~Part 2~

I have been awake all night again. I had a 2 1/2 hour nap today, and thats all the sleep that I have gotten. I can't wait to see my doctor today! :o) Something has to be done....no sleep has made my body hurt beyond words! I have posted more information on a few more illnesses that I have. lol....yes...believe it or not, there is more! :o) And after this entry, I will try and post them as well! :o) I feel the more someone is educated about others illnesses, then they have no excuse for ignorance!
As I was reading through so many journals....so I can nominate on the Vivi awards....I ran across a well written statement about what is going on to so many of my friends and these awards! There were so many words that he had discribed about how these people are acting! And he nailed it on the head with one word that stood out to me! Narcisis! In one word; that describes it all! This is the deffinition;

Narcissistic is a pattern of self-centered or egotistical behavior that shows up in thinking and behavior in a lot of different situations. People won't (or can't) change their behavior even when it causes problems or when other people complain about the way they act, or when their behavior causes a lot of emotional distress to others (or themselves? none of my narcissists ever admit to being distressed by their own behavior -- they always blame other people for any problems). This pattern of self-centered or egotistical behavior is not caused by current drug or alcohol use, head injury, acute psychotic episodes, or any other illness.People whose ambitions and aspirations are much grander than their evident talents. Sometimes these terms are applied to people who are simply full of themselves.Narcissists think that everyone who is not special and superior or don't believe how they believe, is worthless. By definition, normal, ordinary, and average aren't special and superior, and so, to narcissists, they are worthless and use other people to get what they want without caring about the cost to the other people.Often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him. They show arrogant, haughty, patronizing, or contemptuous behaviors or attitudes.Translation: They treat other people like dirt.
I know that this entry will more then likely make some people mad; but in others actions...I felt it to be very fitting! These awards have brought out the worst in some and it just needs to stop, or the awards won't go on....so many have resigned already! Sad to say!
Whew.....that actually felt good to write! Getting things off my chest helps my chest pains! Now...moving on....!
I had so many nice emails today....and would have loved to post them all! :o) Thank you all for your nice comments and emails! I know that I'm on the right path! :o) God has me, and is holding me up! :o) No one can take my courage and my strength away from me....! Helping others in their need is what I'm doing, and I will not stop writing what I feel is right in my journal! I'm am a "squeeky wheel" and I gave my illnesses a voice of their own! I had considered going private because of all this nonsense flack going on, but no..I'm not! My mission isn't over this soon! :o) If I am able to help 1 person, thats what counts! Writing in this journal also helps me to get so much off my chest....and inturn helps with my pains...because I'm releasing stress that I don't need!
Gentle hugs to you all...and again, thank all of you for your nice emails and comments! God bless all of you! And He has! :o)