To know me.

The year after I had my daughter in 1986...is when I started noticing problems. I had lived with epilepsy all my life, so that wasn't the case here. I had been diagnosed with that at the age of 8 months with that.
Backing up a bit here...I got married to the man I live with now in 1985.
What I was experiencing was falling alot. My legs would just fall from underneath me. Since I had epilepsy, I had a neurologist all my life as well. I would tell him these things. Experiencing alot of drowsiness and dizziness as well. I had my son and a baby girl to take care of and 2 jobs. I was concerned.
A few years went by, I was still having these falls. I was then having them so often and so bad, I would break bones. My feet, ankles, and constantly on crutches. I was always tired. My doctor would tell me that it was all in my head. I changed doctors.
I then started having problems with my eyes. They would hurt. Problems with double vision and blurriness. I was sent to an eye specialist in 1994. At that time...he seen in both eyes something wrong. He then sent me to another neurologist. He wanted him to test me for ms. He seen damage behind both of them, which he told me that was odd.
All I knew was I was having alot of problems and no one was taking me seriously!
I went to see this new neurologist. Again, he told me it was all in my head. My problems were getting worse. My legs were worse. My left leg would sort of drag at times on my bad days. The pains were getting to the point to where I would literally scream.
I still had to live my life, go to work and take care of my children because it was "all in my head."
I live with an alcoholic and he also knows what I have gone through. He has witnessed everything!
I am also a survivor of child abuse. I have over come all of that as well. But I guess old patterns never die. My big mistake!
I finally was able to get my neurologist to take me serious about my sleep. He then sent me to a sleep specialist. It showed that I have 3 sleep disorders. I told him about whatI was going through and the pains I was having. He was the only doctor that listened to me! He ordered an MRI for me.
Then, my neurologist finally took me serioulsy. The MRI showed something. He then ordered all kinds of testings that took me 3 years to take and have the results back. He found that I had fibromyalgia. He also told me that there was 2 other tests that came back negative, but never gave me the results! The one test was the EMG test that I had this March. It was also negative as well. It proved that I did have ms.
This neurologist that diagnosed me with the fibro. which I do have, told me not to go back to him unless I go to another neurologist and he needs my records! I did NOT like him one bit. That made no sense what so ever. He is the one that told me all these years that it was all in my head! If and only if he would have listened to me for once....my body wouldn't be as advanced as it is to this very day!
My new neurologist that I really like...that has given me the diagnosis of ms and is now working with me, is getting those very records.
Now....one of my points is this....as I stated at the very beginging, and how long I've been having these very same things accuring. Ok? And...I've been living with the very same people as well. Wouldn't you think that at least ONE of these very same people would at least remember what I'm going through? 2 of them do....my kids. How about that. And I don't have to reming them every single day of my life. I don't have to explain to them the whys and the whats every single day. They already know and remember. No, I do not have no place else to go. If I did I would  be there right now. I do not qualify for any disabled living places because of my age. No...I don't have any family members. Right now, things are calm. Thank you God! I've prayed so very hard...and I thank each and everyone of you for all of your prayers too! Thank you!

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