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Yesterday was another bad day once again. I had to take another pain pill to try and ease this pain a bit. I rested in bed most of the day. My son did all of my errands for me. :o) My daughter couldn't come over because she was busy. I was alone, which scares me when I'm in this situation. I never know whats going to happen. I don't have anyone else to call to come over to help me. My best friends car isn't working. :o( Plus, not hearing from my mom, I don't know what hours she works anymore, and I seriously doubt if she even would come. She's busy at work. I have a feeling that today will be another one of those days. My massage therapist is coming this morning, and when she's done, I'm in more pain then I started out with. But it does help. I've been using my wheel chair and my walker to get around. Too bad my sister doesn't live closer to me because I know she would be here in a heart beat. :o) Too bad she doesn't have a car either, she would be able to come up for a day to help. My mom baught her best friend a car, and my other sister a car, and I have a car, and she baught my other sister a winter coat. She has to walk to work in this cold weather, and her work is over 2 miles away from her home. And my other sister doesn't work, but has a car. :o( I would giver her mine in a heart beat if I could. :o) But, thats our life! :o(

I couldn't sleep all that well last night. I have too much on my mind still. I've talked to my husband about the situation thats on my mind, and he's not real happy at all! And neither am I, and I can't seem to get it through the head of the person the situation is about! He sees what this has done to me, and is not happy about that either! Hopefully I will be able to feel better soon. :o) I'm trying! :o) I plan on being in bed today again to try to rest my body.

Well, I suppose thats all for now. My pain level is way off my pain scale, and has been for a few weeks now. I'm still praying for at least one day of releif. :o) God bless, and all comments are welcome. :o) Everyone have a great day! :o)

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Yesterday was one of the worst days for me with pain! :o( Of course, I took my normal medicines, and I also took some Advil to see if it would help with taking some of the edge off of the pain a bit. Nope, didn't even make a difference. So, I eneded up having to take a Vicodine! :o( I only take those if I have no other choice! It did take some of the edge off. My daughter was here doing her laundry, and my grandson was asleep in my bed, so I got in bed and took a nap with him. :o) The pain was my whole body! It seemed to start from the base of my head, upper neck, and just generated all through my whole body! :o( Then, I just rested, and watched my grandson play and be his cute adorable self. ;o) After they left, my pain wasn't getting any better. I had to resort in taking another one! :o( That time it seemed to help more. I went to bed around 10:30. Got up at 2:30 again this morning. So far, I'm still in a lot of pain, and can barely move. :o( If I move my head the wrong way, there is a pain that will shoot right down my back, and then into the rest of my body. Ouchie! :o( I really hope that today I'll feel better. This pain is agonizing!

I did have a good day even though I was in such pain. It helps to have my kids and grandson here with me! :o) They all make me laugh and smile! :o) I don't know what I'd do without them all! :o) To me, they are my life! :o) Laughing helps so much when I'm in so much pain. :o)

I am hoping I will have a good day today. Again, all I have planned to do is rest in bed. I am going to call my daughter to see if she can come over to make my bed for me. The sheets need changed really bad, and with me being in the bed so much, the sheets get all tangled up and very uncomfortable. My son has been helping me by cleaning and dusting and vacuuming for me. :o) And my husband called me yesterday from work to see how I was doing. :o) I don't know what I would od without the love and support from my family! :o) And not just my kids and husband, but my sister as well! :o) She writes me to ask how I'm doing even though she reads my journal. :o) And my best friend too! :o) That makes me feel that she really loves me and cares enough to ask about me. :o) She's such a sweetie! :o) And the ones that write comments makes me feel that they care too. :o) Even when my Aunt write as well. :o) Thank you all. :o) I've been getting ecards from my great Aunt everyday now, and they have been cheering me up! :o) They are so beautiful! :o) I write her back to let her know. :o) Again, thanks for the comments, and keep them coming! :o) God bless. :o)

..................................................There is no such thing as an insignificant human being. To treat people that way is a kind of sin and there's no reason for it. None.

                                                         -----Debbi Feilds

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I got up at 2:30 this morning. The pain in my neck and upper chest area woke me up! Ouchie! gggrrr! I have those large lumps again in those areas. It's so hard to get comfortable to sleep. I'm trying my best to relax to help my body feel better. My daughter will be here today to do her laundry, and I'll be in my bed trying to rest. Thats all I have planned for today. If I don't rest my body, I know I will be in worse shape. I don't want that. I had to use my wheel chair yesterday. :o( After my massage therapist came, I was able to just use my walker. I'm still having problems walking. Oh well. The pain thats in my back that goes down to my hips affect my legs pretty bad. Thats what's making it hard for me to walk.

