Sorry.....about anything......

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......

 

I really don't know what to say. I will answer some questions; No, I'm not on any blood thiners and never have been. Yes, I have been trying to get another doctor, but they are not taking any new patients right now. I've even called the ones that my nurse gave me that will come to your house. So I'm stuck with the stupid doctor that I do not like. I have no other choices. Yes, the bottom part of my left leg does hurt. Yes, my right arm is still in pain. No, the heat isn't doing anything to help. Believe me, I've been trying everything known under the sun. I'm told to rest....I'm told to walk....I'm told to NOT walk....I'm told to NOT be in bed resting!

My doctor told me that "He can't do anything else for me, since I just had an appointment!" And no...unless I'm bleeding out of my eyes, the ER won't do anything about this.
I'm so confused now, more then ever! I do have one good thing that has happened......the back of my left arm has feeling in it once again!
No one hears me. No one "see's" what I'm asking for help....because "I look good!" If you only knew how tired I am of hearing that!!!!!! If I had a penny for each time someone has said that too me...I'd be filthy rich!
It feels like I'm at the very begining again. Before I was diagnoses with the Fibromyalgia! My nerves our shot, my patience level is NIL! And the pain is driving me nuts! No, I do not have any pain pills.

The only pills that I have are the ones that are for my fibro, and one for my MS. Thats all. Oh, and one for my seizures! Can't forget that!
I was on the computer yesterday, looking up thromboplebts and phlebitis. Oh gee, everything I read wasn't a pretty site. They all said the samethings. I'm just so tired!
Today, I feel like I'm actually going crazy! huh...how about that! I wouldn't know why! I have all of the blinds closed and the lights off! I don't want to see or hear anything or anyone. What I have planned is to just get back in my stupid bed and pull the covers over my head and hope that maybe I'll wake up. I'm tired right now, later.

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Video of Kayden's new hair cut!

 

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The older we get the more important it is to incorporate exercise into our daily routine. This is necessary to maintain cardiovascular health and maintain muscle mass.
If you're over 40, you might want to take it easy at first, then do more repetitions as you become more proficient and build stamina. Warning: It may be too strenuous for some.


Always consult your doctor before starting any exercise program!



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That's enough for the first day. Great job.
Now have a ice cream cone!

 

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I just need to talk...

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......

 

Good morning/afternoon! I'm in hopes that all of  you are doing good today!

The graphic above is very true to me. I had the best news this morning! But, I think it should be, "Chance made us friends, hearts made us sisters! :o) Well...we all know what I mean! :o)

My physical therapist came. She wanted to see my right arm before she started with the deep tissue massage. She seen it and said that she's not going to touch it are get near it while doing the massage. There are too many clots there on my inner elbow. Like I was trying to show in my pictures. Then she asked if I had more bruises. I showed her my left leg. She said that she can't do that leg as well! She looked me over to see if I had any more bruises. I don't....thank God! She said that the ones on my left leg are more blood clots! I just started to shake! (my nerves and the not knowing) I also told her about my left arm being half numb. She told me that was just the MS. Ok...I can deal with that. She told me to keep an eye on those blood clots. Um....yeah....that crossed my mind to do already! Good Grief! I asked her what I'm suppose to do about all of these blood clots! Like do I call my doctor or what? She just told me to rest and watch them and put heat on them! Then she asked me if my doctor or anyone has taken a blood test to see why this is happening.....I told her no. No one has. I just told her about my doctors appointment that I had (the doctor I hate), and what he called it on my right inner elbow. She agreed with what he said it was. But no one is doing anything about it! I mean, isn't there something that can be done to like stop them from going to other parts of my body? You would think there is! It just seems that everyone is just so blouse' about this. But I know how I feel and once again I'm having a hard time explaining things. Yes, they are very painful. I've told everyone that. I do not have enough washclothes to put on every one of them! I just don't understand. Thats all.

I'm don't want to come off as having a pity party for me.....I'm just plain worried, thats all. I'm taking the blood clots seriously and no one else is. Am I wrong to take it seriously because I'm getting more and more of them in other places of my body?

My daughter and her husband and my grandson came over yesterday and they went ahead and spent the night. :o) My grandson is so onry! He made me laugh! lol He and my daughter were doing crafts. He loved it! :o)
I slept out here in my hospital bed and they slept in my other bed.
Tonight, my daughter and one of her friends and I are going to get our hair cut! Yikes! I'm so picky when it comes to someone other then me, to cut my hair. I've had too many bad experiances. lol It's just hair and it will grow! :o)
I'm going to go now, my daughter is getting ready to leave. They will be down south (Xenia) until Sunday. So it was nice to be able to spend this extra time with them! :o)
Have the best day that you can make it! :o)

 

Tags: Family, Best Friends, Love, Blood Clots, Live!

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~Pimping a new journal~

I'm 'pimping' out a new journal! Just click on the graphic above! I know that you'll love it! :o)

 

 

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UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!):

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree. The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, "Smile."

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and documen t their reactions.

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say h ello anyway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning..

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then
even my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.

As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was "smiling".

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.

He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been clutching.

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his frien d. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two mor e br eakfast meals on a separate tray.

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, "Thank you."

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope."

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope."

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers .

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the las t evening of class, with this story in hand

I turned in "my project" and the instructor rea d it .

Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?"

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class ..

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:

UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and co mpassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to

LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.
Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.

To handle yourself, use your head .

To handle others, use your heart.

God Gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

 

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Uncertainty

The past is safe and certain, and yet it is gone. The future is filled with endless uncertainty, and yet it is also filled with limitless possibilities.

Something will happen today that you didn't expect. It might be uncomfortable, it might be inconvenient, and it might even disrupt your life in a big way.

And yet, how terribly bland and unbearably tedious life would be if nothing unexpected ever happened. Though uncertainty is a bit frightening, it also brings much richness to life.

You are designed and equipped not only to deal with life's uncertainties, but to in fact transcend them. Out of a little uncertainty you can create a lot of positive value.

If you attempt to hide from uncertainty, you'll also be hiding from the best things life has to offer. Instead, accept and embrace uncertainty, and know that you can make the best of whatever comes along.

Today does not come with a guarantee. And because of that, you have the opportunity to make of it whatever you choose.

-- Ralph Marston

 

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