Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Will be missed :o(

This is something very hard to swollow. I guess I thought this would never happen. I took for granted our journals.
Again, why don't they ever ask the journalers first? Everytime one of them gets a hair moved in the wrong spot, we pay for it. This really pisses me off!
30 days left! :o( Maybe I'll use my web page. I'd like to know who decided it?
I'm so very upset! And I know that all of J-Land is. This was our community.
Well, I guess I'll be learning how to back this up.


Monday, September 29, 2008

Nothing special

Hello, I hope all had a great weekend.

I wasn't on line yesterday. I just stayed in bed watching the news. I had to kick my own butt out of bed to get my adl's done. Then got back in my spot. :o) It was just a lazy day for me.

I don't remember what I did on Saturday. But I do remember what I did in the evening. I sat and watched old videos. They started from 2005 on this camcorder. All of my other videos our from 1995 until now.
They made me laugh and cry. :o) Mainly laughed. Kayden was a baby in them! lol He actually acted and looked like Andrew! I couldn't believe it. Nena did say that the two of them are alot alike. I see it now. lol She has her hands ful right now...I told her, "Just wait!" I remember how her and Jason was when they were younger! Good Grief!

Nena has a job now as well. She loves it. Extra money and getting out of the house. Thats good for her. :o)
Her husband Jeremy watches the kids when she works. Dh went over there last evening and they were outside with the grill making 'cheese burgers!' Kayden loves cheese burgers. :o) And Andrew was in his little bouncy thing having fun. lol It's so good to see Jeremy with the kids...he's really grown up when Andrew was born. Very proud of him. He's taking good care of my daughter and my grandsons. I couldn't be anymore happier with that! :o)

About my last entry...yes, I do have a history of sleep walking. Like I've said before, when I was 6 I woke up 2 houses down the street in between two elderly people. I was scared! I also remember waking up in different places. I do still have the activity, but It's controlled by medicines now. Only because I can't be out of bed without my walker or my cane. I can seriously injur myself. My activity is just in my bed. when I do have those, I wake up just like I did when I was doing the actual 'walking.' I hope I'm not confusing you! :o) It really is to me as well. :o) I have sleep tests and the ones I have for a moble 24 hour...shows the samething as the ones I go to the hospital for the tests.
I have turned my camcorder on while sleeping. What I got is something making noises in there with me! Which I wasn't prepared to hear that! In a couple of them, I've seen 'orbs'. In another, I've seen my bed rail on the left (facing it) move back and forth. Now I know how hard it is to move that one. Well, it's the one the blue throw is in. When I wake up, I'm half scared to watch them. I lived in one of this towns haunted houses. Nothing there scared me. Even coming face to face with one of the 'ghost men.'  I'm so baffeld at the way I'm feeling with this house. I told the 'others' at my older house, that we are going to be living together, so get used to it.
I wasn't expecting at all when I watch the tapes. There are loud noises and banging, things that I don't have in my room to make that sort of noises.
I know this will sound odd to some of you, but when we looked at this house, I felt an older man in this room I can even go down to the details, and he doesn't bother anything, just does his own thing. There's also a woman on the stairs. She loves the babies. My grandsons have always looked up where I can feel her, and they laugh. As the time goes by, she's letting me see more of her and she stays back also.

