Thursday, November 30, 2006
The photo's on this page, are the Locks that were in town.
Good Morning J-Land! :o) Well....I got up a little after 1:00 this morning because my legs were doing their thing, jumping and mucsle cramps. Oh joy. :o) Can't sleep when that's going on. But, I did get my 4 hours in, which is nothing at all to complain about! :o) I think my body is reacting to this weather here in Ohio! Truly amazes me....One day it's sunny and cold, sunny and warm-dreery and warm, dreery and cold! Or all of the above! It's just all over the place! Personally, I don't care, but....my body dose! lol :o) And it lets me know real fast! The night before, I woke up becouse my right arm was completely numb. My daughter and my husband were still up. My daughter was in here on the computer, and my husband was in the kitchen. I yelled for him to come and help me, because I've never seen my arms do this before. It was purple! I couldn't do anything about it. I asked if he could try to rub it for me. He looked at it and freaked! He said, you need to go get that seen!" I just said, no, could you just see if you could try and get the circulation back." He did rub it starting from the top, and worked his way down to my hand. After getting to my hand, my upper arm started getting numb again! ggrr! It took some time, but he was able to get my arm back to "normal." That arm has always done that, but not that bad! I was just very thankful that he was still up.
Even though my daughter is taking classes to go into the medical field, it grossed her out. lol :o) So she could do it! :o) Because I asked her first, and this site of it grossed her out! lol :o) She needs to toughen up!
After checking my mail yesterday, I got in my bed and rested. And thats where I stayed. My daughter and my grandson both now aren't well too. So, what ever this is, is really trying hard to get us down even when we are all pushing the vitamins! It hits fast too.
I finally got the call yesterday from a doctors office that scheduled a scope test for me. I go on December 18. I'm glad it's not too long of a wait. :o) I've had one before, so I already know what to expect. Oh boy!
My sons band has asked my daughter to be the one to take the photo's of the band! :o) So, the night before, my son had band practice and she went along to take photo's. They also went to Lock # 9! I thought that was a great idea for photo's! They turned out pretty good too! She also made a video of my son practicing on the drums! I'm going to try and upload that, and get the photo's and put them on here! :o) I can also try to find some information on the Locks that are around here so that you know what I'm talking about. :o) It's a part of our history here. ;o) I need to go for now. :o)
God bless all of you! :o) Thank you all for you emails and comments! :o)
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
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Good Morning! Still not feeling much better. Still think I'm coming down with something else. Blah! My grandson had a doctors appointment as well yesterday around the same time as mine. He's doing great! Whew! lol Then, as I did, we both started getting a cough and a runny nose! I was in bed under my heating blanket keeping warm all day. And the both of us weren't this way when we were at our appointments! Dosen't that figure? Of course! After work, my husband went to the store and picked up my maalox and vitamin B Complex for me. And my grandson some tylenol. God bless him! I don't like to see him like this...my heart really goes out to him. :o( He can just rest in bed with grandma today. :o) I'll give him my calculater, and I'll keep the controls, and we can watch tv. together! :o)
My home health aid will be coming today. That will be so nice. ;o)
I still haven't been able to go Christmas shopping yet. Not much time left. Last night, my daughter and my grandson decorated the Christmas tree and my son put some lights out back on the deck. Tonight he's going to put lights out front for me. :o) It looks nice and Christmasy! :o) I still have things and ornaments from when the kids were in kindergarden! It's cute to see them and to put them on the tree! :o)
Well....I didn't sleep much last night. I woke up every hour it seemed like. Too much on my mind still. It will get worked out.
I'm getting off of here now. :o) I need to do a few things. And thank you all so very much for your emails! If you only knew how much they do help me! :o) And please know that God does bless you every day! :o)
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
I just got back from seeing my doctor. I still have thrush, but it's actually going away. He said that I don't need anymore medicines except for vitamins to help with my immune system. He wants me to get a B complex and maalox. I also have to have a scope to see why my throat is closing on me. I don't know when that will be yet. So....thrush is gone, take vitamins, have scope to look at my throat, and get a lot of rest. He thinks I'm also coming down with what's going around as well. I've lost more weight as well. That about sums it up.
But I say unto you which hear. Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you. Luke 6:27
I really love that verse.
I was able to get an apointment today to see my doctor. I'm really glad.
Last night, my kids and I ....well, my kids, put the Christmas tree up, and decorations out. They look nice. My son is going to put the outside lights out today. When it's all done, I'll take pictures.
I have a lot on my mind this morning. I deleted my private journal, and will make another. I have so much to get off my chest right now. I'm hurting. My heart, not my body. Or, I can just write you emails until I get another private one up.
I've prayed and prayed on this situation everyday. And will not stop. I just can't take anymore. it's wearing me down.
Thats all for now...Thank you for you emails and comments...they do mean so much to me. God blesses us everyday. :o)
Monday, November 27, 2006
Good morning! :o) Hope everyone is well today, and this morning! :o)
Yesterday, it was 71 degrees out! Wow! :o) I had no idea....lol :o) I was in my bed with my heating blanket on! I was freezing! I couldn't get warm at all. I even took a hot shower. Well, as hot as I can get it for me without burning myself. Didn't work. My husband was sitting out side, and he came in and asked me if I was hot, and if he could turn down the heat? I told him to go ahead. I just put my blanket on a higher setting! This morning, I'm suppose to go see my arthritis specailist in Englewood. I'd much rather try to get in to see my family physician. Obviously, somethings not right here.
I don't have an appitite at all. A pudding pack fills me up. I eat 1 a day, because I have to eat. Oh well....If I can't get in today....I will go to the er, because yesterday was not a good day at all for me.
My daughter came home after the game! :o) YAY! Bengals won! :o) So....the house was feeling back to normal again! :o) My husband and I liked that! :o)
This I just have to tell! LOL You're going to just love this one! LOL Too funny! :o) Ok...My daughter goes to church with her dad when she is down in Bellbrook area. She's always taken my grandson. The Father just loves him! One time he took him, and walked around with him as he was preaching. Yeaterday, After each time the choir sang thier songs, my grandson would clap! LOL :o) In a Catholic Church...it echoed! ROF!!!! :o) They were sitting in the second pew, and when they had to kneal, he would grab on to the pew in front of them, and try to get the people's attention! LOL He knew the church echoed so he would make a noise...! LOL Trying to get them to turn around! LOL Then, while Father was preaching, and it was quiet, and my daughter had him on her lap...he had passed gas! ROFL!!! I guess that too echoed pretty loud as well! Her dad even had a hard time not to laugh at him!! LOL He is something else! Plus, it's so good that Father and everyone in church has a good sense of humor! LOL Because he makes people laugh no matter where he is! :o)
Thats all for now. That was hard to type..lol...I was laughing so hard, I had a hard time typing it! LOL :o)
I really want to thank all of you for the supportive emails and comments! :o) God does bless all of us!
