again...don't know where this will lead.

I'm late getting to my journal this morning. I had too much to do. :o) I had alot of email to tend to as well. :o)

I went to bed last night at my regular time. I didn't wake up until 6:45! Wow! I am so exhausted mentally! I tried to sit up and when I did, I was so very dizzy, the room was spinning! I layed there for awhile and watched tv. The room was still really spinning! I have no idea why I was feeling like this. I went ahead and got up any way. I had to get the puppy out and clean up the poo and pee. It wasn't too much! But, I was fust holding on to my walker tight just in case I fell.

I got all of that done, and my coffee was done. I came back in here. I sat down and the room was still spinning! I was hot and very shaky! I'm still shaky and a bit dizzy still. I put something cooler on. I wonder whats going on now.
Well, yesterday I thought when my husband came home, that I was going to really hear about what I had told him the night before. My daughter was in here when I told him, and she remembers what he had said and his reactions, and last night, when he came home I was sitting in my bed resting my hips and legs. He never said anything bad or mean to me about it! My daughter this morning told me that she was as surprised as I was! It was like he was glad that I had made that desicion! He also told me last night that the place his granda was in here in town wasn't an assisted living place! So, he's thinking about it too! :o( Too bad. Someone had said, "Through sickness and health," I wish it was that way. Not in this house. I guess I've proven it! To myself .....I'm hurting so much more inside then anyone could ever imagine! To see the person that you feel in love with act this way towards you, without letting you know when they fell out of love with you, it would have helped me to better understand certain things. I still of course love him, but with how he's been acting these several past months, has hurt me terrible!
And now, putting more on me, besides all of my illnesses...is so overwhelming to me and it is hard on me to do. I've talk to him about that as well. But it's like talking to a brick wall! My daughter agrees as well...because she has to take care of her son during the day, and I can't help it if I get sleepy, weak, not able to walk, and not able to walk fast enough! I can;t hekp it, and he feels that I can! That I still don't understand. Oh well.
He called a bit ago just to see how the puppy was! He's fine. and oh, by the way...We're fine too! :o(
When I prayed this morning, I ask the Lord to guid me in the right direction. And I know He will. In His time.
Well...I'm going now. Thank you all for your emails, ecards and comments! If you only knew how much it means to me. God bless all of you!