Maybe my bedroom has 'someone' in it that I havent felt yet. Who knows. I know that I do not like bed time! I pray, because at that time, I'm the only one up. My mom helped me smudge the house.
Ok....off of that subject.......
Health wise this weekend just my upper thighs are still killing me. My right shoulder is still hurting me. Man that hurts! I've tried to rub it out myself, and I have to get under the shoulder blade, push down on the most painful spot and move my arm slowly, and to help my range of movement. No luck this time, but it'll get better. Or I'll put my sling on to take the pressure off of it. It makes my arm feel heavy as well.
This weekend I've been doing alot of thinking about my sister and my best/ex friend and another one of my friends. And, by the way...thank you for signing my guest book! :o) (my guest book is on my side bar, please sign it and leave a link to your journal) You know, you can say I'm sorry for so much and then what do you do? Because I do really mean I'm sorry. I would like to talk to the both of them. Thats probably when hell freezes over. But at least I'm trying here. In the begingof all of my pains from the fibromyalgia...when I was first diagnosed, she thought I was making this all up to get attention! I don't think so! I don't wish this on no one. Damn it hurts! My sister finally believed me after awhile. And everything was talked out then. And my best friend has had my back and I hers for so long. Last year was a pretty bad year for me. I was diagnosed with the MS. Talk about a melt down! I'm actually still not over that, because I'm still feeling like I'm in some type of a gray spirale. I'm doing my best to learn how to except it. My body as well. Something I did, which I seem to do something wrong, all the time, made our friendship suffered a hudge blow. I was getting stuff from dh and her and I was confused. It's almost been a year now. I can't promise that I won't freak out over something medical that'll happen to me. To me, thats just my life. And I can't apoligize for that. Just the things that are out of my control.
Have a GREAT day! :o)



Friday, September 26, 2008

A good dayand/ pictures from last night

Hello! Hoping that all of you with pains are ok.
It's so pretty out side today. And the temp. is only 72 degrees! :o)
My body can actually take this temp. and be fine, but take baby steps. Not stay out for too long.
My son just came in! It startled me...lol. He's got the dog out back running with her. :o) She needed that.
Again, when I woke up this morning I had alot of things changed. I remembered to take pictures this time.

Thats my bed rail that I use to get in and out of bed. The blue throw was put in between the rail and my bed.

The little box is what I keep my drinks in so the don't spill. That Sprite can is not mine! Messed up things around it.

Both ashtrays were empty! I also noticed that in both ashtrays, theres one of mine and of dh's!

My tv. was turned on.

My fan was turned off!

My light was turned on again.
I've asked about everyone I know to see if they can sit up while I sleep to see whats going on. All nay's and no yay's.
Today, my legs are bothering me. In my upper thighs are this hudge muslce cramp. It's on both of them. So walking is kind of hard to do right now.
I'm wraping this up! **********Poof***********


Wednesday, September 24, 2008


I'm working on making today a good one. The nurse at my gp's called yesterday to let me know the results of my last blood test. The good news is that my cholesteral is doing great. Yay! :o) Also my liver function is up. I've been drinking water all the time. Yesterday was the first time in awhile that I had a Sprite. When I took my first sip, my eyes watered. :o) Then I just went back to water.
I've been trying to look what a high liver function is and haven't found anything.
If anyone might know, could you let me know? Thank you.
Today is my sister's (the one that said I was dead, meaning not very nice) birthday. I think she might be turning 40 this year. I was 5 when she was born. So if you're reading this (K), happy birthday. Thats another story in itself. <rolling eyes> 

Where to begin.....(NO....this is NOT complaining, just logging for others and myself) My daughter and the babies came over last night. I was just going to stay in bed. Just really need to make my lower back, hips and legs and feet feeling better. Those have been the parts that have really given me problems. She went to an oriantation for her new job and her husband works second shift, so we watched them until she was done. They are such good babies to watch. :o)
My that time my pain level was basically off the charts! It makes me cry, I hurt so bad. I only held Andrew when I was sitting down and he was handed to me. I wasn't feeling safe at all.
Again, during the day, when no one is here, I feel like I can just be myself and cry, hit something, throw things and yell! I still hold back a bit, (what I can) so others won't think I'm doing it for attention. Not at all!
I'm 45 years old and it just hit me that I feel way too young to have these and possibly more diseases, to live for the rest of my life. I kind of saden me.
Moving on.......
The time of day that my whole body hurts like hell is in the mornings and the evenings. Dh tries his best to help me rub some of the muscle cramps out. It really helps. I just need to say something real quick, I am still pretty hurt from those letters that my great aunt sent me. She doesn't believe that I even have what I do! Those two letters were bad enough to me, and I have her and my great uncle block from mailing me. I pray for people that are ignorant like that. Sad.
You know...I really need a vacation! I need to get out of here and just away! And yes, it is very true that when you have so much pains that your body just goes numb. It really does. I'm almost there. YAY!!! :o) Then my vacation begins. :o)
A nurse finally came and filled my pill despencer. I was out since Friday! I had all of these nuses come and not one of them even checked it! My main nurse comes on Thursday's, and she was here and put my meds in for me...like always. Dh put my meds in little cups. I couldn't do it. I haven't done them on my own in so long, I wouldn't know where to start. Weird but true.
Oh...and yes, it is my great aunt that has me/body in a mess right now. She knows not what she has done.

