Doing better.

This morning my physical therapist had to wake me up! Wow! Me? I normally don't sleep so late. Yesturday morning, my son woke me up at 10:00! I can't remember the last time I've ever slept that late! He told me that he was worried about me. Bless his heart. :o) I thanked him. But, I still felt like I could have slept longer! I don't understand the reason why I've been sleeping so late. It could be because I am so exhausted. I do have so much on my mind. I go to bed at 10:00 at night....but I usually get up way before 7:00. Oh well. It doesn't matter...I'm finally sleeping! :o) I looked up the signs of a stroke yesturday...and the symptoms are having a numb leg or arm on one side, dizziness, blurred vision, and trouble speaking and remembering....LOL...I already have that! That goes along with having fibro! :o) Good Grief! That means I wouldn't have the faintest clue if I ever start to have one! lol Yesturday...I did some more relaxation.....a breathing technique. It has been working good for me. :o) If I don't do something...I'll fall to pieces. If I don't laugh about what I have...I'll fall to pieces. So...I do my best to make light of this and live. Thats all I can do. :o)

It's been awhile since my last entry....sorry.

On Saturday...my computer crashed on me! Yikes! I felt so alone without it! lol :o) ( kidding) But...I did need it so I could look up some very important information. I got the computer back late yesturday. :o) YAY! So...I can now do my research. A lot has happened since my last entry. Weird how that works. :o) I still haven't been able to get back to everyone to let them know what happened. I will though. :o) Ok....on Monday, I had a doctors appointment for a follow up on all of those horrible tests I went through...and the blood tests. My appointment was for 1:15, and I didn't get out of there until about 3:30. What I heard from my doctor was NOT what I was expecting. This doctor is a new primary care doctor. I changed to him only a few months ago, because he does know and treat fibromyalgia. Now....I'm very glad I did. I've gone in for the same kind of tests before that my old doctor gave me. Nothing was found....they all would come back normal. Hmmm....he wasn't "on top" of things in my opinion. Well....I was told that I had "greasy blood!" I started laughing! I thought he was joking. NOT! He was very serious. He showed me all of my test results, and all of the blood work that came back very high, and dangerous! OUCH! Not good to see. While the doctor was telling me why my tests came back that way, and why didn't my last doctor catch this and/or do anything about this....I went into a daze! I could see his mouth move....but I wasn't able to hear him. :o( My mom was with me, and I had a note book and pen, and was trying my best to write everything he was saying to me, down. Yea right! I did do my best. What it all comes down to is this....my blood sugar is very high! What? I'm hypoglaucemic! It wasn't "computing." I have to now be tested for diebeties. My liver isn't doing so hot either. He needs me to have a liver biopsy. There is something going so wrong inside of me, that my red blood cells are so high, I have too much blood! What? Never heard of that either. It's just my body's way of trying to fight something off thats in there that isn't suppose to be, thats wrong. But...the thing that really floored me was when he was talking about certain blood tests that didn't come back normal, and very high....were the ones that told him that I really need to be closely watched, because I can have at any time, a stroke! Then a big possibility that I could have a heart attack! Good Grief! So....he did let me know that this had to have been going on for a long time, and if my other doctor ever gave me blood tests...yes he did, but he was a quack! I feel pretty safe with my new doctor, because he is sending me to a specialist for the liver and my "greasy blood." The only way that I've been getting through all of this not so good news, has been doing some breathing techniques to relax. I just can't wait until all of this is over with, and I'm finally fixed. I can deal with the fibro, but it's a little harder knowing this other stuff, and trying to deal with it as well. I think I'm doing pretty good. :o) Thats all for now. :o)

Up early.

Well....I got up way too early this morning, because of my right arm in so much pain. I got up at 3:00. Bummer. Oh well. This morning, when my husband gets up....we have plans on going back to Wal-Mart to put a crib in lay away for my daughter. I can't wait....because it's the one I want her to have for the baby. :o) My son took her to JC Penny's on Thursday, and baught her a new pair of maternity pants, and an out fit for the baby! :o) That was so sweet of him to do for her. :o) So far....it's been between my son and his girlfriend, and me that has been getting her the things that she needs for the baby and herself. Sad that the father of the baby doesn't...and he lives here! Oh well....she'll one day see what he "hasn't" done for the baby and her.

