A very good day! :o)

Yesterday was one of the best days I've had in awhile! :o) Pain wise no, but the rest was great! :o) I'm so happy that we now have a Christmas tree! :o) I wanted one so bad for my grandson's first Christmas this year, and thanks to my best friend, we now have one! :o) Good things happen to those who wait. :o) And I waited for two years. We didn't have one last year, but this year meant more to me because of my grandson. :o) It's our little tradition, my kids and I have always decorated the tree every year. And this time my grandson helped too! :o) It was so adorable! He loved it! :o) After we were all done, we had lunch, and my grandson took a nap. My daughter brought over a movie that I've wanted to see, and her and I watched it. :o) It was good! I'd love to see it again! Whew! We all had such a great time! :o) It was so nice and relaxing for me. :o) I really needed that. :o)

My stress level is finally going down. :o) YAY! :o) So far so good on nothing "stupid" happening. That really helps with my pain level as well. I'm the type of person that does not put up a front for people, I am who I am to everyone. You either like me, or you don't. Thats how I am. And I don't care if you do or don't, because I won't change the way I am or live my life for someone else. :o) I've always been that way, and so is my husband and kids, :o) I feel that, thats the way it should be. :o) So, the things I do write in my entries are very true, and what I am going through. So I'm the same way when I write, I won't change the way I am for no one. You either like what I write, or you don't. :o) I have helped a lot of other people with fibro through this journal, and others that just go through the smae things I do in my everyday life as well. :o) I thought I'd write that so the ones that read this might know me a bit better. :o)

After my daughter left yesterday, I was in a bit more pain. I already knew I would be by helping with the tree. But it was so worth it. :o) I'm getting so used to having this pain, it's just a part of my life. I was so exhausted as well. I went to bed pretty early. My right upper side woke me up with pain again. I'm going to try and take a nap today to just rest up my body, it reaaly needs it. So, I'll be spending my time in my bed reading today. :o) So today should be another good day. :o) God bless you, and all comments are welcome. :o)

Another entry.......

All in all, yesterday was a pretty good day. :o) My best friend came over for coffee. The place where her daughter works had an old Christmas tree that they were going to throw away. She asked me if I knew of anyone that needed a tree. I told her we did! :o) We have a Christmas tree now!!! Yay! :o) I'm so excited over it! :o) My daughter is coming over today to do her laundry. So, she and my son can help me decorate it! :o) My mom came over to visit me as well yesterday. :o) She got the job she wanted! YAY!!! :o) I'm so happy for her! We talked, and I just let her know that all I wanted is for the person I typed the letter for should know the truth. Then that mess will be over. Whew! Talking in person is so much better then through stupid emails. I just don't want anymore lies told. Not fair to me at all.

So I had a pretty much relaxing day. Not bad at all! :o) Finally! :o) My massage therapist is on vacation this week, so I'm going to have to rough it out all week! Yikes! But I can do it. :o) I'm still having the same pain in the same places as I have been. Just thankful that nothing new has popped up. :o) The only problem that I really was having a lot of problems with yesterday was the fibro fog again. I really had a hard time talking. Thats just gets frustrating. And sometimes embarrassing. Oh well, just apart of my life. :o) I woke up at 2:30 this morning. I couldn't sleep because of the pain in my upper body. I couldn't find a comfortable spot to lay in. I'll try to get a nap in today. :o)

Today all I have planned is to get a nap in, decorate the tree, and spend time with my grandson and my kids. :o) Sounds like a good day to me. I just hope that what I have planned will go through, and no "surprises!" I hope that everyone has a good day, and God bless. :o)

Just to talk...........