I'm closing now!



Monday, September 22, 2008

**********Logging for a reason**********

Good afternoon! I'm hoping that all of you are feeling great today. :o)

I'm still working on it! :o) Not a good night when it comes to the pains.
This too shall pass...

My whole body seems to be in on the samething; giving me pains! lol
My legs and feet don't want to work today, and my right arm is still doing what it wants but has now gone back into my right shoulder blade.

My son is coming over today to do his laundry. :o) I can't help it that I miss him. :o) Nena too!
I had an idea to write to my older grandson. It wasn't much at all but I know he will love it just the same. :o) Dh wrote to him too. :o) He'll get them today. I got the idea to do this when my daughter told me that when we were texting one day, she would read it out loud and then he would say it and see the words. I did my best to write it the way you're suppose to in school. :o)

I just love my family so much! Did you know that one?! LOL

Again I recieved another nasty email from my great aunt. I can't put up with it anymore. And it is all over me asking my great uncle to please not send me anymore of those emails that are racist. Good Grief...and while she's bitching at me, she slams my mom as well! I have them blocked. Oh, I forgot....I'm going to hell for doing witch craft and worshiping the devil! Ok,,,sure.

I got off of what I was logging, ooopsie! I'm back to showing a small fever. I'm still taking my vitals. They go up and down. Well, like my nurse said, maybe the reason for that to happen is having pain will boost alot of my vitals up. So I keep that in mind.
My hips and legs are worse right now. It'll change probably about mid day. Then its something else. :o) (btw...I'm not complaining) I'm just telling it  like it is.
Oh....and I know that I'm not the only person with pain and that my pain is worse!
I already know that my readers know all of this. And that I can't spell! LOL And tou know, I also know that I'm not perfect.
I've got way too much clouding  my mind and thoughtsright now, I really can't write what I want to. I have my great aunt's letters stuck in my head. I need to release, so I can go on. I need to take that poisin out of my life.


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Sunday, September 21, 2008

Early Dementia Test lol

It's that time of year to take our annual senior
citizen test. Exercising the brain is as important
as exercising muscles. As we grow older, it's
important to keep mentally alert. If you don't use
it, you lose it! Below is a very private way to gauge
your loss or non-loss of intelligence.

Take the test presented here to determine if you're
losing it or not. The spaces below are so you don't
see the answers until you've made your answer. OK, relax, clear your
mind and begin.

1. What do you put in a toaster?

Answer: "bread." If you said "toast," give up
now and do something else. Try not to hurt yourself.
If you said, bread, go to Question 2.

2. Say "silk" five times. Now spell "silk"

What do cows drink?

Answer: Cows drink water. If you said "milk," don't attempt the next
question. Your brain is over-stressed and may even overheat. Content
yourself with reading a more appropriate literature such as Auto
World. However, if you said "water", proceed to question 3.

3. If a red house is made from red bricks and a blue house is made from
blue bricks and a pink house is made from pink bricks and a black house
is made from black bricks , what is a green house made from?

Answer: Greenhouses are made from glass. If you said "green bricks," why
the heck are you still reading these??? If you said "glass," go on to
Question 4.

