One of those days

Today is just one of those days to where I'd much rather stand in the middle of the street and play in the traffic! Or stand out side and scream at the top of my lungs! Maybe do both! I'm not able to sleep right now, so I thought I'd write a bit in my journal. Hoping maybe it will help.
When I got up this morning, I wasn't feeling very good at all. Through out the day, it has progressed. Now I feel much worse. My throat hurts and so does my mouth! Never had this feeling before! It hurts so bad that it is litterly bring tears to my eyes and they are running down my face! I have no idea what it could be. I just know how much it hurts. I'm getting a bit tired of things that "hurt." Geesh! Just need to ride this out as well.

I've tried differnt things to drink to see if that would help my throat. So far nothing has. Earlier, I showed my daughter my tongue, and she said it looked like it had been beated with a meat tenderizer! lol :o) Oh...that made me feel good! LOL :o) Well...it does! :o)
I really hate not being able to sleep. I feel alone. No one to talk to. :o) Because I have sooooo much to get off of my chest! Whew! I know as soon as it's all over, I'll feel so much better.
I want to congratulate all the winners of the VIVI awards! YAY! :o) I took my nominee things off my side bar, because I don't know if I'm suppose to leave them up or not! :o) Someone will let me know. :o)
Thanks for your emails and comments...and God bless all of you! :o)

~From me, to you~

Happy Birthday Chris! :o) She is the one that made the graphic above! :o) From me, to you!!! :o) I also want to congratulate all of the VIVI winner's as well! :o) WooooHooo! :o)
I can't believe the responces I recieved from my little videos! :o) I'm still practicing! I don't know why they are so short...but I'll figure it out! lol What you seen, is what it's like in our home! lol And it was at dinner time! :o) Not everyone was home, but I got everyone else! LOL
I took a few pictures yesterday, to try and capture my grandson's father's eyes! So you can see where he got those beautiful eyes! :o) His daddy! :o) The first picture they were goofing around..lol! Then in the second...Kayden wanted down so I got Nena and Jeremy only, and tried to get his beautiful eyes. :o) I do hope you can see them. :o)

Well....I got up tonight at 1:30. I am not feeling good at all! I did nothing but sleep all day yesterday! Sleep is good, but when you don't feel good, it's not a feel good sleep...if that makes sense! :o) I get hot, then cold, and my physical therapist came yesterday morning. Ouchie big time!!!!! NO KIDDING!!! :o( This would be the first time that I almost hit her! It hurt that bad! I told her that I had went out to vote on Tuesday and went to Aldi's, and when we got home, as I was getting out of my daughter's car...it sits low to the ground....which is very hard for me to get in and out of.....I felt like I pulled a muscle on mt left side. It felt like it was on my rib area. She felt around it, and said that it sort of felt like I had broken a rib! What? How? She said from the stress of getting out of a low sitting car could do it, from my muscles contracting! I've never heard of that one! When she got to my left side to give the deep massage, she again felt and then said that it was a muscle and it was very swollen. So she went ahead with the massage on it!!! Thats when I almose hit her! :o( I would never mean to do that on purpose, but it hurt so badly! She said I still might have a broken rib, but she still need to treat the muscle there to help keep the ribs supported. Which is very true. So, I'm still in a lot of pain over that. I'm not going to go to the er, because I've had so many broken ribs before, and theres nothing they can do about them. I'll just let it heal. Whew!

I'm hoping that today is a better day. My home health aid couldn't come yesterday either because she wasn't feeling well. I hope she feels better. :o) I need to get clean sheets on my bed, I've been sweating, and getting cold...Yuk! My laundry needs to get done as well. It all can wait until tomorrow when my husband is home. :o)
I'm getting a bit dizzy here.....so I need to rap this up! :o) Thank you all for all your emails and your comments! God blesses you all! :o)

