~A part of life~

Good morning/afternoon. I do hope that everyone feels alright. I really have a few things on my mind this morning, actually....from yesterday! I just kept it in for a bit to try to make some sense out of it!
I can't come up with any! And I don't know really what to think. I do know I should have kept my mouth shut about the insurance! I seem to always talk too much about something! I had no idea that it took that long. No one told me. I'm very grateful for all that everyone has done...please don't get me wrong. I just didn't know. :o) I don't want to put one in, and waste money if they're going to come and tear it out.

Moving on.......

Yesterday my husband was working on this computer to try to make it so that I can be on my laptop and on line with the cable hook-up as well. So, I was on and off most of the day. He just got back from Staples, and I see that I'm going to be on and off again. ;o) He found what he needed to be able to hook it up for me. :o) So, when I'm not able to get out of bed, I can still be on line! :o) That will be so nice. ;o)
Well....I didn't get to bed until 4:00 this morning and got up at 8:00! Here we go again! I'm wondering if it's going to be that routine, or just a fluke. Hopefully a fluke! Pain is what woke me up, so I'm betting my money on a fluke. :o) I've got another headache, but thats all it is, no migraine! Whew! :o) Gotta think positive here!

My daughter and her boy friend took our grandson to see Disney on ice today! :o) He's going to just love that! I can't wait to see the pictures when they get home! :o) I'll post them of course! :o) He loves things like that!
I'm sure you've might have noticed that I've made some changes to my side bar! :o) I've met someone that has inspired me so much! :o) I know that our paths were meant to cross! :o) At least for me anyway! :o) Plus, I've been talking to an old friend of mine as well! :o) I really missed her. :o) She's doing great! :o) I would love tomeet the person that has inspired me so much! :o) I just can't believe how much we have in common! :o) Pretty cool! lol :o)
In my life right now, I just am feeling like I need to do things now! I don't want to wait! I just have this feeling that I can't wait deep inside me....so I want to do the things I have planned...like soon! :o) If I'm making any sense? :o) I am to me.....if I want to do or say something, I'm going to, because sometimes the truth hurts! I just have this nonchalant feeling. This is my life, and I'm going to start living it the way I want to, not the way someone else thinks/feels the way I should, or to comform to what they think/feel the way they want me too! No more of that BS! I have a life....and I'm going to live it my way! :o) To bad if no one likes it! Just go jump in a lake if you don't like what I write or what I do!
Moving on........
I know if any of you were walking/standing in my shoes right now, and lived my life for 1 week...I could bet you all the money in the world that you would have such a way different opinion and a different outlook in your own life! :o)
I just say whats on my mind and don't hide behind a false life, and tell it like it is, in the best way that I can to get it across to all on how it's like to have what I do have and how it feels! And right now, My head feels like I have a rubber band around it! I don't know why! Yes, I keep wanting to take my hand and try and pull this "nothing" off of my head! My back....It feels like I have steal jagged rods sticking in my spine! And it hurts! I want someone to take them out! That "nothing" thats in my spine! My upper arms feel like they are cut and just layed opened to where you are able to see the bone! And the muscles are torn and ripped to shreds and I'm bleeding to death! I really want to have someone to sew up my arm, because that "nothing" is really killing me! My upper chest feels the exact same way as my upper arms do! And my thighs, the both of them feel like they have been slashed many many times, all around on them! Stabbed very deeply! And they have not been bandaged up yet! Or none of the knives have been taken out! They are so very weak because of this. Please take those "nothing" out for me and make it better! My hips feel like the bones have been carved on! I need them to be replaced! Please help me replace the "nothing" thats there! My calves feel like they're going to explode! Both of them are so swollen right now! Why? Like tight balloons! If I move the wrong way, they might burts! Help them! Help me get that "nothing" out of them! My feet feel like the bottoms have rocks and pebbles! It hurts so badly to walk on them! OUCH! I have to get the "nothing" out of the bottoms of my feet so I can walk better! They hurt so bad! :o( My hands are still cramped up in the shape of a "C"! They both hurt so bad! I can't write with them! The muslces in them are so cramped up! I need help to get inside of them to pull out the "nothing" in them to make them better again! Don't just stand there........Help me! PLEASE!!!