......and so on in the life of the flesh of Lisa.

Good morning! I hope all are doing well this morning.
As you know, I posted that I had an appointment to see my neurologist yesterday morning.
The good news is I do not have Stiff Person Syndrome. :o)
Well....you know how your vitals are taken, my blood pressure, tempreture, reflexes...etc... Everything was fine, except for my reflexes in my arms and legs...I didn't have any! :o( He kept hitting harder. I didn't even feel it. He asked me if I've felt anything different since I've seen him last, which was 3 months ago. I told him yes. About a month ago, I remember writing in here about feeling someting very different and didn't know if it had anything to do with the fibro or what. Plus, not being able to raise my arms for a long period of time to brush my hair or even to wash it. And I told him how hard it's been for me to walk, and what I was doing. Using my heating pad and my heating blanket. And told him where It was bothering me the most, my lower back, hips and legs.

Well....he then looked in my eyes with that little bright light and the had me do some had and finger tests. Then had me walk with my cane for him. Then to sit back up on the bed. I thought I did good! NOT! I really like this doctor alot, he has such a great attitude and is on top of things. He had already checked my arms and legs and such. He was very thorough. He then told me that I've already lost my muslce abilities in my legs and my arms! :o( It had already started! He actually hung his head, then looked up at me and said, if it hadn'd already been as bad as it is now, he could have done something for me! :o( He did order me another EMG test in a few weeks. I have to go back down to Middletown for it becuase he says he wants to do the test himself to see for himself what's going on.

I am very overwhelmed with all of this right now. I'm also very upset as well. I'm grieving of my lose. :o( Soon, I  will be a quad. I pray that Extreme Home Make Over will help me. I talked to my family about what's going on with me, and what I need to happen around the house. And that I'm going to very soon need their help. Well, I alread need help with my hair, and a few other things.
This morning around 1:30, I had a nightmare. My daughter and my husband woke me up! I guess I was crying and screaming and throwing things like my pillows. The only thing that I can remember about what I was dreaming about was someone was strapping me in a wheel chair and I was fighting them off. Oh well.
I also haven't been around to your journals, I just need to take a break right now. Please don't take it personally. I feel like screaming right now. I've been trying to think of something to laugh about, but I can't come up with anything right now. Oh well. Just please pray for me and put me on your prayer lists. Thank you. This is just pretty hard to swallow.
Thank all of you for your supportive comments, and Gods blessings to all of you!