Just need to talk......

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. God bless you!......

Good evening/morning! :o)

I wasn't able to sleep, so I thought I'd log some more things. :o) I hope you don't mind. :o) I feel this needs to be done.
I talk alot about my pains and don't really like to. I know it's a downer for most of you to read and not uplifting, but hey...this is why I started this journal! :o) I write what I want. :o)
Most of today was the same as it has been for the past week. <sigh> I mostly write about the fibromyalgia and the ms. I don't write about the other things that I suffer pains from, except the arthritis which has been really giving me some grief!

I have such a hard time getting comfortable...anywhere. I'm sure alot of you can relate. I also have osteoporosis, osteoarthritis and bursitis in my hips. I have these spurs on my spine that are getting much worse. There are days where I can actually feel the crumbling of the vertabra. It hurts so much to walk. I also have tumors on my spine as well. The last count as of early last year were 5. The doctor that I loved and had to move his practice....told me they couldn't be operated on and that I would get more. With the pains I've been having....who knows! :o) But, I have this stupid doctor that doesn't help me, so I'll never know until I'm able to find another one.
With the new insurance....that has also put a huge hault on who will except me. Which really sucks! So...this doctor has left me with only my seizure medication! lol :o) I guess since he can't feel what I'm feeling...whats it matter...right?
So....I still will not give up! :o) I'm a fighter! But....I have made a decision to slow down on visiting journals. :o( This pain has taken over my body to the point to where I have to do something. :o) I'll still come around when I can, but I won't be able to everyday like I used to do. :o) Please don't forget me! lol I'll still be here, just not like I was before. I can't anymore.
I have to come first and to fight this health battle that God gave me! :o) And I will! :o)

When I always say; Thank you for you comments....I really do mean that, because they do keep me going! :o) I know that someone out there cares enough to stop by my journal and take the time to leave a comment! :o) Thank you! :o) Gods blessings to all of you! :o)

 

Tags: fibromyalgia, osteoporsis, osteoarthritis, arthritis, ms, My Life! :o)