~Just whatever comes up~

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and in hopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. May God bless you!......

Good afternoon! Journal gremilns have been keeping me from writting an actual entry. :o) Today...I'm going to try it anyway! :o)

I've been really doing great! Just wanted to let everyone that! :o) I've been doing alot of things with my medicines and have had so much success! YAY! :o) I've done what I said I was going to do; take myself off of all of those medicines! So far, I'm down to just 4 now! Yesss! I'm so much better then I've been in so long! :o) What a difference! :o) My husband noticed a difference in me and my health and I told him just last week what I had done and he is very proud of me! :o) So am I! With the work of my doctor, I'm doing good with it now...! :o)

I still have those days though...but over all...I know I will not have to go to see the pain clinic again! YAY! No more chemicals in my body that I don't want! Ick!

I think we've all here have had the stomach flu so many times now! Geesh! Mine started on Easter day! I think I've had it now at least 4 times since! uuuhhh! I think we keep passing it around.

I'd also like to mention something that I read this morning about friends. I'm truly upset for a friend of mine. My heart goes out for you (L). Through hindsight...I've learned the hard way so many things. I've gotten hurt so many times, by thinking that I had a friend then come to find out I truly didn't. And here I had opened up my heart and said things that I would never had told anyone else to! And then to turn around to find out they were talking behind my back and letting me know how wrong I was living my life! Believe me..it cut! I've learned time and time again to not be so open to anyone anymore. My husband told me never again to be so open, because what I said has now been used against me! And all it was...was my life and things that happened in my life! I never in my wildest dreams would ever imagine that something like a simple conversation would/could be turned around and be all your fault! How? By trusting the wrong people. I now have only enough true friends that I can count on one hand! That I can KNOW I can trust to talk to. I'm by far not a mean person...just can't feel I can ever trust anymore. And I really feel thats sad! I truly do!
And what was said to you at work...I've heard that one too! God hears us all pray! :o) Again....I've heard bad things from supposed friends like that one too! Not nice! And very hurtful too! :o( God is loving! :o)

I don't write much anymore in this journal about what I used to because of certain things. I want to keep things the way they are now, happy for me and my family! :o)

I've been having problems with putting photo's up and haven't figured it out yet, but when I do...I'll post some. :o)

One last thing before I go.....in my eyes; Trust has to be earned.

Gods Blessings to all of you! :o)

Tags: Trust, Friends, God, True Friends! Not Fake Friends!, Love