~An emotional morning~

I feel like I'm burning a candle at both ends right now! I'm fighting what my body is throwing at me lately, and a few other things. I still keeping up my strength with my faith! That IS what's keeping me going! :o) And like the above graphic says ,"Hope!" (thank you cab for the graphic) :o) I had a talk with someon last night that really means a lot to me. It seems as though I'm getting the 'blunt" end of things!

My "magic wand." I guess since I'm the one that is always here, I should know everything. Well, thats not the case. I don't. I also don't talk a lot about things that I'm going through to others....just don't, no one but God can heal me! I also don't want to come off as a burden or someone that "whines" about what I go through!

What I write in this journal is what I talk about to others. That simple. Well....since this person had came to me about a few things, and wanted to talk to me about them. Ok, I'll talk. Then it turns into something very different, I felt like I was trapped into something, and pushed up against a wall! Um...NO! Thats when I get a bit upset! I suppose other people would feel the same way. Who likes to be pushed in a corner? No one to my knowledge!

I did however talk to my son about something between he and I, and that went good! :o) As soon as this person left, I just went to bed! I'm too weak, in way too much pain, and very tired! Yes, this person knows all of that. To them, so what?! There is a factor that I DO like to be "seen" as a "normal," but come on, how long have you known me and what I've gone through these past few days?! Hmmmm! My doctor has move his practice to Toledo, soooo, I've also been going through withdrawls of 2 medications that I was taking, and suddenly am not now! Not a good feeling nor a good combination! It has been 3 days now without the meds.

Again, I have to do what I have to do....pray, and ride out this wave too! Too bad that person doesn't see past a certain thing! I will NOT stand by and let someone put a "blame" on me, when it goes someplace else! That sinple!

I do have a few things that I HAVE to get done today! This is were I have to pull everything I have in me, and the strength of the Lord! I have to go to the pain clinic today to get my records. Thats in another town! I was in a car accident Feb. 1 of this year and the insurance needs to rap this case up....so  do I. By the way, I was hit from behind while I was at a stop light, and didn't go through the yellow light! Sound familiar?

So...today I'll be busy even though I'm not able to walk! Help from someone else? Yea right! My daughter might be able to take me. Sad, but she's always here as well. I feel bad for her. One of these days I just might be important enough to this person!
Thank you all for your helpful and kind comments. :o) God bless all of you!