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Well....I trulely want to thank all of you that made such good comments and good advise. :o) I agree! Because my day to day like, might show someone else out there who might come across this journal and relate to me. :o) I write in this journal to try to help others. And in that one entry, no, I never envy anyone for what they might have, and I do so very much appreciate what we do have, and thank God that we do have it. :o) I also agree with Miss O by not having to move my own mountain. It does seem that way. My husband and I have always helped others. We've never asked for anything in return, it just is such a great feeling to be able to help and give. :o) But this time, the shoe is on the other foot. We are the ones in need of help. My husband spent the day yesterday trying to make the back porch/deck safer for everyone. What he is doing, is using the old wood and turning them over and drilling new screws in it. The wood is warped and the screws were the wrong ones to begin with, so he's doing his best with what we have to make it safe. :o) He works 12 hour days, stands all day, he takes 15 minutes for lunch so he can sit down, then when he comes home, he starts working here. Plus, he has to do things for me as well. :o( His health isn't in good shape, and it hurts me to see him go day in and day out like this. Like I said before, we had no idea how much work this house needed before we moved in. I'm grateful that we do have this house. But, it's been nothing but a money pit for us. Our neighbors even see how much he works even after he gets off of work. They don't know how he does it. My neighbor came over the other night and was talking to me. She told me that her and her husband would like to help out as much as they can. Wow! I started to cry. She said that they want to try and get us a new deck that would be built right and safe, and a safe porch light, and a few other things. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. She feels that the reason that we have met is because God felt we needed them to be here to help us through our hard times. :o) I feel as well, that people come across others paths for a reason as well. :o) She seen that I was crying the other day, and came over to tell me that she made an appointment for me, my daughter, and herself to get manicures and pedicures. I've never had one before. :o) She said it would be a girls day! :o) I like to have such positive people around me. :o) I was able to get a small blow up pool yesterday and a raft. :o) It was right in my budget. The pool was only $24.99! Yay! So now I can stay cool while I'm out side, since I can't get in and out of my tub. Plus, it will also benifit more then just me. :o) I couldn't sleep again last night. My legs were cramping up and twitching really bad all night. And my left eye was hurting, and I was trying to find the cramp so I could rub it out. When I got up and went to wash my face off, my left eye was swollen almost completely shut! I had no idea! I don't know why it's like this. It seems to going down some. Boy, my shoulders, upper arms, hands, elbows, lower back, hips, face, and thighs and my feet are all killing me and all are doing their little cramping job on me. Yikes! My energy level is still bad. My neighbor even said that she will come over to help me with this room. :o) YESSS! It's so full, I have a hard time getting through. Plus this morning I've been tripping a lot as well. I used to do that a few years back. I don't need to fall. Geesh! My husband just got up at 7:30, and he's already working! He really needs to just take a day off. So, this stress of him does make my body ache. Only because I worry about him. Plus, all of the every day stuff that just happens to go on.I'm thinking about taking out a loan to try and help. My two weeks worth of my new medicine wasn't just $95.00 like I origanlly thought. It was $134.38! I'll get the two weeks worth, and my husband said that he'll do his best to get the other two weeks worth for me. And my daughter is going through a very hard issue. I'm doing my best to help her through it. She doesn't need to have this happen to her, she is such a sweet person.  Oh.....my grandson just turned two months, and he had a doctors appointment, and he's teething already! He's getting the two bottom teeth in! I'm amazed! He's doing so good with it. :o) He's my little prince! :o) I should end this. Have a great day everyone, and God bless you all, and thank you again for all of your great comments and advise, it does help me to keep going. :o)