trying another one! lol

Trying another video! lol

~Opposite~

Yesterday, my daughter wasn't busy so she was able to take me to vote! :o) That got me out of the house for a bit! :o) It was raining of course, but it felt so good! :o) I didn't even take my umbrella! It was fresh air to me! :o) It was her first time voting. I was proud of her! My son worked late, and when he came home, he was in a hurry...he went up to his bedroom to grab his card that he had kept notes on for who and what he was going to vote on and for. Then he rushed out the door! :o) I'm so proud of the both of them! :o) I've always told them since we in America have this right to vote, then do so! :o) And they do! Well...now my daughter does! :o) I had made beef and noodles for supper last night. I the beef in the oven since 5:30 in the morning slow cooking. :o) It was good and tender by the time we were ready to eat! :o) While my daughter and I were out, I also asked if she could take me to Aldi's. I wanted to go to Wal Mart, but my legs were already starting in on me, getting stiff, so Aldi's is much smaller. I barely made it throught that little store! Geesh! :o) I picked up a few things that we needed, and a few things that we didn't! lol :o) My grandson thinks it's "cool" to drink out of a water bottle. I drink water, not any soda's. And he just thinks thats the coolest thing to do! lol So...we seen these little juice bottles and another kind of juice things that he can drink out of! LOL :o) He seen them and he had to have them! lol So...grandma got them for him! :o) So...now he's going to be all "cool" now! lol I'll have to get pictures of him being all "cool!" lol. He's so adorable! :o) So now, he can sit in grandma's bed, and be all cool with a bottle of juice with the calulater! lol :o) Bless his heart! He just makes me smile! :o) I seen that they also had this little laptop computer for kids there as well. He likes to sit on my lap while my daughter or myself are on the computer! :o) He is so curious! It wasn't that expensive at all. If I had the money, I would have gotten it for him, then he and I would be able to sit in my bed with our laptops! :o) I told my husband about them, so maybe he'll go out there sometime this week and get one for him! :o) For being only 17 months old...he sure is a pretty smart little guy! :o)

I just love to go places with my kids...and now with my kids and my grandson! :o) You couldn't ask for better kids! :o) Love them to death! :o)
Well, while at Aldi's, you guessed it...my legs did it again! I was in the last isle and it's like the freeze up or lock up on me and they just will not move for nothing! And I try everything I can think of. Mind over matter, waiting....and trying to just sort of "shuffle" my feet. It doesn't work! So I stand there! Luckly, there was a bit of a line to wait in, so I didn't look like a fool. :o) Well, I really could care less what anyone thinks! I'm always getting stares. lol :o) Because I have "unseen" illnesses and I have a handicap placard, so I park in the handicap areas.
In the last entry...I get these emails, and I found this to be very interesting, so I posted it! It made a lot of sence to me. If anyone has anything that you want to know about, or want to see posted, I probably have it, or can find it, and can post it for you. :o) No problem at all. :o)
I got my 4 hours of sleep in last night! Yesss! :o) The pain in my legs, hips, and back woke me up. Geesh! I do have an appointment to go to the pain clinic today. Oh yay! lol :o) I do hope that what he tries on me today will work. Actually, just a few hours makes such a differance. And I'm very gtateful for even that much! :o) I broke down and did take a pain pill about a half an hour ago. It's kicking in...but it hasn't as of yet, taken any of the edge off. But I'm feeling a bit woozy here now! lol :o) Just very glad my bed is just right behind me! LOL :o) Whew! :o)
Oh..by the way....I'm still doing the Christmas card exchange. :o) You don't have to send me one, but I'd love to send you one! :o) So....just send me your address and I'll send mine! :o)
Good Grief! I'm going to have to go now! Wooo! lol Pills have me now! lol :o) Thank you all so much for your emails and your comments! God does bless each and everyone of you! :o)

Childhood Trauma Raises CFS Raisk

Childhood Trauma Raises CFS Risk

Researchers Also Say Stress Is a Factor in Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Reviewed By Louise Chang, MD
on Monday, November 06, 2006

 

Nov. 6, 2006 -- Childhood trauma raises a person's risk of chronic fatigue syndromechronic fatigue syndrome by three- to eightfold, CDC researchers find.

Another study, based on data from the Swedish twin registry, shows stressstress to be a triggering factor for chronic fatiguefatigue syndrome (CFS). It also shows that emotional instability is a significant CFS risk factor, although genetic and family factors determine whether this personality trait leads to fatigue.

"Our observations lend support for the hypothesis that CFS represents a disorder of adaptation that is promoted by early environmental insults, leading to failure to compensate in response to challenge," conclude CDC researcher Christine Heim, PhD, and colleagues.

"Stress is a significant risk factor for chronic fatigue-like illness, the effect of which may be buffered by genetic influences," conclude Karolinska Institute researcher Kenji Kato, PhD, and colleagues. "Emotional instability assessed 25 years earlier is associated with chronic fatigue through genetic mechanisms contributing to both personality style and expression of the disorder."

Both studies appear in the November issue of Archives of General Psychiatry.

Worse Trauma, Higher CFS Risk

Heim's CDC team is studying CFS in a community-based sample of more than 56,000 residents of Wichita, Kan. At the time of the study, they had identified 43 people with ongoing CFS. For the study, they compared these people to 60 matched people without fatigue.

A key finding was that more severe childhood trauma was linked to a higher risk of CFS. And the type of childhood trauma was important, too. They found:

Eightfold higher risk of CFS with childhood sexual abuse.