Yesterday turned out to be a good day. :o) Nothing stupid happened, finally. :o) My husband and I finished putting up the Christmas lights. Boy was I still very sore from the day before. But it's finally done! :o) Yay! My daughter came over last night and my grandson seen all the lights and was so excited! :o) lol It was so adorable! :o) We gave them some extra turkey that we still had left to take home with them. We still have so much left overs in the fridge. lol My son is putting a hurt on it though! :o)

My pain level is still high. I'm still working on getting it down by trying to get most of the stress out of my life. ( Keyword: trying ) I'm just glad that yesterday was a good one for me with the stress factor. My whole upper body is still in exacerbation. My back and hips are still really bad, but today I plan to rest in bed. Well, thats about all for now. :o) God bless you all. :o)

.................................................I am not afraid of storms for I am learning how to sail my own ship.

                                    - Louisa May Alcott

UUUUHHHHH!!!!!!

All I want to do right now is just scream as loud and as hard as I can! And ask, "WHY?!" I was having an ok day yesterday. My husband and I where putting Christmas things out, and he put the lights out side for me. I love this time of year. :o) I had to quit because of the pain in my upper stomach area, and in my back and hips. But we are going to finish it today. Then, I get a phone call from my daughter. She is visiting her relatives south of here. She went on line to check her email. Oh GEE, guess what she got?! ANOTHER email from our nieghbors!!!! WHY?! She has asked our nieghbor for a one of a kind picture back that she was holding for her for when she had room for it. She's had asked her weeks ago. And this was in the summer when "we" were friends. Since my daughter has moved, she wanted it. Well, The email said that they were going through their closet and "accidentally" threw it away! Ok, does that make sense? NO! If YOU knew you threw it away, then it's NOT an accident! How stupid do they think we are? And then to email that to her letting her know this?! It's never ending! I honestly don't know what to do. My daughter is very upset over this matter. It was something she can never have replaced. I'm livid! What do you do with neighbors like this? I have no idea! We don't talk to them or acknowledge them.

Then, my mom has hurt me once again! I did what she wanted me to do, and now she's acting like I'm the bad person! I just don't get it. We used to be very close...I guess she's changed her mind on that one too. And that really hurts me too. :o( What it all comes down to is she isn't speaking to my other sister because of my one sister that lives with her, and...she isn't telling her "friend" the truth about what she wanted me to do for her! So, from what I'm getting is that she has "chosen" -(for lack of a better word)-to assiated with only my sister that lives with her, because she says that she "needs" HER right now?! Not any of her other daughters?! So she's using the one thats living with her for help with money, and now just done with us? And we are the ones that she asked to do that favor for her! Now she doesn't want to face the fact that of what she's done to us. Or the truth about this situation! It's so confusing to me and my other sister! I guess she's done using us for what she wanted us to do. :o( So, yes my sister is very hurt and so am I! Plus, we are very confused over all of this shit with her! If I actuall knew what she is doing and why, maybe I'd understand why she has made such a choise, but she won't talk to me about it. Good Greif! She needs to tell the truth to my sister thats living with her and to her "friend!" Thats what would make this situation more clear and probably over with. Which I would love to have happen! Because I can't take this stress anymore! And my mom of all the people knows that!

And I was having such a good day yesterday until all of this bull starts up once again. I just don't know what to do about the neighbors. Any suggestions? And it seems that the situation with my mom is a lost case now. It really hurts. :o( If she only knew how much. :o( Today will be a better day! This stress has to pass! It's hurting my body very bad! My husband see's this and is not happy with any of these situations that are going on! He see's what it's doing to me. Thats why he's helping me with putting out the Christmas things this weekend. People- get a grip on your own lives and leave others out of it! God bless you all. Please all comments are welcomed.

