Checking in.......

Well....good evening! :o) I was visiting Viv's jouranl tonight, and I really liked something she had written! And it's sooooo true! :o) "I'm too blessed to be stressed!" Thank you viv....I love it! :o) I just wanted to share that as well. :o)
Ok....update! Yesterday and today has been the very worse days I've ever encountered! :o( I prayed so hard for the strength I so desperatly need right now. No,,,I have not gotten sleep still! This is scaring me totally now! Not joking! So much has happened to my body just since this past 2 weeks! Right now I'm having such difficulty in seeing....it's like I have a "glaze" over my eyes! Everything is soooo bright! I had to wear my sunglasses in the house today just to see and ease the pain in my eyes! It's like looking through wax paper. Very frustrating and kind of scary as well. This entry alone is taking a lot of time just to type. Geesh! :o) or Bo) <-----sunglasses! :o) This morning I decided that I wasn't getting anywhere be trying to call my sleep specialist and the pain clinic! For some reason....no one was answering the phones! Odd I thought! Sooooo, I was in no mood to mess around and not get any help. I got to my car, and drove myself to the next town, and wanted to let my sleep specialist know that the pills he gave me were not working! I know I look horrid and a bit witchy...but I walked up to the desk to tell the receptionist that to let the doctor know the pills weren't helping me. Like I did the last time last week! I let her know...and the look on her face was pricless...lol...sorry...just had to laugh! :o) The office was packed, and she told me, without taking her eyes off of me, that I would be next to see the doctor! I was only there to maybe get another medicine. I mean I knew how horrid I looked...lol....but I suppose I look a lot worse then I thought! But...I was very glad that she did. :o) I was taken back and seen imediatly! Wow, I thought! The doctor came in and looked at me the same way! Bless his heart....he felt so bad for me that the medicine didn't help. :o) My whole body is swollen, My eyes are going nuts on me, I'm the weakest that I've ever been and in more pain then I've ever been in, I can barly hold my head up because it feels like it weighs at least 200 pounds! Which in turn is making my neck hurt tremendoulsy! I can make it to my bed then back to this chair....anyone that knows my home, knows the distance this is. I've been having more problems with urinating myself! I have that problem more so at night anyway....but I am now having that problem during the day, and I can't seem to do anything about it! It just happens! It honestly feels like my body is just doing things on it's own that I can not control! This is scary! Litterly! Anyway...my doctor is setting up 2 sleep studies for me to see what is going on! Thankfully! :o) The last time I went through this....and it was him that I was seeing, is when I went through a sleep study and found out that I had 3 sleep disorders. He is very concerned about my heart as well. He checked it thouroly and it is still beating very differently, and he is also concerned about me having 3 seizures so very close together as well....which isn't a very good sign! He brought up a theory that maybe I could be having seizures that I am not aware of....check out the differnt types of seizures I've posted....which could be in some way messing up my brain in a way that is telling my body not to sleep! Which does make a lot of sense to me! I have to go through an EEG as well when I have the sleep test done which I am glad about. :o) That will tell a lot! :o) I came home...dragged myself in, and got in bed to at least get my legs up, and I asked my daughter to make a post for me....Too sweet she is! :o) This evening...she was in here on my bed studying, and I got up to do my walking, and I started to fall over....and then it happened! I fell right on my right side, which is the wrose pain wise! Yeeouchie! I laned right on my right knee, hip and upper arm and shoulder! My knee started to swell more so and turned red, and now my should has a "crunchy" sound when I try to move it! It hurts like you know what! My daughter got me up....and then we had to laugh! LOL Because when I fell....it looked funny! ROFL!!! I fell in slow motion! lol Too funny! :o) I seem to be "ok," Everyone else is in bed when this happened. And now I'm still awake and in pain, and am afraid to get up again...even to go to the bathroom! But I push myself...I feel I need to do this for my brain...to keep it active, if that makes sense. I just hope I won't fall again. I have, though, decided if I do again tonight, I will take myself to the er! Because I have to! In my opinion....this is in humane! I honestly can't beleive that any doctor, or anyperson in their right mind is letting me be out on my own! I know that sounds terrible, but thats just how I feel....I feel that I shouldn't even be alone right now, and I should be monitored! I don't know. So, it brings me to right now! I can't be on the computer much at all right now...and I'll have my daughter post anything if something happens! :o) Please take care of yourselves and thank you so very much for your comments! God bless all of you! :o)