5.9-fold higher risk of CFS with childhood physical neglect.

4.6-fold higher risk of CFS with childhood emotional neglect.

4.3-fold higher risk of CFS with childhood physical abuse.

2.9-fold higher risk of CFS with childhood emotional abuse.

"It appears that CFS is part of a spectrum of disorders that are associated with childhood adversity," Heim and colleagues suggest. "In adulthood, these disorders frequently manifest or worsen in relation to acute stress or challenge. … These disorders might reflect the brain's inability to adapt or compensate in response to challenge, leading toward maladaptive responses and ultimately disease."

Stress, Emotional Instability, and CFS

Kato and colleagues looked at data on more than 19,000 twins born in Sweden from 1935 to 1958.

They found that emotionally instability was linked to a 72% higher risk of CFS symptoms. Emotional instability is a personality trait. People with emotional instability tend to have low self-esteem and feelings of anxiety, depressiondepression, and guilt.

But emotional instability, Kato and colleagues find, is onlypart of the equation. High levels of stress -- reported up to 25 years before CFS symptoms appeared -- increased CFS risk by 64%.

When the researchers looked only at twins sharing the same genetic makeup, they found that emotional instability no longer predicted CFS. But stress upped a twin's odds of having CFS by nearly sixfold.

This, Kato and colleagues conclude, means that while emotional instability is an important risk for CFS, whether a person with this personality trait actually gets CFS depends on unknown genetic and family factors. Thus, emotional instability is an indirect risk factor for CFS, while stress is a direct risk factor.

 

Researchers Also Say Stress Is a Factor in Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Nov. 6, 2006 -- Childhood trauma raises a person's risk of chronic fatigue syndromechronic fatigue syndrome by three- to eightfold, CDC researchers find.

Another study, based on data from the Swedish twin registry, shows stressstress to be a triggering factor for chronic fatiguefatigue syndrome (CFS). It also shows that emotional instability is a significant CFS risk factor, although genetic and family factors determine whether this personality trait leads to fatigue.

"Our observations lend support for the hypothesis that CFS represents a disorder of adaptation that is promoted by early environmental insults, leading to failure to compensate in response to challenge," conclude CDC researcher Christine Heim, PhD, and colleagues.

"Stress is a significant risk factor for chronic fatigue-like illness, the effect of which may be buffered by genetic influences," conclude Karolinska Institute researcher Kenji Kato, PhD, and colleagues. "Emotional instability assessed 25 years earlier is associated with chronic fatigue through genetic mechanisms contributing to both personality style and expression of the disorder."

Both studies appear in the November issue of Archives of General Psychiatry.

Parasomnia/ sleep disorder I have as well

Sleep Disorders: Parasomnias

Parasomnias are disruptive sleep-related disorders that can occur during arousals from REM sleep or partial arousals from Non-REM sleep.

Types of Parasomnias

Nightmares

Nightmares are vivid nocturnal events that can cause feelings of fear, terror, and/or anxiety. Usually, the person having a nightmare is abruptly awakened from REM sleep and is able to describe detailed dream content. Usually, the person having a nightmare has difficulty returning to sleep. Nightmares can be caused by many factors including illness, anxiety, the loss of a loved one, or negative reactions to a medication. Call your doctor if nightmares occur more often than once a week or if nightmares prevent you from getting a good night's sleep for a prolonged period of time.

Sleep terrors/night terrors

A person experiencing a night terror or sleep terror abruptly awakes from sleep in a terrified state. The person may appear to be awake, but is confused and unable to communicate. Night terrors last about 15 minutes, after which time the person usually lies down and appears to fall back asleep. People who have sleep terrors usually dont remember the events the next morning. Night terrors are similar to nightmares, but night terrors usually occur during deep sleep. People experiencing sleep terrors may pose dangers to themselves or others because of limb movements. Night terrors are fairly common in children aged three to five. This sleep disorder, which may run in families, also can occur in adults. Strong emotional tension and/or the use of alcohol can increase the incidence of night terrors among adults.

Sleepwalking

Sleepwalking occurs when a person appears to be awake and moving around but is actually asleep. Sleepwalkers have no memory of their actions. Sleepwalking most often occurs during deep non-REM sleep (stages 3 and 4 sleep) early in the night. It can occur during REM sleep in the early morning. This disorder is most commonly seen in children aged six to twelve; however, sleepwalking can occur among younger children, the elderly, and adults. Sleepwalking appears to run in families. Contrary to what many people believe, it is not dangerous to wake a person who is sleepwalking. The sleepwalker simply may be confused or disoriented for a short time upon awakening. Although waking a sleepwalker is not dangerous, sleepwalking itself can be dangerous because the sleepwalker is unaware of his or her surroundings and can bump into objects or fall down.