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Good morning! :o) I hope that everyone had a good day and night! :o)
I've been out of my medicine, so I've been taking my herbs and vitamins, like I was berfore I seen my doctor. Right now, I'm not seeing or feeling any different then I was yesterday. I don't understand this at all.
My best friend called me last night to see if she could borrow my wheel chair for her mom, because she was let out of the hospital! :o) I do hope thats a good thing. So, that meant that I got to see my best friend for a few minutes last night! YAY! :o) It's been weeks! She told me that she thinks what I have is "hoof and mouth!" eeewww! Geesh...enough of these gross diagnosis! LOL :o) She looked at the bottoms of my feet and the palms of my hands. She told me to keep an eye on them, and it I see any white spots on them, I need to get to the er fast! Plus, it's very contagious! She said if thats what I do have, then the medicine the doctor gave me wouldn't help. Well, it didn't help. Great! So...I'm still down and cold. Resting under my heating blanket. Good Grief! If I could get my immune system up, maybe that could help. I don't know...because I've been taking those vitamins. So, it should be up. :o) Something else to make you go hmmm! :o)
Tomorrow, I have an appointment to see the arthritis specialist. Thats just a follow up visit. But do not feel up to the long ride to see him.
Today, my grandson is now 18 months old! YAY! :o) It sure doesn't seem like it! :o) Well, it doesn't seem like my kids should be as old as they are either! lol :o)
Last night, it was just my husband and I. :o) Boy was it quite! We both missed all the noise! LOL :o) Especially one in particular thats about 2 foot and runs a lot! Has blonde hair and has beautiful blue eyes! LOL :o) They went to Xenia to her boy friends families get together and then stayed the night. :o)
My husband is having problems with sleeping now. :o( He sleeps like I do. :o( I am worried. He works to much and too hard to not get his sleep. Something could happen to him at work. :o( I don't want that to happen! :o( I wish he would listen to me and get checked. he's stubborn. It has to be his idea before he'll do anything. Men! Geesh!
I really want to thank everyone that prayed for my best friend and her mom! :o) They are both doing so much better now! :o) Thank you! :o)
I put my adorable award on my side bar that Debbie made me! :o) Thank you so much...I love it! :o)
Oh....I want to add something. I was informed by email about something in another's journal. I've never recieved email from this person before. And it will be the last, I already made sure of that. But I guess it was something about me and then the link was added. Thats all I needed to see, was just the link. I didn't even go to it. Please, stop what ever it is/was that this anonymous person sent to me. The words, jealous, meanspirited, judgmental, extinguish, the past, are all I can remember. If you DO have something you want to say to me, and please, not in your journal, email me please. I'm not those words. It was very hurtful to me to read that. This has to end.
I want to thank you all for you encouraging emails and comments! :o) God dose bless all of us! :o)
Saturday, November 25, 2006
No graphics today....not feeling up to even doing that. :o) Thats not normal! lol Yesterday, all I did was rest. I took a nap as well. I've been in some pretty bad pain as well. I know, I seem to be repeating myself once again. :o) Sorry about that. :o) If you have something going on in your life that you don't like and can't change it, but keep going on and on, over and over about the same thing and continue to speak negatively about,which I try to keep it as positive as I can. :o) And I feel that I do. :o) But I don't won't others thinking I am negative.
Oh well. :o) I do my best. :o) And why do others try their best to knock you down when you're positive? And, no....the grass isn't greener on the other side. :o) Besides, I like my side better! Who'd want to, have or even to be mean to others because of their own insecurities. Just things that make you go, "Hmmm!" :o)
When I got up this morning, I had that white stuff all over again, on my tongue! NO WAY! And I have about 1-2 more doese left in that bottle! ggrrr! And, my mouth is still hurting. My inside of my lips are still stinging too. :o( I've been doing what I was told, and since I do get up so early, I've actually had more of the medicine then I would have if I could sleep normally. I guess I'll end up going to the er today. Boy I do NOT want to do that! They don't know what they're doing there! It's scary there! No lie! No one likes to go there because of all the mix ups and mistakes! EEEKKK! I even (this is going to be embarrising to me) had my upper dentures out to keep them clean and to help with my mouth as well. Yes, I do have upper dentures! A dry mouth because of my medicines, and dentures that do not fit properly was the mixture of getting this Thrush! Yikes!
I need to go for now. I'm not feeling well at all. Please keep praying for my best friend and her mother! Thank you! :o) Thank you all for your emails and nice comments! :o) God bless all of you!
Friday, November 24, 2006
Good morning! :o) Well, I survived the day! lol :o) I was dead on my feet! I made more then I should have. I thought my daughter would be here. Nope! She had to go down south again to her boy friends family and her dads. One of these days...I just might "rank" up high enough for them to actually stay here for a change! I guess it's ok to hurt my feelings! I'm over it though.
Got up at 1:00 this morning. Got 3 hours of sleep. My pains woke me up. I guess I was too tired and worn out to go to sleep early, so I had a hard time getting to sleep. Figures. LOL It was nice to have my mom and my sister here yesterday though! :o) And my son and husband as well! :o)
It was so nice to sit at the table to eat. :o) But...I wasn't paying attention to how long I was sitting, because I was haveing conversation with everyone, even my husband sat with us! :o) (he usally stands, I don't know why, but ever since I've known him, he has,) So, when I started to get up, there went my legs! My mom called for my son to come and help me to my bed. He helped by walking me like we were walking a three legged race. :o) That helped! :o) So I was able to get in here to rest. :o) I ate way too much! I don't know how long I've eaten that much! lol Well, the last almost two weeks, I've been on a soft food diet, so I've been eating pudding and jello! umm umm! :o) It was great to have real food!
My husband really helped out so much last night! He put the rest of the food away and done the dishes! Wow! I thanked him! I really appreciated that! I did my best to get what I could done. Which wasn't much. :o) But I tried. :o) I'm really dragging my butt already! lol :o)
Today is going to be nothing but a day of rest for me! Whew! And thats it! :o) My body is in so much pain, and it's everywhere! :o(
***I do have a very Important request to ask of all of J-Land*** My best friends mom is very ill and in the hospital and she's not doing good at all! :o( Could you please help and pray for her? Thank you!
Thanl all of you for your emails and comments....they have hepled me! :o) And God bless all of you! :o)
Come now, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and get gain"; whereas you do not know about tomorrow. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, "If the Lord wills, we shall live and we shall do this or that." As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. Whoever knows what is right to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.
