~Waiting~

Good morning. I do hope that all of you are doing well!
My daughter had an appointment yesterday to try on wedding gowns! We have so much fun! Oh...just beautiful she was in them! We both agreed on the same one! :o) It looked like something out of a fairy tale! :o) The pictures don't show very well at all how beautiful she and the gowns were! Absolutly stunning! :o) We both were so glad that they could fit her, when we shop for her and buy her a top, she is busty, and it's so hard to fit her. Bless her heart. She wants a reduction so badly. But the lady that was helping us was able to find the right size to fit her! She was so worried about that at first. We just had so much fun there! It was great to get out as well! :o)
The place was David's Bridal In Dayton by the Mall. She has another appointment for her bridesmaids to go in and get fitted for their gowns. :o) The lady showed me the mother of the bride gowns .....and Nena and I just laughed! :o) No way! LOL She didn't even like any of them! They weren't very nice at all! LOL
Then we came home. Oh boy! :o(

As I walked in, I could imeditly feel the negativity! I could have just sliced it with a knife! I got out of my clothes and changed in to something else. Nena was trying to show her boy friend the pictures we had taken and he really didn't want to see them. That hurt her feelings! Because the dress she likes was more expensive then the one he wanted he to get! Geesh! She came in here and loaded them on the computer to see them better and wow...just beautiful! He still would not look at them! Neither would my husband! I sat in my bed, gave her a hug and told her to not worry about them and to try to relax. Well....not long after that, I hear her in the living room with jer boy friend and my husband, crying! :o( So, I go in there to see if there was something I could do. I asked what was wrong. My husband said that she doesn't need to have a dress and that they can just go to the court house and get married, or just live together because it costs to much to just have a piece of paper saying you're married! UH! Then, He asked me a question that I honestly don't remember, and I answered him, but I said too much because he yelled at me and told me that I didn't have to go that far! Well, how was I suppose to know? Nena calmed down because he stopped nagging on her. I had came back in here in was sitting in my bed with my heating blanket on for my hips and legs.
Well, I thought maybe it would be an ok night. Nope! It's like he goes around to everyone to see who will fight with him. He sat down on my bed and started talking to me. Again, honestly don't remember what it was about. After he was done, I told him that I had some things that I wanted to talk to him about! I felt strong enough mentally to do it! He got all pissy about it and really didn't want me to talk to him! Too bad! My turn!
I asked him why in the mornings, does he make fun of me of the way I talk (my throat is very dry and can't talk well) and then will yell at me about it? He told me that it's because that he's in a bad mood in the mornings and he feels like making fun of me, then he will! That hurt! I told him how there are times in the monings that I'm not physically able to clean up the puppies poo and pee because of my illness. He said, "I thought you wanted a dog!" I said that I do, but, I repeated what I had just said! He just shook his head as if I was making up excuses. Then right after that, when I told him that in the mornings, my back hurts the worse usually. Then he told me that it's probably because "I need to lose alot of weight!!!" :o( And that I really should get started on it soon too! :o( And that the YMCA membership that he's getting me in Feb. will really help me! And then he just went on and on and on about all of the new things that they have there that will help me lose the weight and that would be good for my muscles and how I can go everyday! :o( I just sat there and cried! :o( Talk about a slap in the face! As if I didn't know I need to lose weight? :o( Then he didn't like it because I was crying, so he got up and left. :o( I just sat there. I was also going to tell him that I want to move out too, but he didn't give me a chance. But that ok, I need to look into it more before I say anything to him.
I honestly do not know this man that I'm living with! I need to go now. I need to go and relax....and blow this nose of mine again.
I do want to thank all of you for your supportive emails and comments! o) God does bless us all!:o)