Can't sleep.....!

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and in hopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. God bless you!......

 

Well....I'm up! :o) Went to bed early. Before I went to lay down....I was watching tv...and then tried to draw and paint. My hands aren't as steady as they used to be, so my drawings don't come out the way I'd like them to anymore. Bummer! I tried a simple painting useing simple water color pencils. I screwed up on a fish I was trying to draw...so it looks like some kind of a monster jumping out of water! LOL :o) The rest of it came out pretty! :o)
I just chucked them aside. :o) It's good exercise for my hands and small motors though! :o)

My daughter had told me on Friday that she was going to be moving out. She leaves on Friday to stay at her boy friends and on the weekend visits her father. :o) On Monday's she comes back home. She called me to let me know that she was going to stay at her boy friends house on Monday night because my grandson was sleeping.....so I wouldn't worry. :o)

Too cute he is! :o) This Saturday is his birthday and this is the picture that will be in the newspaper! lol :o) Love it! :o)
This afternoon...my daughter had dropped by to pickup her mail on her way to do some erands. She told me that she wasn't going to be here again tonight. :o( I said ok.
Later...through an email...I found out she isn't coming home. :o( I cried so hard. If I knew that...I would have went out to the car and gave my grandson a kiss and a hug, and given her a kiss and a hug as well. My heart shattered! No words can describe that feeling!
I got sick. I called her on the phone because I really would rather talk and hear her voice and emotions then through enails. I had to end our converstion because I got sick again! When I get upset like this...I get sick! I don't know why. :o(
I understand her and why. I'm proud of her. I just wish she would have done this abit differently. This past week and a half has been a roller coaster! I would like to get off now!
I guess I feel like Im in a way, being punished for someone else's actions! And when someone moves out...they come home..pack up their things, and then move...right? I know she's grown, and not alittle girl anymore. I guess I'm just abit confusses. Nothing unusual for me! :o( Lately...I seem to be confise all the time!

Thank you all for listening to me!
And again...thank you for the emails, ecards and comments...they're keeping me going! :o) Gods blessings to you all! :o)

Hug...laugh and live! :o)

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