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Yesterday was just another day to me. I'm just so glad that I had such a good time on Thursday. I so needed it. Now everything is back to the same old stuff. I still have alot on my mind about a certain matter that has not been settled with my mom. As soon as that situation is over, my stress level shoulf go way down. Then my body can feel a bit better. My massage therapist came at 4:00 yesterday instead of in the morning. And YEPPERS....It hurt like hell! My husband was here and heard me scream and yell. After she left, he asked if I was ok, and I told him that this is what I go through everytime she comes. He helped me to sit down and got things that I needed. :o) He knows that I'm in pain everyday, but I don't think he realized what I have to go through with my therapist. He knows now. It hurt him to see me like that. He just kept asking me if there was anything he could do for me, and then he would stop himself and say, "I'm sorry, I know that there isn't anything." That was so sweet of him to help as much as he did. :o) Of course, I didn't do anything the rest of the day. I just sat on my chair and watched t.v. She even had to massage the palms of my hands. I had 3 in my right, and 2 in my left. So needless to say, I was having a hard time using my hands. It also seemed that I was having a pretty hard time yesterday with this "fibor fog." I would be talking, and then I'd lose what ever it was I was going to say. Thats so frustrating to me. So, I just stoped talking. It made me feel better. It gets so bad at times, I feel so stupid about myself. Even though I know I can't help it, it just really gets to me. Oh well, thats just apart of my life. I guess thats all for now. God bless you all. All comments are welcomed. :o)

Finally...a normal day! YES! :o)

Yesterday was so much better then the days I've been having. :o) Whew! I needed that. Nothing stupid happened. :o) Everything turned out like it was suppose to. Whew! I was just a bit late on the cooking, but that was just fine. :o) I haven't eaten that much in months! lol :o) I'm still very full! lol My daughter stopped by before going to her fathers house, so I was able to see them, and my son and his girl friend stayed for dinner. :o) My sister and her boy friend came as well! That was the first time that I met him, and he fits right into our family! lol :o) Thats so cool! My husband and I really liked him a lot! :o) The day really wore me out, and I was in a lot of pain, but I was having so much fun. :o) Everyone had me laughing so hard! It hurt to laugh, but oh well. Laughing is so much better then being upset. :o) My massage therapist is coming today again. This is really going to hurt! Yikes! My husband has today off, so he will be able to help me through the day. :o) I actually had 8 and a half hours of sleep last night! YESSS! :o) I was relaxed enough to actually sleep, plus I founf a good spot to lay, and stayed there all night. :o) I did have another accident, I urinated myself again, but I'm so used to that. Just part of fibro I guess. Well, I guess thats all for now. God bless you all. :o) All comments are welcomed! :o)

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! :o)

Last night when my husband came home, I was able to calm down and get busy with finishing my cooking for today. I was also baby sitting my grandson! :o) When he was taking a nap, I crawled in bed with him and took one too, so I could rest up more. I really needed it. I really am so glad that my son was here all day! He helped me so much with everything! :o) I wouldn't have gotten much done at all if it wasn't for him helping me. I was baby sitting because my daughter was getting one of her Christmas presents from her boy friend! A tatoo! lol :o) It is beautiful! :o) Then when she got here, she was helping me out as well. :o) Both of my kids were worried about me. They could actually see the large lumps on my upper stomach area and ribs sticking out! They were, and they were hurting very bad. when my husband got home, he helped me out as well. :o) Things started to go more on time. I always put the turkey in the oven at 10:00 at night, and cook all night on 250 degrees, and by the morning it's almost done. :o) Since I don't sleep well, thats what works for me. :o) Well, I was late on getting it all done. At one time when I was in the kitchen starting the dressing, I almost passed out. All I could do was to hang on to the counter and yell for my husband. He helped me to sit down, and I started to feel better. My sister also called me, and she was making me laugh! :o) It hurt to laugh, but it did cheer me up a lot! :o) I really needed that! Between my sister and my family being here, they helped me to calm down so much. I am so thankful for them! :o) They are the ones that live with me and know me! That really counts. :o) After getting the dressing done, I got them in the oven. Then I took another break. More things needed to get done, so I went back to the kitchen to help out my husband. He was in that kitchen all night helping me! Bless his heart! Thats even after a 10 hour day at work too! :o) Got the dressing out of the oven at 11:00. Then was able to get the turkey in. I was only one hour late. Not bad for the day I had yesterday! :o) The pain in the whole upper body is what woke me up this morning. But, thats my life. I have to keep going no matter what. :o) God bless you all, and all coments are welcome. :o)