4. It's twenty years ago, and a plane is flying at 20,000 feet over
Germany (If you will recall, Germany at the time was politically divided
into West Germany and East Germany .) Anyway, during the
flight, two engines fail. The pilot, realizing that the last remaining
engine is also failing, decides on a crash landing procedure.
Unfortunately the engine fails before he can do so and the plane fatally
crashes smack in the middle of "no man's land" between
East Germany and West Germany . Where would you bury the survivors? East
Germany , West Germany , or no man's land"?

Answer: You don't bury survivors.

If you said ANYTHING else, you're a dunce and you must stop. If you
said, "You don't bury survivors", proceed to the next question.

5. Without using a calculator - You are driving a bus from London to
Milford Haven in Wales . In London , 17 people get on the bus. In
Reading , six people get off the bus and nine people get on. In Swindon, two people get off and four
get on. In Cardiff, 11 people get off and 16 people get on . In Swansea
, three people get off and five people get on. In Carmathen,
six people get off and three get on. You then arrive at Milford Haven.
What was the name of the bus driver?

Answer: Oh, for crying out loud!

Don't you remember your own name? It was YOU!!
Now pass this along to all your friends and
pray they do better than you.

PS: 95% of people fail most of the questions!!


Friday, September 19, 2008

Something to think about

"When we can accept all of life’s contradictions, when we can comfortably flow between the banks of pleasure and pain, experiencing them both while getting stuck in neither, then we are free."


~ Deepak Chopra



Just one of my days

Good morning. Hoping that all of you are happy and doing/feeling well today!

Well, I'm still without a fever...Yay! :o) Still feeling kind of out of it, but I'll always feel that! lol
I'm also still having problems walking. Boy, I don't want to end up in my wheel chair. I do use it, and when I feel better, I stop. But this time kind of feels like I'll take longer to feel good enough.
My youngest grandson has and still does, this cold/flu. I feel bad for him. He really amazes me. Even though he is sick, he still laughs and will smile. Both of my grandsons are like that. :o) They are fighters also.

I'm so glad that its Friday. It has been very hard for me to get up in time to get my medicines. If its been a certain amount of time that I didn't recieve it, I get 3 phone calls automatically. They are just looking out for me. But, on the weekend, dh will get them for me, and I feel that I can relax enough when I sleep. Thats what my body needs to feel better.

My son came over yesterday and the day before. :o) He brings his laundry in. He can never stay for very long. Because his girl friend already has everything planned out for the week and weekend. I keep telling him to get in her purse, find the mason jar that she seems to keep his balls in, and get them back!

My graphics are not for everybody. I just so happen like the gothic ones. My great aunt got mad at me because of an email that was sent to me that I strongly disagreed with. They were bumper stickers about Barak Obama. I had asked if they didn't send things like that to me. It was racial and not at all something that I would never ever agree with, no matter what! I see people, not color. I wrote back that I'm not at all racial nor a bigot! I should have saved the email just for you to make your own decision. I get an email back letting me know that they are not bigits! Nothing was said about them being raceses. I do not like getting emails like that as if I agree with it! Plus, they go to church and have been on my back for years to go to church. I say no, because it seems to me that there sure are alot of races people that go. And in the email she called me a devil worshiper. Now, I may be wrong but I thought it was satan in the bible and not the devil. I'm confused now.

When I wrote back, I asked her where did she get that I'm a devil worshiper? She couldn't answer me. After that, I got a letter from her letting me know that she accepted what was said. You shouldn't push your religion on others as hard as she does. It pushes people away and makes it look like thats how all people are that go to church.

Oh...I have a picture that I want to show you...wow! It's a hard copy, not digital. I'll get it up as soon as I can.
Yesterday, the guy from Legacy that I get my oxygen from. I had to take the same test as I did the last time. It looks like the thingy that they put on your finger to check your pulse. I had to wear that all night without my oxygen. It's to see if I still need it like I have now, or anything.