Confusional arousals

Confusional arousals usually occur when a person is awakened from a deep sleep during the first part of the night. This disorder, which also is known as excessive sleep inertia or sleep drunkenness, involves an exaggerated slowness upon awakening. People experiencing confusional arousals react slowly to commands and may have trouble understanding questions that they are asked. In addition, people with confusional arousal often have problems with short-term memory.

Rhythmic movement disorders

Rhythmic movement disorder occurs mostly in children who are one year old or younger. A child may lie flat, lift the head or upper body, and then forcefully hit his or her head on the pillow. Rhythmic movement disorder, which also has been called "head banging," also can involve movements such as rocking on hands and knees. The disorder usually occurs just before a person falls asleep.

Sleep talking

Sleep talking is a sleep-wake transition disorder. Although it usually is harmless, sleep talking can be disturbing to sleep partners or family members who witness it. Talk that occurs during sleep can be brief and involve simple sounds, or it can involve long speeches by the sleeper. A person who talks during sleep typically has no recollection of the actions. Sleep talking can be caused by external factors including fever, emotional stress or other sleep disorders.

Nocturnal leg cramps

Nocturnal leg cramps are sudden, involuntary contractions of the calf muscles during the night or periods of rest. The cramping sensation may last from a few seconds to 10 minutes, but the pain from the cramps may linger for a longer period. Nocturnal leg camps tend to be found in middle-aged or older populations, but people of any age can have nocturnal leg cramps. Nocturnal leg cramps differ from restless legs syndrome as the latter usually does not involve cramping or pain. The cause of nocturnal leg cramps is not known. Some cases of the disorder can occur without a triggering event, while other causes of leg cramps may be linked to prolonged sitting, dehydration, an overexertion of the muscles, or structural disorders (such as flat feet). Muscle-stretching, exercise, and adequate water intake may help prevent leg cramps.

Sleep paralysis

People with sleep paralysis are not able to move their body or limbs when falling asleep or waking up. Brief episodes of partial or complete skeletal muscle paralysis can occur during sleep paralysis. Sometimes sleep paralysis runs in families, but the cause of sleep paralysis is not known. This disorder is not harmful, but people experiencing sleep paralysis often are fearful because they do not know what is happening. An episode of sleep paralysis often is terminated by sound or touch. Within minutes, the person with sleep paralysis is able to move again.

 

REM sleep cardiac arrhythmias

A cardiac arrhythmia is a change from the normal rate or control of the hearts contractions. People who have coronary artery disease and whose blood oxygen is lowered by sleep-disordered breathing may be at risk for arrhythmias, which take place during REM sleep. Continuous positive airway pressure (CPAP) treatment may reduce this risk.

REM sleep behavior disorder (RBD)

People with rapid eye movement (REM) sleep behavior disorder act out dramatic and/or violent dreams during REM sleep. REM sleep usually involves a state of sleep paralysis (atonia), but people with this condition move the body or limbs while dreaming. Usually, RBD occurs in men aged 60 and older, but the disorder also can occur in women and in younger people. In the diagnosis and treatment of RBD, potentially serious neurological disorders must be ruled out. Polysomnography (sleep tests) and drug treatments also can be involved in the diagnosis and treatment of this disorder.

Sleep bruxism

Sleep bruxism involves the involuntary, unconscious, excessive grinding or clenching of teeth during sleep. It may occur along with other sleep disorders. Sleep bruxism may lead to problems including abnormal wear of the teeth and jaw muscle discomfort. The severity of bruxism can range from mild cases to severe cases that involve evidence of dental injury. In some cases, bruxism can be prevented with the use of a mouth guard. The mouth guard, supplied by a dentist, can fit over the teeth to prevent teeth from grinding against each other.

Sleep enuresis (bedwetting)

In this condition, the affected person is unable to maintain urinary control when asleep. There are two kinds of enuresis -- primary and secondary. In primary enuresis, a person has been unable to have urinary control from infancy onward. In secondary enuresis, a person has a relapse after previously having been able to have urinary control. Enuresis can be caused by medical conditions (including diabetes, urinary tract infection, or sleep apnea) or by psychiatric disorders. Some treatments for bedwetting include behavior modification, alarm devices, and medications.

Nocturnal Paroxysmal Dystonia (NPD)

This disorder is sometimes marked by seizure-like episodes during Non-REM sleep. Most evidence points to NPD being a form of epilepsy. Episodes of NPD typically recur several times per night.

Reviewed by The Sleep Medicine Center at The Cleveland Clinic.