My husband and I sat down last night and made the Christmas list of the gifts we need to buy for the family. This year we are having some money problems. So, the list isn't what it usually is. We have to use one of his weekly checks to buy for everyone. I'm usually done shopping by now this time of year. This has been such a bad time for us this year. But I am very thankful that we can at least be able to give something. :o) It's from our hearts. :o) And to me, thats what matters the most. :o) I was going to help with my Kohls credit card, but I had an identitly theft happen with it! Last night, my husband and I got that situation under control. Whew! But I'm stuck now paying off the bill that I didn't buy. But at least it has been settled now. Just thankful for that. :o) At times I think in my life, if I didn't have bad luck, I wouldn't have luck at all! lol :o) And I know if I don't laugh about it, I won't get by in my everyday life. :o) But, there must be a reason for all of this to happen to us. And thats ok. We will get through it together. :o)

I guess thats all. My eyes have been hurting as well lately. I know they are getting worse, but they are also hurting. Who knows what that means? Just something more for me to live with. And thats ok. :o) Please keep the comments going, they help me get through my days. :o) I don't feel so alone. If that makes since? :o) God bless you all! :o)

Good Grief!

Well, my day yesterday wasn't very good at all. I am still having problems walking. No surprise to me. Just part of what I have I guess. I also was having something that hasn't happened to me in awhile happen all day yesterday. My whole body would do this jump/flop thing! I don't know how to describe it. It feels like it comes from my back, and then it's like I get a jolt and my whole body will jump/flop! I had one happen so bad, it almost made me fall out of this chair! I don't know what is causing it. I'm still having those dizzy spells and the feelings of passing out! I just get in my bed to where I feel safe in case anything happens. I don't know whats causing this either. Plus, the pain I'm in as well. Geesh! I found two new muscle lumps yesterday! :o( I was doing so good. It could be the stress and lack of sleep. Having a seizure disorder as well, stress and lack of sleep is one of the main causes for a seizure too! Just like the number one cause for my body to react in a bad way too! A double edge sword here. :o( So I just stay in places to where I know I will be safe just in case it will become a seizure. My husband has already moved some furniture around for me so I can use my wheel chair. He is very worried about me. I don't blame him, becasue if I don't know whats going on, I'm worried too! Oh well, it's my life. :o) Just things I have to deal with and move on. :o) And I so. :o) All comments are welcomed, and God bless you all. :o)

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I was feeling a bit better yesterday. The dizziness. I laid down and took a nap and slept for 5 hours! Geesh! I guess my body needed it. :o) I'm begining to wonder if my body isn't under more stress then it can handle still. I have to keep my system always at an even keel. Even temperature. If not, I have bad reactions. Thats due to the damaged hypothalamus/thalamus. I can't control it. Boy do I wish I could. I still have so much on my mind. I'm worried about my sister. I wonder what I have done wrong with my mom. This all needs to be settled. Especially my mom getting my one sisters hopes up on becoming a part of the family again and getting to spend time with her mom, and now it seems to be hopes let down because of what my other sister has said. There are 3 of us and we all "need" our mom, no matter what! You just can't pick and chose which one of us you'll be closer to. I'm just hurting over all of this mess, especially now, at this time of year! I've gotten used to her being this way, but my other sister needs her just as the other one does! But for some reason, it isn't seen that way. And thats pretty sad. It's been excepted that my one sister has changed, but not the other. Not very nice in my opinion. :o( If she can give my other sister a chance, then she should give this sister the very same chance. And if she can remain friends with someone that lies and takes from her, which she "feels" that my other sister will do to her, then I just don't get it. :o( Does any of this make sence? It doesn't to me either! You should live it! :o( This situation in my opinion is very childish. When you have more then one child, you can not pick and chose. I sure don't! I grew up this way, and by having my own children, I can not see how a mother can do this. :o( I love both my children so much and the same. I don't know what I would do without them. Of course through the years they've hurt me, lied to me and stolen from me, but nevertheless, they are still my children, and we've worked through it all. Thats the way it should be. God doesn't turn his back on any of us! I can see this situation to where she won't have anyone but herself and her "friend." I'll still be here, but she will have to be the one to come to me this time, I've been going to her to try to talk and am getting no where. She needs to also tell her friend the truth about the letter she had me type for her to send to her friend. That has to end as well. I'm still hurt over that, especially because I'm the one that took the heat from it, and my body got worse over that, and she tells her friend not to listen to the letter even though she was the one that had me type it for her. Her friend needs to know the truth. I just really neede to talk about this because I think this could be a part of my problems I've been experiancing. It needs fixed so I can get better. And by the way, if you're reading this "woo", ask me, and I'll tell you the truth.