Everybody is doing their recerts to see if I still am elegable. So far, everyone of them is keeping me. Thats good.
Ok.....time to log a bit.
The back/spine pains have moved up my back further than it was. goes down and into my hips. Honestly now...I do wish I could just take my arms and legs off for awhile to give us both a break. :o) My right shoulder is really killing me. It has and still is effecting my life as is the other pains I just mentioned. The bottoms of my feet still feel like I'm walking on shards of glass.
Yesterday, my daughter came over as well. :o) I had both of my kids here and my grandsons! :o) I got lots of hugs! I'm a hug aholic...LOL. Having them all here was great! Nothing else would ever make me happier! I love them so much! :o)
Last evening, I could only take half of my walk. My butt was draging. I just got back in bed to finish resting. The whole day I couldn't get in bed to rest. I know, I really pushed my limit. After I was able to get in bed and rest a bit more, I felt something...not a touch...I guess it was like a feeling, but a hard feeling...geesh, I hope I'm making sense here. I was laying back on my pillows and it seemed as though my room was full of people! Yes, I know it sounds crazy, but thats the best that I can explain it. I even had a bit of tingles too. I don't know who all they were. It was a calming feeling. And it helped me to go to sleep. It was like I had angles with me and taking care of me.
Well...sorry about getting all windy or type happy! :o) Maybe I'll look it up about my bedroom full of people.
Have a great day and be sure you do something that'll make you laugh! God Blesses all!


Thursday, September 18, 2008

What Turns You On?

A Woman gets naked in front of her husband and asks: "What turns you on the most, my pretty face, my voluptuous bust or my sexy butt???

He briefly looks her up and down and replies: "Your sense of humor."


Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Almost there :o)

Good morning. I hope you are feeling and doing good. :o)

My mom came over yesterday for a visit. She has passed and finished all that she needed to get to be my primary care giver. :o) Yesssss! One more thing, and we both have to do it together. Not a problem here. After that, from the way I understand it, then she can start. :o)

Plus, it was good to see her as well. It's been awhile.
Yesterday was my son in law and my daughter's first wedding anniversary!!! YAY! :o)
It really doesn't even feel like it has been a year to me....but if you ask them....! lol
Just kidding. :o)
I'm hoping that she will come over today. I think it has been 3 days now that my fever has broke. So I'm not contagious.

I'm still pretty weak. Which is to be expected.
I woke up crying this morning. Ever since they took my physical therapist away, I'm in so much pain. My right arm is what woke me up. So much pain. And it's a bit swollen from my shoulder to my elbow. This kind of pain is kind of harder to explain to you. I could try; I guess its like instead of having bones, I have all rusted out parts that get all stuck, won't move and feels like it needs oiled. Thats the best I can do.

I would like to see my son. I really worry about him. When I close my eyes at night, I see my son's eyes. They just used to be full of life, and now nothing like that at all. Looks like he could cry any minute. His girlfriend and he have been together for about 6 years now. And now that they're living together, all she does is put him down! She went to my daughter's house last week and Nena told me all she did while there was putting him down and Nena wasn't happy about that. I asked Nena if she can come over the next time he comes over and try our hardest to talk to him. Letting him know that she has been putting him down. And she does it even when they both are together visiting.

When it comes to my kids.....I stop at nothing! Get through me first!
Dh and I watched the finale of Big Brother last night. Loved it. I was really hoping that Dan would win.
Now I'm going to have to find something else to fill that gap during the afternoon because I would record the After Dark.
Next for me is the Amazing Race and Dancing with the Stars. Don't I live a boring life! LOL :o)
My nurse came this morning to see if one of my medicine was refilled yet. After almost a week now, it finally was yesterday. gggrrr!
I was re-evoulated for the program I'm on, and I got a letter letting me know that I'm still eligable. And Legacy called, they want to come to see if I'm still eligable for the oxygen. :o) No biggy. :o)
Well.....this is Badge day on the Pogo.com games! YAY! Every Wednesday is and it starts at 10:00 am. So, I better get going. :o)
God Bless all of you!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

The wind we had here.

