Need to talk....so I'll just talk here.

Now it's good afternoon. And I still hope that everyone is alright. :o)
I want to explain something. My little rant from earlier. I'm only human to start out with. But, I've just had alot of things done to me and said to me within a few hours of time! And yes, I am a very sensitive person. But, that still doesn't mean that these people can also get away with what they do or say to me to hurt me, either on purpose or not. So, I kind of had a bit of an explosion. Yes, when you do read others journals on a regular basis and just so happen to come across certain writings that will change your day, good or bad...it affects you. No matter what.
I'm very sorry....I just got an email. No, this is about Sandy. And two others...(M) and (D). I'm so weak right now. My emotions have done that number on me.

Half the time I don't know what to do anymore. I honestly thought I could actually trust in these people. And then I see that I couldn't. All within a few hours! Ouch! Bullseye! Through the heart! I do my excersises to keep my mind as strong as I can. Just like my body. What I'ce come up with...to stop all of this from happening to me again, I have to stop reading certain journals! I just can't do it anymore! I can't live my life on a rollorcoaster. It doesn't work that way for me. I honestly don't know what else there is on my body for me to even lose?!
Plus, I'm going to have to stop doing the games in my group. :o( I felt so betrayed! I know I was! I can still do the other two activities, but not the games. I can't take the drama! It made no sense! I truly didn't understand what happened....if I was told why...then I could have fixed it, or actually have done it! But when someone continually sends you the same email over and over, and you try and tell them that they are doing this, and they punish you for it...it doesn't make a bit of sense! And don't blame me for your mistakes!
Oh well....just one of those days I guess.
Gods Blessings to you all! :o)