Come now, you rich, weep and howl for the miseries that are coming upon you. Your riches have rotted and your garments are moth-eaten. Your gold and silver have rusted, and their rust will be evidence against you and will eat your flesh like fire. You have laid up treasure for the last days. Behold, the wages of the laborers who mowed your fields, which you kept back by fraud, cry out; and the cries of the harvesters have reached the ears of the Lord of hosts. You have lived on the earth in luxury and in pleasure; you have fattened your hearts in a day of slaughter. You have condemned, you have killed the righteous man; he does not resist you.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Good morning to my J-Land friends! :o) Happy Thanksgiving! :o)
Yesterday I decided to put in 2 of my favorite remedies that I've used. I love them and they really work. :o) I also have recipes for herbal teas as well. :o) Well, I have a lot of things. :o) Once of these days, I'll put more up to share. :o) I've used them all, and I would not post anything that I wouldn't have ever used before. :o)
Well...My physical therapist came on Monday and did it hurt! It brought me to crying. I hurt that badly. She came again yesterday morning, and of course it hurt even worse because of she was hitting all of the same spots that she got on Monday! Again...I cried! YEOUCHIE! I really had a hard time moving around because of the pain I was in afterwards. I had so much to get done yesterday as well. I thought to myself, how? My son and his girlfriend was here and my daughter and her fiance was here for a bit, they had to go to the store to pick up a few things and do their own errands. I had to rest before I could do anything at all. Even move. My son cleaned the house for me, and got things ready in the kitchen for me. :o) I finally felt "ok" enough to stand up. I made it to the kitchen and started in. My son got the pies in the oven. I started with the dressing. I got the chicken broth going on the stove and my son chopped up the onion for me. His girlfriend helped me with the celery. :o) I made 2 pans of dressing. :o) As soon as pies got done, the green bean casseral went in that my son made, the his dessert he made. Then my dressings. :o) Whew! :o) He did the dishes for me as well and moped the floor too! :o) I made candied yams, and when the dressing was done, they got put in the oven. It was such a busy day! :o) The day before always is for me. :o) Thats when I do all the cooking, :o) Then I put foil over everything, put it in the fridge, and just basically heat it up today! :o)
I was so weak and so tired and worn out. I had to lay down, my feet and legs were swollon. So, I did. I got up, and back to the kitchen I went. By this time, it was getting late and super time. We ate, and I got back to work. After everything was done, then it was time to put the turkey in the oven. :o) I bake it all night, and on low heat. Then by the time I get up, it's almost done. :o) I asked my husband if he called get the turkey in for me becuase I was ready to pass out! No lie! Of course he would, he has always helped me with that, and knows what to do. Whew! :o) The last thing I remember is coming in here and getting in bed! I must have just dropped! I actually got 6 hours! YESSS! :o) I really needed that for today! :o)
So, this morning....oh boy am I sore and in a lot of pain! But, thats ok. :o) My husband and I are the only ones up, and we basted and took the foil off the turkey and it's almost done! :o) Here within the hour, the dressing will be put in the oven to finish cooking. :o) Then, when my son gets up, he's making the mashed potaotes and and dinner rolls. :o) Then, I finish up all the rest of the little things like deviled eggs and such! :o) It will all be ready around 1:00! It always has been every year! :o)
I thanked my whole family for all of their help, because if they could help me, none of this could or would have gotten done! :o) But....I also thank God! Because if it weren't for Him and His love and my faith in Him, I wouldn't have had all of that energy that I had yesterday at all! :o) And God is the one that I do thank for all of my blessings! I feel His Hand holding me up! :o) What a great feeling that is! :o) That IS what I'm thankful for! :o)
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
I got this in an email...lol....run your mouse over the guy and see what happens!
I have been asked to share my lip balm remedie, so I will and I will also share a massage oil for dry skin that I have used as well. :o)
Massage oil for dry skin
What you will need:
Sun flower oil
A few drops of Myrrh oil
Mix all oils together. It's ready to use. Be sure to massage into your skin. It is also good for stretch marks and scares.
Moisturizing Lip Balm
What you will need:
All of the herbs listed are all dried natural bulk herbs. You can actually grow them yourself. Or buy them. I would do both, buy dried bulk cut herbs and grow and dry my own.
Make a tincture of the oils and the herbs. Store it in a large mason jar and seal. What this means is; put what you feel is a good amount of each herb in the jar to fill it to the very top. Then pour both oils in the jar as well, as much as can be. Then seal with the lid. Let sit in the sun for 2-3 weeks, to make sure all herbs are blended well. You can tell by looking at the jar, the oil will start to look darker, and the herbs break down a bit. Drain the mixture through cheese cloth into a double boiler. Be sure to squeeze the excess oil from the cheese cloth. Melt the bees wax in the pot with the mixture. It might take up to 4 cakes of bees wax, so it will form. When wax is melted, pour into tins, and let sit to cool. Put the lids on the tins and be sure that you put all ingredients on the tins, so everyone will know whats in the balm just in case someone might be alergic to something in it.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Good morning! :o) Yes, I've been up for awhile! I got up at 1:15! I did get at least my 4 hours! Whew! lol :o) Thats good. :o)
I'm glad that everyone enjoyed my little video of my grandson! lol He's keeps himself busy! And he's fast too! LOL :o) I tried to get my son to play the drums so we could make a little video of that as well, but he had taken a few of the cymbals and drums to the house he practices at. :o) I'll wait!
Well, that medcine for the thrush is half gone now. I'm still eating soft foods, like pudding and jello. I've tried to eat something different, but it stings the inside of my mouth still! Ouchie! So, I'm sticking with the soft foods that I know won't sting. :o) Maybe I can loose more weight this way! :::crossing fingers::: :o)
By the way...my alerts are screwed up again. I'm getting them speratically! gggrrr! :o) So sorry about that. I don't want anyone to think I snubbing them! Not my nature to do! :o)
I also wanted to talk about all of my illnesses that I have. I'll just touch on the major ones, because there are so many, it would take me forever to get them down and explain them. :o) Whew! :o)
Ok, Hello, my name is Lisa! :o) I just happen to have fibromyalgia. Yes, it is an unseen syndrome, but by looking at me, you can't see my pain! No, by toughing me, you can't tell where I hurt when you do touch me. When I tell you about this syndrome, please don't think that for one minute that I use this syndrome as my name...because it isn't, it's just so happens to be something that I, Lisa, has! :o) Yes, everyday, I do my very best to try to give this syndrom a voice of its own, and to help others to learn more about it possibly! So, since no one can "see" fibromyalgia," and I can feel it, and know a bit about it, I would like to share my information about it as much as I can. Plus, this also means that, No, I'm not living in the past, nor am I not moving on to the furture in my life by talking about it! I'm giving it a voice! Because it needs to be done! I let my bright light shine for God! And I'm letting my words shine for my illnesses! Why? Because it is very necessary! Just like lettingyour light shine for God! :o) And I will continue to do this every day. I will conrinue to talk about what goes on in my life with my illnesses! :o) Because me, Lisa, just so happens to have them! Thats all! :o) I'm still me! :o)
I do hope that I do and can help just 1 person a day! Thats always been my goal! :o) I also keep a postive outlook with my life! I thank God everyday for another day! :o) I am very thankful for that! Thats what keeps me motivated! God giving me another day! :o) What more could you ask for? :o)
My back and my hips are what woke me up! A friend of mine said yesterday to me; like laying on rocks! It sure does feel just like that! Bone against rocks! Which, when my back and my legs are hurting, then my legs have to joing in too! lol! Well why not! lol :o)
Last night, my son was talking to me about his back! Oh no! I just looked at my husband! :o( My son has had bad knees just like mine for a few years now, but doesn't have insurance. :o( Then when he was describing the pain in his back, I just wanted to kneel down and cry! NO! It can't be this way! He's only 24! Somehow, we have to get him insurance, he has to be checked out and soon! It sounded just like I did when I was his age! :o( Thats when it all started for me! But now, doctors know more about fibromyalgia and he won't be like me and loose what I have! I've always worried about what my kids would inherrit from me! :o( Ok...I need to move on...
