Too much to handle....

I woke up early once again, and went to bed late...seems like this is becoming something of a horrible habbit that my body has gotten itself into. I woke up at 3:00 this morning with weird dreams waking me up. I think I've figured out why I've been in such pain for so long. It's not the things that I've been physically doing. I haven't done anything. It's all the things that I have on my mind...which is a sh*t load! To say the least. It has been things that I can't talk about to the right people. Because I'm afraid that I will upset them. I did something last night that makes me feel like sh*t. I was suppose to go to court for my mom today, but I called and let her know that I just couldn't do it. Thats not because I don't love her and that my heart isn't with her. Believe me, I feel the guilt as well. Since I get the "fibro fog," I know I would choose a wrong word to say, and could possible mess things up. I couldn't do that either. Because this past week, I've been not able to concentrate at all. The pain has been too massive. My prayers are still with her. I really wish that I could talk about the other stresser in my life. If I do, I feel it would cost me tremendously. So...I hold it in. It goes to show that even physchological things can make the body go into an exacerbation! How much more can I take? I guess we'll see. I want so badly to be able to talk with my daughter about certain things, but I know she will take them all wrong. So I keep quite. She's pregnant, and thats the last thing that I want to ever do is to make her upset. Which when I do try to talk to her, she does get upset, and takes things all wrong...one reason is because I can't find the right words to say because I feel I need to pick and choose the right words to try not to upset her. Thats a viscious circle. Then, there are more I need to talk about to someone else. I don't see that one happening very soon either. You have to walk on "eggshells" around this person, or they will think you have it in for them. Which isn't the case. I realize that I'm rambling, but I need to get this out, and off of my chest. I'm a nice person. I try to help people. But, someone throw me a rope here....it would be nice if I could resolve these issuses! I know I'd feel better. But, if I do say anything, "I'm a bitch," and"In a bad mood!" All I want is to just feel better again, and not be in so much pain...is that too much to ask for?