We had a horrible wind storm here. I think it was from the hurrican Ick. I was alone in the house and I was actually scared. I stayed in my room. It sounded like my window was going to be blown in. There was some damage after. The eletric would flicker, but thank God it didn't go out. I have 2 more videos but they won't upload. This one (I think) is me trying to get to the garage. I went back in the house as soon as the wind actually moved me! I'm a woman with weight! So I decided to get back in the house.
I'll keep trying on the other two that I have.


Sunday, September 14, 2008


YAY!!!  I don't have mono!
My nurse had to come to fix my medicine, and she let me know!  A big sigh of relief!

Somethings just not quit right...

I don't understand why or what is wrong. Again, when I looked at my last entry, I don't remember doing it. I'm sitting on this and taking notes to make sure I go to the right doctor. I know if I don't, I won't get the right help. ( well, lets hope the right help)
I've been watching my hands when I have something in them. My right hand is by far the worse one. It really doesn't matter the weight or how I'm holding it. Things feel the same weight, from a peice of paper to a full cup of water.

It's like my small motor skills are messing up on me. Since I'm right handed, this is why its worse. When I was trying to write the grocery list, I had to use my left hand because I didn't have the strength in my right.

On Thursday when my nurse was here, she took labs for my doctor to see if I have mono or not. If I do, theres going to be alot of people exposed to it. Even my sons friends. When they come to visit, they all give me a hug and will sit for a bit to chit chat. It's been 2 days now that I haven't had a fever! I better knock on wood! LOL I'm still tired alot and just sleepy. My muscles are having their fun with me still. Those are still a big ouchie! It stops me dead in my tracks! I haven't been able to hold it in....my little screams from the pain. I've been needing more help and have been asking for it as well.

I guess it's my body letting me know to start asking because I need it. I have dh running ragged, and I feel so bad. He doesn't say anything, but I can see it. He will go to the store if I run out of popcycles. And this is why I really don't like to ask.
My throat has been sore as well this whole time. It still is. The only thing that has changed is my fever finally broke. Yay! :o) I have my bedroom so cold to everyone else...it helps me to feel comfortable. When I'm not in there, I'm sweating so bad...pretty much like right now. :o) And it's 69 degrees in here.

This is a first in awhile that I've been on line early. And I still want to get to all of your jounals as soon as I can. I would love to have my old life back. Not the one where I didn't have all of this, the one where I could get to your journals. I'm sure [right now] thats an attainable goal.Baby steps.
I miss my babies so much. :o) Nena sends me pictures of them through our cells.
Well hey! Since I don't have that stupid fever anymore...maybe I can see them and get my daily amount of hugs from them! :o) Hhhmmm!
Oh....I don't know if I said this yet...I know I could scroll up, but I don't feel like it. :o) My entries that are messed up like the last one, are when I "just wake up" times and I'm not at all with it. So I guess you're experiancing it when I'm on line writing in this. If that makes any sence.
Well, I don't want to wear out my welcome here. :o) God's blessings to all of you.


A doctor and a lawyer were talking at a party.

Their conversation was constantly interrupted by people describing their ailments and asking the doctor for free medical advice.

After an hour of this, the exasperated doctor asked the lawyer, "What do you do to stop people from asking you for legal advice when you're out of the office?"

"I give it to them," replied the lawyer, "and then I send them a bill."

The doctor was shocked, but agreed to give it a try.

The next day, still feeling slightly guilty, the doctor prepared the bills.

When he went to place them in his mailbox, he found a bill from the lawyer.


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Saturday, September 13, 2008

about something

I havent been on in a few. Once again....I caught what my son had. <gggrr>
So I'm so not well.

I feel negleted From my doctor. Same old samr old.
I got to see my kids thietg.I HAVE to go lay doen.



Thursday, September 11, 2008


"Everything begins with Your mercy and ends with Your mercy."

Please know that I will remember all of you in a very special way in my own personal prayers.


Wednesday, September 10, 2008

about my last entry

The reason I was not at all happy about how long it is still taking my doctor to give me the medicine for my diabeties! Plus, still sick with a fever! The lowest fever I have is 100.3! Something is so wrong here! I did not realize it had been this long; all summer!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

I just looked at the tablet that I've been recording my vitals. The first one was on 4-21-08! OMG!