Thank all of you for your emails and comments! :o) God does bless you everyday! :o)
Monday, November 20, 2006
Always Say A Prayer! :o) And thats what I do. I give thanks to the Lord for another day! I am very thankful for that! I also say a prayer for the people that know not what they do! ASAP! :o)
When I talk about my illnesses in my journal, I do it because thats why I made this journal. :o) ie: the name of the said journal. :o) Which there are people that might take life for granted, and not realize it. I was one of them, until I lost almost everything, my abilities. Due to my illnesses. So, I started this journal. Now, I don't want to sound redundant at all to anyone that reads this. But, I write what I go through in my daily life and how my illnesses affects me! :o) Which may sound like I am repeating my self, but in all actualality, I'm not, nor am I staying stagnet in my like at all. This is my life, an open book if you will. :o) Yes, I'm moving on in my life, and it may not sound like it....but, I am! Gods hand is gently guiding me! :o) So, here I go again; my sleep last night wasn't very good again, I kept waking up because of my back. ggrr! Which now, since I've been up, my hips are killing me as well as my legs too! Geesh! lol :o) Nothing new! :o) My physical therapist should be coming this morning. I'm not totally sure on that one yet. I'm told that Thrush is contagious and I'm told that it isn't! I think it isn't, because no one else has it in the house! :o) Not even my grandson! Whew! Glad of that one! :o)
My home health aid is suppose to come today as well. :o)
My husband is so much better now. Whew! I'm so proud of him! This weekend, he has started to quit smoking now! He's already done great on the drinking! Yesterday, he had 1 every 3 hours! YAY! He's using herbs as well to help kick the habbit! :o) My son has quit as well, and it's been 3 weeks for him! :o) YAY! I'm proud of the both of them! :o) See, there's a lot of things I don't write about, and then I'll turn around and see that some people "think" they know me or us just by reading my journal.....and guess what, you don't!
It's going to be a cold day today. Thats probably why I'm in the pain I'm in. It says it 25 out! bbbrrr! I want to cuddle today! LOL If my grandson will let me! :o) He will...he loves to get in grandmas bed! :o) Too cute! :o) I think my daughter got a video of him last night playing around in the kitchen! If so, I'm going to post it on my journal! :o) He's so funny! :o)
I can't wait until this weekend! :o) I have a lot of plans, and it's going to be so fun! :o) I am so happy for my daughter as well! Words can't describe it! :o) This time of year is when you see so many people being thankful for so many things! Thats so wonderful to see! :o) And to give is so much fun as well! I absolutely love it! I give throughout the year, but it just seems more special! :o) My daughter and I have been listening to Christmas music for days now! lol :o)
I suppose I'm done now with my redundant writings! :o) Thank you so much for your informative emails and your comments! :o) God does bless us all! :o)
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Good evening! :o) This is late for me. :o) Ohio State Won today! And the Bengals Won today! YAY! :o) Everyone was happy to see that! lol Just football to me! :o)
My husband is feeling much better! Whew! I'm so glad! When he gets ill, it's pretty bad. :o( My legs did get better earlier. But, as always, they go back and forth with getting better and going back to getting numb again...so I'm used to that. :o) Just talking about what I have....thats why I made this journal. I don't want anyone thinking I'm complaining or harping on anything. I am just talking about what I have and what I deal with. Then move on. :o) Did that make any sense? I hope it did. :o) lol
It's time to take my medicine for my mouth! Yuckie! :o( Slowly but surely, it's getting better! :o) My best friends mom is on the hospital and she really needs all your prayers! She has congestive heart failure.
I also need to go as well...I need to eat something before I take my other medicines. :o) Pudding again! lol :o)
Thank you all for your emails and comments! God has Blessed me so much in my life! And He blesses you as well! :o)
Good mornig! :o) Yes, I got up early once again! :o) I even went to bed late for me...lol...10:00! oooohhh! lol :o) I haven't stayed up that late in awhile! :o)
My husband is up as well. He isn't feeling very well either. I feel so bad....because I can't do anything to help him. Something didn't set right in his stomach yesterday.
I tried to put the video up of my son, and I can't. :o) I can't figure it out...the next time my daughter gets another one, I'll upload it to youtube. :o) Then I know how to do it that way! :o) I did find some of the photos that she took at the last place they played at. :o) Since he's the drummer, he's going to always be in the back, and it's hard to get a good shot of him. :o) But she did a good job! :o) And even got a photo of him making a face at her while getting a photo of him! LOL Geesh, just because they're older doesn't mean that they're going to stop acting like that! LOL Too funny! :o)
I am having a few problems with my legs this morning. I get up and they want to lock up on me, and they also don't want to move! I don't know what to do when this happens. I just stand there and wait until the feeling kind of leaves enough so I can walk a bit. It started last night, I felt it coming on, so I walked to try and keep my legs as limber as possible. I'm still doing that, but they are wore this morning. Geesh! Just stand and wait is all I can do. It also seems to me that my body is more numb then it has been. I wonder if it will go totally numb? Well, it's because of my back deteriorating and the spurs and tumors and then they come down on my nerves. So, thats going to happen sooner or later.
I had said some thing in my journal entry yesterday about if people say they're happy every single day of their lives, then they're kidding themselves! :o) No one is like that! LOL And if you keep telling people that you are, who are you trying to convince, me or you?! LOL :o) Most likely; You! :o) Sure I'm happy, but what I'm talking about is the people that come across to you that tell you how happy they are because of this and that, and if you do this or that, then you will be so happy every single day and have no worries ever again in your entire lives! Well, In my dysfunctional like...I see it that I'm happy and so are the rest of my family and we put the "fun" in dysfunctional! LOL :o) Yes, I read my Bible and I pray and worship God, and I have great days and good days and bad days because I'm human and I live in reality. Thats all. :o) I used to know someone that actually is like that. :o) Didn't convince me through the fakeness! I am very happy with my life right now! But to see or hear someone talk like a broken record about the same thing over and over again...it's like, who are you still trying to convince?
