered pizza for dinner, and I ate 1 slice. I went to take out my dentures, and noticed that my mouth was bleeding from chewing! I've so had it with those things! I watched a movie, and tried to get tired. Not happening yet. :o( And it leads me to now. What a life.

.......And again.

I had a pretty good day yesterday. My sister came over to spend the day with me. The one that has fibromyalgia as well. I'm still sick. :o( blah! Well...my back, my knees and my left fore arm has been hurting. My arm hurts because when I picked something up, I strained it by doing so. Thats going to happen. I have a feeling it will happen a little more, since we are getting ready to move. Oy Vey! But still, so far, so good, with my medicines that I'm taking myself off of! YAY! I've started this morning, taking myslef off of the second medicine! And I really am feeling so much better. :o) It's sad that some doctors think that if they "drug" you up, they won't have to deal with you, and "you'll feel better!" Not the case! I'm getting up early again, but at least I am getting some sleep. I do still take a nap during the day, when I can. Especially since I've been sick. I'm not even wetting myself anymore! I'm wondering if one of those pills were doing that to me. I think that alergic reaction in my mouth, has gotten better. It's a little hard to see. But from what I can see, it looks a lot better. :o) I suppose thats all.

Just another day in my life.

Yesterday seemed to be a loonnnggg day! It never ended! Whe nyou're not feeling well, I suppose that's what makes it feel that way. I took a long nap. I felt a bit better, cold/flu wise, after that. I'm having pain in my back, and in my right knee. Now thats a switch, it's usually in my left knee. I was able to be with my daughter when she read the email with the information in them. They now have a phone! YAY! I stayed on line, so I wouldn't miss her. It worked. So, I was able to be on the phone for when she read them, I could help her through them, and answer any of her questions. :o) I feel so much better about that. I was just so worried, I couldn't sleep. Then afterwards, she called in work because she was sick still. :o( Then she said she was going to take a nap. In the evening, around 6:30, I got a call from her. She just got up from her nap. She just wanted to talk. :o) We talked for about an hour and a half. I hope she doesn't get in trouble for calling me. I could hear her boy friend in the back ground being himself with her. :o( Oh well. I couldn't eat yesterday, but I started to get hungry before my husband got home. I made a bowl of tomato soup. It sounded good at the time, but then....eeewww! It felt like it burned a whole in my stomach! Nothing sounds good when you're sick. I really am hoping that today will be a much better day. My husband bought some cold/flu medicine home for me. I'm not sure if they're helping or not. It's so hard to tell what's fibromyalgia, and what's not. I had to make my bed the other day, and this morning, my dog is laying on it snoozing away! lol Thats my seal of approval! :o) If I was sleepy right now, I would get in bed with her! :o)

I'm hurting inside.........

I'm not getting any better from this stupid cold/flu thing. I still have a fever. I got up at 3:00 this morning! Way too early. I'll just take naps during the day. My fibromyalgia stuff is the same. My back is hurting me, and my knees. I think my knees are hurting maybe because of the cold/flu thing. Who knows. I had to change my sheets yesterday, and it really did me in. Whew! I over heated bad! It kind of scared me a bit. I had my fans on, and my air conditioner on as well, to cool down. It worked after about 2 hours. Just because I'm getting better in certain areas, doesn't mean I still don't need help in others. Again, it must come down to, "well, you're looking so much better!" Thats on the outside. It's just like in the begining all over again. Oh well. It's me, I can bounce back. NOT! Not always. I have the same feelings as everyone else does. I had to do something that I really didn't want to do. I found some papers that my daughter needs. But neither of us could come to each others home to get/give them. She asked me to write it out in an email. There are 8 pages of them. I did my best. I found them over the weekend, and I did my best in writing them to her. I just wished I could have given them to her myself. It makes me mad that I couldn't. :o( I didn't know of anyone that could take me to her where she lives. Plus, everyone was busy any ways. I'm hurting so badly, deep inside because of this. Again, oh well. Sweetie...I tried and you know I did! I love you so much! :o) If I knew that my car would make it, I would have tried. When it comes to my kids, they come first!

OUCH!

I didn't get much sleep at all. I couldn't take a nap. I tried to, but I just couldn't get sleepy! I hate the way my sleep disorder does to me! If I don't get to sleep when I need to, then, when I'm up all night, I can't get to sleep at all! It's just so stupid. :o( All day yesterday, my back was killing me! My right shoulder, and my legs were weak. Great! Just what I needed! But again, this is good ole' fibromyalgia for ya'! My son and his girl friend both have the flu/cold. I have it now. :o( I have a fever as well, so I know I'm contagous. So, as always, we will be sure to pass this along for a few weeks to everyone in the house! Again, with fibromyalgia, I'll have it the longest, like always. Thats life. My sister called me last night, the one that has fibromyalgia as well, to see if I wanted to go get coffee with her and our mom. I was eating at the time. But when I started to tell her that, we seemed to get disconnected. Dead air. I called her back and left a message on her phone to let her know that I couldn't, and thanks for the invite! :o) I just took my night time pills at 6:30, because I was finally getting tired! Then my other sister called, and told me about her son's dream. She was also asking me questions about others that I felt she should have asked them, not me. So, I just told her about their health, and I know nothing! No more game playing here! I was getting so tired, and was not at all feeling good. At about 8:30, I went to bed. I had the fan on me, because I was hot. When I woke up this morning at 5:30, I was sweating so badly. eeewww! I still have a temp. and I'm all "achey" all over. OUCH! My shoulder is better, but my back still hurts. Not as bad. I'm glad. I have a feeling that I'll probably end up in bed most of the day. Oh well, maybe I'll "shake" this cold/flu thing. Yuk!

This could mean pain! :o(

I'm glad my day was good early on, yesterday. I went to see my doctor. He was so pleased to see how much better that I am. He even said that I can take myself off of two more medicines. One of them, all together be off of it. The other one, only take it when I have pain! YES! I come home, and layed down for a nap. I do this so I can be sure, or at least try to stay out of as much pain as I can. It worked. My back did feel better. Ok....I'm on a medicine schedual. Plus, a daily schedual. I have to have those for my health. For instance: I can't stay up late for 2 nights in a row. I can't take my medicines late either. Both of those will through me into a tail spin. I had just got into bed last night. I take my night time meds. at 9:30. I know by that, I will usually be in bed by 10:30, or earlier. I'm always the last in this house to go to bed. Then, I hear the phone ringing. I got up and answered it. Gee, it was my one sister that felt she couldn't wait until today to call me, to tell me about a dream her son had! I asked her if she would call me today, when I'm up! She knows my problems, and my schedual, and all about my pills. She came and stayed here before. I even told her! But, thats the thing with her, she only listens if it concerns her! So, after that, I was up all night! I didn't get to bed until 4:20! Great! I am not feeling well on top of my fibro pain. I had a fever as well yesterday. This morning, when I did get up, I woke up with a very bad headache, my back is litteraly killing me, and my shoulders are now hurting me! If she called me for attention, then this is her time for "HER!" Live it up, Kim! I hope you're happy now! I'm now useless for the rest of the day. This is the sister that lied to me, and stole from our mother, and her husband, and she had her daughter with her to help! She's back in town, and hoping that all she has done can be forgotten. Oh sure... NOT! It takes awhile to earn trust back. And that only depends on how hard she claims to "care" like she says! If she could walk in anyone's shoe's that has fibromyalgia, she would then, and only then realize what it's like to be me!