Sunday, September 7, 2008

Writing/ logging/pictures

I get so tired of writing about being ill. But, thats my life now.
I haven't been out side for a while. The pollen count has been high. I have so many alergies, and I don't want to add on to what I already am dealing with.

Logging; I've been I guess you could say, 'out of it lately.' Just soooo not 'there or with it.' I will show what I did:

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

12:35:33 PM EDT
Feeling Crappy Edit Entry Delete Entry

Logging real quick. Just sutting here, and all of the sudden I woke up!!!

This just keeps happrning. My arms feel like thar L. If this continues, I'm going to ask if I can have something got. tjis

Gotta go,,Bye

The Little Old Lady

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I can't even read this. I don't know what I wanted to say. Now I remember the last one. It was a joke that I was going to post, and I guess all I got posted was the title.
I'm just getting a bit more worse. I don't even know what to say anymore. If I'm not talking about my illnesses, I can talk about my room.

I can explain what I feel when I have my pains.
I've been having pains in my right shoulder real bad. I even had a hard time to even use my right arm because of it. Dh rubbed it and it took alot of the stress off. My upper right arm is in pain as well. It feels like it's laying open. I expect to see a hudge gaping cut bleeding perfusly.
My back/spine no matter what anymore, is killing me with it's pains. I really wish that I could open up my back and just get in there and rubb everything thats hurting with my hands.

My hips just grind when I walk. I do my best to rub them. I have a big lump on each side. I want to get that out as well. They are hurting more because of all the weight I've gained with retaining the water. If I could get my hips open, I'd probably just see alot of powder from the grinding. And they feel like they need oiled like everything eles does. My upper thighs are so tight. This has been maybe since last week. They make me cry to walk. Dh does his best to get those muscle cramps out.
The bottoms of my feet kill me.

They still feel like I'm walking on sharp stones with broken glass. And now thats been an everyday pain now like most of what I have. I've been dropping things so much more than I was. If I have something light weight, I don't even notice it. That is another everyday thing now.
My hands feel animated. Like Mickey Mouse's gloves...they're poofy....Like that. Because Of the range I have.
I'm still sick. Imagine that. I just feel like screaming at the top of my lungs....HELP ME! I sure don't any support from my gp. I don't know what shes doing, but I do know that she's not all that smart for prescribing me an antihistomean (SP) to help me with my fevers or anything else I have right now. Geesh! They [my doctors] are going to end up killing me with the crap they give me! Yes, they all have each others information and ph:#'s And none of them can get anything right.
I'm really hot right now. It just started....so I'm going to take my temp.
God Blesses all of you!

Friday, September 5, 2008


I'm going to try and remember were I left off. :o)
Yesterday after all was done, and making stupid phone calls because again my medicines weren't called in. I really don't like having to do their work.
My nurse is going to come over today or tomorrow to draw blood. The doctor wants me to take Claritine D. If that isn't helping then shes going to check me for mono!  <sigh>  I'm still carrying a fever. Last night it was back up to 103 again. It's down now to 101. Much better.

Dh is really helping me alot. I don't remember the last that he's been lately. :o) He needs to rest as well. I don't want him sick. I appreciate all that he's done.
I couldn't walk last night because I'm so weak. I've also noticed that if someone asks me if I need anything, if I'm alright, or just about anything, I've been saying yes, and what I do need. Plus, I asks for things rather than doing what I was doing. I'm proud of myself. :o) It's still very hard to do though.

I still can only have water and crackers. I can handle chicken soup everyknow and then. Boy I hope at least I can loose weight! :o)
My son didn't come over yesterday. :o( I do hope that hes alright. I do miss it when just he and I would watch The Ghost Hunters ever Wednesday. That was our time together.
I wish we had the house we used to. Then both of my children and grandchildren could live there.
I need to go now.

I know in many peoples opinons, I may not be at the top and never will be, but I sure like where I am alot more than I was. And in the end, it's my opinion that counts.