Yesterday, my daughter and her fiance were in the newspaper for their engagement. :o) YAY! :o) LOL They left out her fathers name! lol :o) It's so beautiful! Of course, I have to cut it out and save it! :o) I'm so proud of her accomplishments! As well as I am with my sons! :o) My daughter and her fiance and my grandson, went down to Bellbrook yesterday for his families Thanksgiving dinner. They were having it early because Nena has a very big family! LOL So she's pretty much booked up for a few weeks! :o) She aced her tests yesterday! YAY! So glad and proud! I asked her if she could bring it home so I could put it on the refriderator! LOL She just said, "Mooooouuuuummmm!" LOL :o) Well...I had to say it! LOL They came home late last night, so I can't wait to see them and my grandson! :o) I need a big hug and kiss from him! :o)
Well...all of the sudden, I can feel, for lack of a better word, from my knees down to my feet, are all the way numb! Good Grief! No pins and needle feeling either. gggrrr! So I need to get off of here and try to walk around. Hopefully without falling! :o)
Thank you all so much for you emails and comments! :o) God does bless us every day! :o)
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Good morning! :o) Yes, this morning is much better! Whew, and I'm glad too! :o) Thank you for your prayers as well! :o) Everything is back to normal once again! :o)
I hope I didn't offend anyone, I was upset, and forgot to put my rant in my private journal...so sorry about that. But, thats life! :o) No one lives a perfect life anyway! LOL :o) If they think they do, then there's something majorly wrong, and they're hiding something! LOL :o)
Well, I got up at 1:30 this morning. Got my 4 hours in! Thats good! :o) For some reason, I am really sore this morning. My sides are hurting, and I can feel these little muscle cramps. There's a lot of them on both of my sides. It could have been the way I slept, who knows! The same with my upper arms! They are killing me as well. I thought about wearing my sling, but they both are hurting, so I can't do that. I'll come up with something to do for them. I'm glad it's Saturday, which means my husband is home. :o) He'll help me out when I need it. :o) And from the way I'm feeling, I'm going to need it today! :o)
Last week, my son played in his band again, and my daughter went and took more pictures again! :o) I was going to put them on here in this entry, but...I forgot to look for them, because my daughter used her camera and I don't know where they are! LOL I'll have to go looking for them! I want to try and get a video of him, and try to put it on here! :o) He really is a very good drummer! He is self taught, and doesn't know how to read music, and when in school he wanted to be in the band in elementry, they told him no, because he was too far advanced! :o) And all he did was play on his own set of drums we got him at home! :o) He can hear a song 1 time, and then play it! I'm very proud of him! Even though it might not be the type of music I wouldn't listen to, He's still good and I like to watch him! :o)
And it looks like my grandson is following in his footsteps as well! lol He's doing the samethings as my son did when he was a baby too! My mom got him a drum set for his first birthday, and he does play it! :o) My son shows him how to hold the drum sticks, and then he goes to town on them! LOL And my son has a set in the basement that he practices on, and my grandson wants to go down and play on those too! So, he lets hims, and shows him how to do it, and he just loves it! :o) So, I think my grandson just might be like his Uncle! lol :o) Which I'd love to see! :o)
Well....I'm going to make a turkey for Thanksgiving! :o) Thats the easy part for me to do. I'm also going to make homemade dressing as well. Maybe a few pies too. :o) Other then that, I'm going to need help on! :o) Also, Thanksgiving will be our 2 year aniversary here....it feels like we've lived here a lot longer then that! LOL Although, this summer went by a lot faster then last summer! :o) So, it's like 2 celabrations on 1 day! :o)
My daughter and I had a very good talk yesterday. She has an appointment to try on wedding dresses on the 6th I think it is. We're both excited about that! :o) And of course, I can't go without my camera! lol :o)
I need to do a few things, so I need to get off of here for now, :o)
I really want to thank you all for all of your supportive emails and comments! :o) And God bless all of you!
Friday, November 17, 2006
this should help get you started. During a visit to the mental asylum, a
visitor asked the Director what the criterion was which defined whether
or not a patient should be institutionalized.
"Well," said the Director, "we fill up a bathtub, then we offer a
teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to
empty the bathtub."
"Oh, I understand," said the visitor. "A normal person would use the
bucket because it's bigger than the spoon or the teacup."
"No." said the Director, "A normal person would pull the plug. Do you
want a bed near the window?"
Did You Pass? Or do you want the bed next to mine?
I'm letting you know now, that this is going to be a rant entry, and if you don't want to read it, I understand.****Sorry, I forgot to use my private journal****
Ok, I just got done reading a few entries of someone very close to me! I'm so very upset right now! I'm shaking and my heart is pounding like it's going to just pop out of my chest! I'm very worried about this person very badly! And hear I thought I was being told the truth! NOT! Again, when I'm lied too...thats makes me so upset to no end! How hard is it to just tell the truth?! HUH?
People being two faced and lying to me is a very bad mix....it brings me to a boiling point! Like real quick! People need to learn to STOP BLAMING OTHERS FOR THEIR OWN MISTAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How hard is that?! AND TO STOP DELETING things you write, thinking it will make YOU'RE LIFE "look" so much BETTER!!!! DID IT WORK?! NO!
I'm here...and how many times have I said that I'm here for someone if they need someone? Plus I'm always here for my family!!! I do not like to find out something that SHOULD have been told to ME through a journal, or through someone else!
I will NOT put up with this anymore! How I took what I just read, is a cry for help! Is it? You're lonely and you need someone to vent on! It's black and white! Once again....I see that this will not work out at all! You're doing this for someone else besides yourself! And why?! What I see in the future is a very sad and lonely person! Because when you continue to push people away from you, that love and care for you, you will end up a very sad person! And why you continue to do this to me, is beyond me! I guess I have this huge target on my back for you to kick me, and and kick me more when I'm down! Does that make you feel good to do this? If so, why? Oh, thats right, you don't have to tell me why...oh my mistake!
Yes....WE Will talk TODAY! I will see to that! I've got so many questions that you will answer! Because as of right NOW...I'm taking control of MY LIFE...not YOU! get it, got it, good!
A rich man once asked a friend, "Why am I criticized for being rich? Everyone knows I will leave everything to charity when I die."
"Well," said the friend, "Let me tell you about the pig and the cow. The pig was lamenting to the cow one day about how unpopular he was."
"People are always talking about your gentleness and kind eyes," said the pig. "Sure you give milk and cream, but I give more. I give bacon, ham and bristles. They even pickle my feet. Still nobody likes me. Why is that?"
The cow thought a minute, then replied, "Well, maybe it's because I give while I'm still living."
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Good Morning! I hope everyone had a good night last night! :o) Excluding my throat and mouth, I did! I got 5 hours of sleep! YESSS! :o) I did call to see if I was to still go to my sleep specialist's appointment, and the nurse got on the phone and told me no, to go ahead and call them back when this is all gone. Ok. I will then. Be that way! lol
That uckie poo medicine makes me upset to my stomach! Yuck! The mornings are worse. I can barely talk, and when I do, it's squeeky! lol :o) My appitite is nil...which I'm glad, and hoping I'll be able to loose more weight this way! :o) I can dream! lol :o)
It's raining once again! Nothing unusual here. :o) This Ohio weather makes me hurt! I never minded the weather before, until the fibro. and my back problems. Or, if you're a duck! :o) At least it's warmer out today.