I didn't sleep very well last night. My back and hips are hurting. The right side of my neck is killing me. I was having a hard time walking again yesterday. My legs don't seem to want to work at times. Maybe I'll try my wheel chair today. I won't like it, but if I have to, I will.

By the way, if anyone reads this, and seems to get all "bent out of shape" over what I wrote, don't dog me. I needed to get things off my chest and thats it. Yes, I do have good things to say, and positive things to say, but not this morning, just really needed to get this off my chest. Ok? God bless you all! :o)

 

Busy yesterday.

On Thursday, I was still having problems with being dizzy and the feeling of passing out. I know I should make an appointment, but I'll just ride this out. I did however get out to pay my bills, and my best friend went with me. :o) After getting my errands don, we went to Red Lobster for a relaxing dinner. We both really needed that. For the both of us, it felt so good just to get out of the house. And that was another way to stay out even longer! LOL :o) Yesterday I was still feeling dizzy! My sugar is fine. Which is good. Whew! :o) But still, other then that, I still don't feel ill. I'll figure it out. :o) My daughter called me and needed me to watch my grandson while she did some errends. Of course I jumped at that! :o) Thankfully, the night before, I went to Big Lots and found an umbrella stroller for only $7.99! That really came in handy! So, instead of carrying my grandson when I'm not able to, I put him in his stroller. :o) Plus, my son was here so he helped too! :o) Kayden just thinks he's the funniest person alive! lol As soon as my son walks into the room, he starts laughing! lol :o) Yes, my son has always been able to make people laugh! lol And he's still that way! :o) He still cracks me up! lol So yesterday went great! I was able to get some pictures while he was here. He had just went to the doctors and got 4 shots, so he wasn't feeling up to par. Poor thing. I'm still worried about my mom. She tells me not to, but I can't help it. I just wish she would talk to me and get it out. Oh well. I'm also worried about my sister. :o( She was suppose to come up here this weekend for a mini vacation. Well, now she won't be able to make it up here for the rest of this year. :o( I really wish there was a way that I could help her with Christmas, but I'm not able to. All I am able to tell her is to not give up and to be positive. God will find a way to help her. :o)

Well, I am in more pain then I have been. All of the samethings still are hurting, and now I have my right side of my neck killing me as well. Both of my eyes are doing this twitching thing, which makes it a little hard to see at times. :o) Both sides of my face will just go to town on the twitching. It is one of the weirdest feelings. My right foot and ankle are hurting pretty bad as well. Last night I had a hard time walking. I know that there are times when I should be using my wheel chair instead of my walker, but it's harder for me to use with my upper body in so much pain. Every chance I do get, I lay in bed to rest my body. I bought myself a new Bible, I've never had one of my own, and I've been sitting in my bed transfering all of the things that I have out lined in my old Bible to my new one. :o) Thats taking a lot of time to do, but what I'm also doing while transfering is reading it as well. :o) I'm already in the New Testiment! :o) Yay! :o) I suppose thats all for now. Please keep your comments coming, they really do keep me going. I don't feel so alone that way. God bless. :o)

My thoughts.............

Yesterday wasn't a good day at all. I don't know what it is, because I have 3 sleeping disorders, a seizure disorder, borderline sugar problems, and the fibromyalgia. I was really feeling out of sorts. I was using my walker all day to help get around the house. I took a nap, and thought that would help, and I still felt the same. I don't feel like I'm coming down with anything, thats why I need to figure out what it could be. Process of elimination. :o) I did, however, have a lot of tremors/shaking, and different kinds of muscle spasms as well. So, I kind of think it could be a seizure ready to happen very soon. I have auras that can last up to 3 days before I have a seizure, so I never really know when it could actually happen. :o( Not a good thing. I was in the hallway to go to the kitchen last night, and almost passed out! Thankfully my husband was there and caught me and was able to sit me down! Whew! That was a close one. I went to bed early last night. I didn't get much sleep because I was having those dreams again. I couldn't write anything down because I didn't have time. I really needed to go to the bathroom. :o) But, I do know that they were prophetic dreams. I still feel them which is good. I just don't have anything specific wrote down to help me remember the whole dreams. They will come back to me. :o)

My daughter is coming over today, so thats makes me feel better. :o) I won't be here alone. Just in case anything happens again. I just have a feeling that all of that stress that I was under for awhile, and then having good days without it all might be messing with my system a bit. I am very thankful that I don't have all of that stress right now! Whew! It really made my body hurt pretty bad! I'm still having the same pain in my upper body, my back and my hips and down my legs still. But, the good news is that there aren't any new lumps are pain popping up! YAY! :o)

I want to thank those who wrote comments. :o) Please keep them coming, they really do help me keep going. :o) Go bless. :o)