My pain had gotten so much better since yesterday morning. Whew! :o) I layed down for a nap, and it really helped the pain. Breathing was making my chest hurt, which made my shoulder hurt, and then go down my arm on my right side. Ouch! I'm just thankful that I can breath without it making me in such aganizing pain. :o) Well....thats it for now.

Ok....I'm really in pain now! Ouchie!

Ok......Now I'm really in pain now! My daughter and I went to too many places in two days. On Wednesday, we went to the book store so I could get a book. It's located in the next town. Then I took her out for dinner for her birthday. We came home totally exhausted! Then....I guess I didn't learn my lesson, and we went to Staples and Wal-Mart yesterday. I wanted to get some more extra large pens, because I can not write with "normal size" pens. And at Wal-Mart, I wanted to get some beads and jewelery making crafts, to start making them again. That never happened. lol I got in there, trying to remeber what it was that I was there for, and ended up getting new sheets for my bed, and things for my daughters baby. :o) I totally forgot. By the time I remembered, I was way too tired to go all the way back to where the crafts are located to even look! So...we came home, both exhausted once again. I had in mind to lay down, because I was really in pain. So...I changed my sheets, then I noticed that there had been things left while I was out, that needed to get done. I wasn't able to lay down. :o( So....this morning....I'm really paying for it! OUCHIE! My pain level is between an 8 and a 9 right now. I've even taken my medicines. Oh well.....at least I will have something to read while I'm down for awhile. :o)

What a day!

Yesterday was an "ok" day. Pain wise, it was about a 7 still. But....I still try to fight it. Doesn't work that way. I payed for it. There was a book I really wanted to get, and yesterday I was able to get out to go and find it. The book is great! I love it! It's called, Fibromyalgia for Dummies. It's so easy to understand and read. I highly recomend it! :o) I found in one of those emails that were sent to me by Micki55555, she had it listed under books to read. I like it because you don't have to read all about doctors studies, and scientific studies on this and that, or between the lines to try to figure out what you're reading. This book gets straight to the point, and very easy to understand. :o) My physical therapist came this morning. OUCHIE! Boy...did this session hurt! But well worth it. Until next time....... 

Well....I thought it would be over?

Yesterday started out to be a very stressful time. I really was so stressed, my neck and shoulders started hurting so badly, it felt as if I had whiplash all over again! My pain level was a deffinate 9! I didn't have to testify yesterday. But.....I will on March 17. At least by then, I will be ready for the trial. Whew! I will be able to do my own techniques in relaxation. :o) For my mind and my body. After I came home....got out of my clothes, and into more relaxing pj's, I started to relax so much, I got very tired. :o) Plus, I could feel the pain leave my body, little by little! YAY! Now, I'm just back to my "normal" self of a pain level of 7. :o) Big difference!

I still want to point out that the links I provided 2 entries ago, are a must see! The first link is the best! Just sign up for the information packets, and you'll recieve 3 emails packed full of links, and information. :o) I can't stress it enough....I have learned so much more from doing this myself. I've even put some of the information on my own website. :o)

Whew!

Today, my stress level is very high. My mom is going to court today, and I need to go with her to help. I'm very nervous. It's not her fault that I feel this way. She is getting a devorce, and I need to be there. I'm sure she is more nervouse then I am. I got so nervouse yesterday, I thought I was going to have a seizure again. Which I suppose wouldn't be all that bad. The last one I had a few weeks ago....ever since then, I've been sleeping better. Seizures are weird that way....my neurologist once told me that everyone should have one, because it helps the brain work better....kind of like rebooting your computer. :o) Oh well. I'll get over this, and move on today like my normal self. I just hope that I can help my mom out as much as I can. :o)

My pain level this morning is already between a 7 and 8. I hope that people that read my last entry, went to the web sites that I provided. :o)