Ok...with a show of hands....how many of you write everything in your journals? Ok...you can put your hands down now! :o) Thats what I thought! :o) Because I don't either! No one that I know does! And why would they? And, why would someone even think that I would? Who does that? No one that I know. Geesh! I'm not going to just lay out my whole entire life out on the internet for just anyone to pick at like a volture! And, what I do write about, is the most that I can write about with out having my guts spilled out all over the internet! There are certain things that people have in their lives that are personal and thats that. So, just my opinion, when you read a journal, you are reading what they wrote for that time and thats that! You don't assume anything! If I talk about my car, do I have to say what color and make and model it is? Nope. It's just not necessary. I hope this makes sense. :o) And if I do...and if it's not a kind that you like, would you think that I was wrong in having that kind of car? My point is, from something I read last night in a magazine really stuck out in my mind, and I didn't sit right with me at all. I feel we are all different for a reason, and thats how God made us! And thats that! Not one person is right! :o) Weare all human!
Sorry...Certain things just rub me wrong at times and I use my journal to release. :o) It might be a good read for someone! lol :o)
I was talking to a good friend of mine yesterday, and I told her how I've always wanted to have a little shop of my homemade herbal remedies and teas etc... but I'd have to have a degree in homiopath/herbal...ok can't think now...lol...Geesh! You got the picture...lol So, I know I could do something like that with what I have! I miss working so bad! I feel so useless just doing nothing for so many years. I read a lot to keep my mind going. I'm going to check and see if there's any kind of Pell grants. I'd love that! I guess I'm done with my little ranting...sorry about that, :o)
Again, Thank you all so much for all of your emails and comments! They've really helped me! :o) God bless all of you! :o)
A Different Christmas Poem
The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light,
I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight.
My wife was asleep, her head on my chest,
My daughter beside me, angelic in rest.
Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white,
Transforming the yard to a winter delight.
The sparkling lights in the tree I believe,
Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve.
My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep,
Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep.
In perfect contentment, or so it would seem,
So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream.
The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near,
But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear.
Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know, Then the
sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow.
My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear,
And I crept to the door just to see who was near.
Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night,
A lone figure stood, his face weary and tight.
A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty years old,
Perhaps a Marine, huddled here in the cold.
Alone in the dark, he looked up and smiled,
Standing watch over me, and my wife and my child.
"What are you doing?" I asked without fear,
"Come in this moment, it's freezing out here!
Put down your pack, brush the snow from your sleeve,
You should be at home on a cold Christmas Eve!"
For barely a moment I saw his eyes shift,
Away from the cold and the snow blown in drifts..
To the window that danced with a warm fire's light
Then he sighed and he said "Its really all right,
I'm out here by choice. I'm here every night." "It's my duty to stand
at the front of the line,
That separates you from the darkest of times.
No one had to ask or beg or implore me,
I'm proud to stand here like my fathers before me.
My Gramps died at 'Pearl on a day in December,"
Then he sighed, "That's a Christmas 'Gram always remembers."
My dad stood his watch in the jungles of 'Nam',
And now it is my turn and so, here I am.
I've not seen my own son in more than a while,
But my wife sends me pictures, he's sure got her smile.
Then he bent and he carefully pulled from his bag,
The red, white, and blue... an American flag.
I can live through the cold and the being alone,
Away from my family, my house and my home.
I can stand at my post through the rain and the sleet,
I can sleep in a foxhole with little to eat.
I can carry the weight of killing another,
Or lay down my life with my sister and brother..
Who stand at the front against any and all,
To ensure for all time that this flag will not fall."
"So go back inside," he said, "harbor no fright,
Your family is waiting and I'll be all right."
"But isn't there something I can do, at the least,
"Give you money," I asked, "or prepare you a feast?
It seems all too little for all that you've done,
For being away from your wife and your son."
Then his eye welled a tear that held no regret,
"Just tell us you love us, and never forget.
To fight for our rights back at home while we're gone,
To stand your own watch, no matter how long.
For when we come home, either standing or dead,
To know you remember we fought and we bled.
Is payment enough, and with that we will trust,
That we mattered to you as you mattered to us."
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
I love the saying on this graphic! :o) It's so very true! I am thankful! :o) I have so much to be thankful for! :o) And, I thank God everyday for my blessings! :o) I have many of them! :o) And none of them are monitary either! :o) I don't ask, unless need be, which is rare. :o)
When you can live week to week or month to month to get your check, and learn how to budget your money to make it last, and actaully work hard 5-6 days a week for that check, you come to appreciate things in your life, and see things in your life in such a more appreciative way! :o) And a more thankful way! :o) You work hard for what you want and for what you need. It's just a life lesson! :o) It's impossible to live like a "soap opra" kind of life. Although I've seen it tried. We brought our kids up to know that if they want something then they work for it! Now that they're grown, they both now know how to save money, and budget. :o) Nothing is given to them. Another life lesson for them. :o) They are both hard workers, because thats what they both seen while growing up, two hard working parents! And, you can't just go shopping anytime you just feel like it! Although it would be nice. :o) Who does that? As parents, you have to set a good example for your kids for their future, not just hand over to them what ever they want. Having a grandchild....I wish I could! :o) But he has pigy banks that we put money in for him. :o) Which will go into a bank, like I had my kids do.
I don't know what got me on that subject! Sorry for just rambling! LOL :o) Maybe I had a weird dream or something like that! :o) Oh well! :o)
Well, I've been taking that medicine for the Thrush. It burns my mouth. But, that tells me that it's working. :o) Tastes nasty too! :o) I really feel so badly for all of the babies and little ones that get this! Bless their hearts! I can see what they go through! They are in a lot of pain!
I have an appointment today to get the results from my sleep test! Yay! I didn't have to wait too long! :o) Thats good! :o) Oh no...I wonder if I should call and reschedule because of the Thrush? I do not want to spread this. I don't even know how long it will take to get rid of this. I think I will. And maybe he can just tell me over the phone. I had to cancell my physical therapist and home health aid for this whole week as well.
