.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and in hopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. God bless you!......
I had a day to do a lot of reflecting on so many things yesterday. I made the time to do so. It was well needed.
I've written about so many things in my journal. To go back and to re read, I feel that I have grown so much as a person inside. I've said before and I'll always say this, I don't regret anything that I've done because it has made me the person that I am today. And this person that I am today; I can live with! And I like it!
There come a time where a person gets a bit tired of feeling the need of walking on egg shells, when there's no need to. Too many ego's getting in the ways. So many game playing. Is that fun? I don't want to be a part of that. It takes too much of my energy away from me, which I don't need. I love life! I love to be happy! I don't feel the need to have to explain my every actions, everything that goes on my my own home for the sake of different screen names, how many people that live in my home, why I write about my illnesses and not about this or that. I choose not to. Thats that!
I am who I am. You either like me or you don't. Thats fine with me. I'm not in any kind of a contest of a popularity either. All I do is want to just write in my journal the way that I do with no drama. And yes...it would be nice if jl would stop all the fighting. Is that wrong of me to ask? It used to be a place that was very differnt. Not anymore. Again...it goes back to where I feel like I'm walking on egg shells around jl. I don't like that feeling.
I put jokes in my journal for a reason. Trying to put some laughter throughout! Even though I do have my pains in my everyday life...I do my best not to make that my main subject. I have ms and fibromyalgia...and yes, I am in pain 24/7. Ok, thats establishied. Now, I move on in my life. Just because I have those, doesn't mean they have me!
No, I'm not leaving jl. I'm here to stay. I'm going to be very busy this weekend with my grandson, so I probably won't be posting. Again...I don't feel that I need to go into full detail about it. And this entry is in no way towards anyone. These are my thoughts and my feelings.
I choose to have certain things or people in my life for a reason. If they are going to be toxic for me, then I need to extinguish it. Then move on with my life! Just that simple. I have a lot of friends that I love dearly! :o) And I appreciate all that they have done for me. Thank you! :o)
LOVE LIFE! LIVE LIFE! ENJOY LIFE! :o)
Gods blessings to you all!