Instead of a shower yesterday...which I would much rather take baths....(I do have a shower chair) I did it, I was able to get in the tub! Yesss! And Yes, I thought of you (S)! :o) I didn't forget! :o) It felt great to just sit and soak! I had a few errands that needed to be done, and my duaghter had done them for me while I was relaxing as best as I could in the tub! :o) I am just so thankful to have the kids I have! My son....he's 24, and it doesn't matter where or who is around and how far away from me he is...and he'll still say or yell, "I love you moma!" :o) He told me that he don't care what his friends think, because he loves his mom?! :o) I remember one time, he was about 15, and I dropped him off at the mall so he could hang with his friends. I was at one end of the mall and he and his friends were at the other, my son is tall, I'm not..lol...he seen me, and he yelled to me as he was waving, "I LOVE YOU MOMA!!" :o) And he still does it! :o) My daughter would still hold my hand when we would go places! :o) Again, me being short, my kids tall...we would go to the mall and she would still hold my hand, even at the age of 14-15! :o) My son has always called me moma, and she has always called me mommy! :o) And they still so! :o) Ok,,getting to sentimental! LOL
And now...my grandson! :o) The feeling of being a grandma is the best! :o) It's like an exstention of your own child! lol :o)
In my life...I've had so many people come in my life for a reason, and I've had so many things happen to me for a reason, and I know that all of them were life lessons for me. :o) To see what choice I'd make. And I think that I've made some pretty good ones! :o) Of course, I'm not at all perfect, and never claim to be! :o) I have the guidance of Gods hand! :o)
Thank all of you for all of the supportive eamils and helpfull suggestions! I really appreciated them! God does bless all of us! :o)
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Oral thrush (fungal infection in the mouth)
What is oral thrush?
Oral thrush is an infection of yeast fungus, Candida albicans, in the mucous membranes of the mouth. Strictly speaking, thrush is only a temporary candida infection in the oral cavity of babies. However, we have for this purpose expanded the term to include candida infections occurring in the mouth and throat of adults, also known as candidosis or moniliasis.
How do you get oral thrush?
Candida is present in the oral cavity of almost half of the population. Everyone who wears dentures will have candida, without necessarily suffering any ill effects.
Candida does not become a problem until there is a change in the chemistry of the oral cavity that favours candida over the other micro-organisms that are present.
These changes can occur as a side effect of taking antibiotics or drug treatment such as chemotherapy. These changes can also be caused by certain conditions such as diabetes, drug abuse, malnutrition, and as a consequence of immune deficiencies relating to old age or infection, such as AIDS.
Furthermore, people whose dentures don't fit well can sustain breaks in the mucous membranes in their mouth, which can act as a gateway for candida. People who suffer from this problem often have moist, pale pink spots on their lips, known as angular cheilitis, which is an indication of a candida infection.
What are the symptoms of oral thrush?
White, cream-coloured, or yellow spots in the mouth. The spots are slightly raised. There is normally no pain in the area underneath the spots. If you scrape off these spots, they leave small wounds that bleed slightly.
In adults, thrush can cause an uncomfortable burning sensation in the mouth and throat.
Who is at special risk?
Adults with diabetes or other metabolic disturbance.
People undergoing antibiotic or chemotherapy treatment.
People with poor nutrition.
People with an immune deficiency.
How does the doctor diagnose oral thrush?
In babies, thrush is usually diagnosed on the basis of the clinical picture. Occasionally, in order to make a diagnosis, the doctor will scrape the baby's tongue and send the sample for analysis.
In adults, many other diseases and illnesses, including very early stages of cancer, can have similar symptoms. Therefore it is important to consult your doctor and get a thorough check-up.
In cases where thrush occurs as the result of disease or illness in other organs or systems, like AIDS, sudden and very intense thrush can be a sign of a general aggravation of the main illness. This makes it all the more important to pay attention to this and similar changes, so you can get help in time.
How is oral thrush treated?
Firstly, the condition that caused the thrush must be brought under control. This might involve investing in new and better fitting dentures, or adjusting diabetes treatment. For AIDS patients, it is not always possible to correct the immune deficiency, and a course of oral treatment using antifungal drugs has to be used.
Once the condition that caused the oral thrush has been treated, the thrush itself can be cured. Treatment is with antifungal medicines, in the form of pastilles that are sucked or oral suspensions that are held in the mouth before swallowing. These allow the antifungal agent to act locally in the mouth. Examples include nystatin (eg Nystan oral suspension), amphotericin (eg Fungilin lozenges) or miconazole (eg Daktarin oral gel).
In certain complicated cases, or if the infection spreads, systemic treatment will be necessary in the form of antifungal tablets, or perhaps in the form of injections.
Coping with the symptoms of oral thrush
Thrush can make the mouth so sensitive that it is impossible to perform regular oral hygiene. Use a very soft toothbrush. It can often help to rinse the mouth with a diluted solution of 3 per cent hydrogen peroxide.
If whatever caused the thrush can be brought under control, the infection is likely to go away after a few days of treatment with a fungicide.
Based on a text by Dr Flemming Andersen and Ulla Søderberg, specialist
Last updated 06.07.2005
Ok.....I seen my doctor. And I'm very glad that I started the herbs and vitamins as well when I did. What is happening is, one of the newer medicines that I was put on about a month an a half ago, which was only two new one, and not counting the injections that I get from the pain clinic, gave my body a bacteria infection! I had no idea! I guess it's pretty bad. I was given a liquid to help my mouth and my throat. I have to swish it in my mouth, then swollow it! eeewww! Yukie! By swollowing it is suppose to help the inside! I don't get it, but that what he said! eeww! And I told him that! I'm only allowed to have room tempreture drinks, and a soft diet! I can handle that. I just don't know how long I've had this! According to him, I've had it for a while! Gross! With having so many other different things going on, I never know whats what! And I can't just keep running to the doctors every week! And thats what it would be, every week, because there's always something different going on with my body and so many new things happening, and I'm told it's just part of having fibromyalgia! Gessh! He asked me if I had any pain when I urinate? I don't know...I can't feel...my body is numb! And I don't know why! He asked me all kinds of questions that I couldn't answer because I'm numb! I don't know. I wish I did know, then it would help me medically! I really didn't need that paper I took, because he asked me all of those questions...which is good! :o) I was actually impressed this time with him...he really was very concerned. Not complaing about at all. :o) Plus, I've lost 10 pounds as well! Yay! :o)
Oh, and it isn't contagious! Whew! Thats why I'm the only one in the house that has it! LOL Plus, I'm the only one thats on the medications that causing it too! :o)
So, I guess thats that! :o) I'm feeling a bit better. :o) I've got to get my immune system up. Now that does go along with fibromyalgia. gggrr!
I came home and was really weak! I had also went and got a few things for me to eat while I was out. I called and let my kids know where I was at, so they wouldn't worry. Soups and jello really sounded good to me. So, I got a lot of that. :o) My appitite isn't there at all. Maybe I can loose more weight! :o) Would be nice. :o) I got home and my son helped me in the house. He didn't have to work yesterday, which I was glad. :o) He wasn't though.
I got out of my clothes and into my pj's and got in bed to rest. It really took a lot out of me to just do that little bit that I did! Geesh! I'm weaker then I thought. Well, I know why now.
My grandson was glad to see me home! :o) He got in bed with me. :o) He gave me hugs. :o) Now thats the kind of medicine that I like! :o) He is so loving! :o) Of course, he wanted to watch tv. and we did. :o) He would turn and look up at me and give me this big smile! :o) It just warms my heart! :o) To me, the most important things in life are not "things," they are the unseen love, and sparkles in my grandsons eyes, and the feeling you get in your heart when you hold someone you love dearly! :o) Thats whats important to me! Not "things." Things that you can not put a price tag on! Or buy! And I am so blessed each and every day for all of my most important things in my life! :o) The love of my family and my friends! :o)
I really want to thank all of you for your supportive emails and comments! :o) God does bless us each and every day! :o)
Monday, November 13, 2006
Yesterday early morning, I recieved an email from a friend of mine. She uses herbs as well to help when you're ill. I'm a very firm believer in herbs. I used to have a cabinate full of herbs, but when we moved here, I gave them to my best friend, because we didn't have the room for them. :o( I made tinctures and teas and lip balms and tonics and all kinds of things to help when we got ill. Well, she was telling me that what I was describing sort of sounded like what was going around at her daughter's school and she was giving her daughter these certain mix of herbs. So, my husband and I went and got them, and I did exactly what she told me to do....and I'm happy to say that my mouth is about 85% better and my throat is about 85% better as well! :o) I rested as well and kept taking them just as she said! :o) I'm still going to go to the doctor today. :o) I just can't thank her enough! :o) After that, my husband said that he thinks that I need to go and start getting my herbs back again, and we'll make room for them! :o) Cool! :o)
It seems that aol let me have most of my alerts today. And allowed me to even comment too! lol :o) How about that! :o) I also want to thank everyone for your advise. I did write them all down. Because I can go over all of them with the doctor. :o) I am very appreciative for all of your help as well. :o) I'm also really going to bring up the thing about peanuts! That is very intersting!
I was reading a journal this morning, and I had to laugh...on the inside! :o) It just brought to my mind of someone I used to know. lol Thats all. :o) How someone is like an iguana! They can just be who they want to be, because of the people that are around them, so then thats who they are. lol Too funny. :o) Then, they just meld into the crowd! :o) Seen it happen too many times. :o) I'm me..what you see, is what you get! And thats that! :o) And what I write in this journal is me! Yes, I do have health issues. And, in my eyes, that's not my fault! I see it as a gift from God, and I except them all! :o) And I know that He is helping me through them, and I've put my problems in His hands! :o) And, what I do, say, feel,react, how I live....thats all between me and God, and no one else! :o) Thats me! Do you still like me? I wouldn't see what would change anything at all...because I'm no different then I have been in years! lol :o) I'm just plain ole' Lisa. :o) Thats it. That simply has a few defects (illnesses). :o)
I feel the need to talk about my little defects, because I feel that I just might reach out to someone out there and help them. :o) And I hope I do! :o) Thats why I do post things that I have, little bit of information, on here hoping that it will help someone. :o) But, I do want to also say one thing, I don't want anyone to ever think that I'm being pushy on anything that I do post. I know I don't like that, and I want to avoid that. For instance, like my beliefs....I believe my way, and I don't want to be at all pushy to anyone. You can catch more with hunney then viniger.
I need to get off of here...it's 8:00! I should be able to call a doctor now! :o) Thank you all so very much for all of your helpfull emails and comments! God does bless us all! :o)
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Yesterday....nothing got any better. In fact, my throat and mouth has gotten much worse. My tongue was hurting so badly. It was even bleeding at times. Yes, I know I need to go and get it checked, but if I go to the ER at the hospital, they can't really do anything about it. They'll just tell me to go to my doctor. What ever it is, it seems to be spreading. my lips are hurting as well and are very red! I can open my mouth only to a certain point and then it feels like the sides of my mouth is going to rip. I just don't get it! I haven't changed anything for this to be an alergic reaction. I'm not on any new pills or anything like that. I got a sore throat the day I went out to vote. It was raining out, and maybe I caught a cold or something. Well, at least thats what I thought anyway.
I've even noticed more problems as well. diahrria, stomach cramping, nausiating, and just the all around feeling of being ill. My husband is worried. He said it sounds like I've been poisend....I truly think not though! :o) I mean it really does feel as if I do have acid in my mouth. And the off and on bleeding of my tongue. Oh well....I'm dealing with it until I can see a doctor. :o)
Again, I got up early. I;30! 3 hours this time! Not too bad. :o) My husband and I were baby sitting are grandson last night. :o) My son was playing in his band and my daughter went to watch him and take some pictures of him! :o) She's as proud of him as I am...but she would never admit to it! LOL :o)
By the way....I'm still doing Christmas Cards! If you would like to exchange addresses, email me and put in the subject line; Christmas Cards! If you don't/can't send any, you can still give me you address, and I'll send you one! :o)
I don't have anything at all planned today. Just to rest,it also seems that I'm very tired and I sleep alot as well. which I'm not complaing about at all! :o) I'm feeling tired now! YAY! :o) So...I'm going to try and see if I can get some sleep! If not, I'll be back on! lol :o)
Thank all of you for your very supportive emails and comments! God does bless all of us! :o)
Saturday, November 11, 2006
For God with love
For All You Do
For all the times You help me grow
And for all the seeds You've helped to sow
For all the tears You've cared to dry
And for all Your patience when I ask 'Why'
For all those times when I give up
And say 'please take away this cup'
For all the things You show to me
And for all the Truth You've let me see
For all the times You drag me along
And for all the right You've made from wrong
For all Your love You send my way
And for Your promise of a better day
For all the things You help me 'let go'
And for all the mountains You help make low
For all the rainbows after a storm
And for all Your sunshine to keep me warm
For all You do each and every day
And for all Your guidance along the way
For all the courage You give me to pursue
Thank You God, this flower's for You.
Friday, November 10, 2006
A Backslider's Prayer
I need a glimpse of light Lord
In this weary dying soul
I can no longer feel you
Or that I'm truly whole
My burdens are so heavy
My pathway's rough and steep
Let me see the light Lord
To know I'm still your sheep
You are the Rock of Ages
You are the Great I AM
Just send the Blessing Please Lord
To show me where I stand
I know I've always been the best
Of your children this I know
But you are my help and refuge
The Savior of my soul
On bended knees I beg you
Restore this saddened one
I'll strive to do Thy will Lord
Until this life here is done
Then the tiny peaceful light
Makes its way into my soul
And it keeps getting brighter
As it cleansed this weary soul
Now it's shining like a beacon
To a ship that's lost from shore
I feel your blessed peace Lord
My soul's not lost no more
Oh Praise the name of Jesus
The Father and the Son
And of the Holy Spirit
To all the Three in One
The peace that flows from Heaven
Now is flowing through my veins
I am standing on shouting ground
My Lord and Savior reigns
A Backsliders Prayer
I must tell all my neighbors
My friends and family
How Jesus has restored me
And made my heart so free
He will not forsake me
A promise He has made
It was I that done the straying
But in chastisement I paid
O I feel just like a millionaire
Though with earthy goods I'm poor
But I am rich in Jesus' love
Who could ask for more?