Friday, March 31, 2006

A beautiful morning.......

Yesterday morning I got up at 12:30! uuuhhhh. I was fine up until around 3:00. I was wearing a summer night gown and was nice and cool. Until I got very dizzy and very over heated and real sick to my stomache. :o( I've been dizzy ever since I had that fall on Saturday. But....I get like this every now and then and I don't understand why. The er docter said that my head was fine and no fractures. When I walk around the house, I am so dizzy, I even tip a bit! Thats not safe as well. I laid on my bed, with my fan on high right on me, and I don't know if I passed out or what, but I did wake up at around 9:30! That really scares me when this happens. I don't know when I'm going to get that way until it happens. :o( I'll give it through the weekend, and if I'm not any better by Monday, I'm going to call my doctor. I've also noticed that my body is swollen as well. I don't know what that could be either. My face is so swollen that my sunglasses leave a mark on my face after I take them off.
Ok, now today.....On Wednesday agter my appointment, I went to Click Camera in Troy. They had an add from someone selling a Minolta Maxum 7 with the lens and flash and all the original boxes and manuals! All for $250.00! The lens costs more then that! Wow! My mom wanted to go look at it, and I now have the camera that I've always wanted! YAy! :o) I have a lot of reading to do to know how to use it! And it's only 4 years old. Not bad. :o) Home Health Aid will be here very soon so I need to get going! I'm really going to need her help today. :o) I hope she's up to it! lol :o)
God bless everyone, and thank you for your comments. :o)

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

A time to reflect......

Well.....I went to my doctors this morning. <sigh> I had MRI's, a bone scan and blood test done for him as well. I found out that I now have a total of 5 tumors on my spine. They are in the places that do hurt me the worse. My red bloods cells are high still. And...having a seizure disorder, sleep disorders, fibromyalgia, multiple sclerosis, osteoperosis on my spine, I also find out that I have somethings else wrong with me. He is sending me to another specialist in Dayton. He is a rheumitoidoligist. He told me a name of what it is, but is was long and I forgot it. I wasn't in the frame of mind at that time to even now my own name. He did say as soon as this specialist diagnosises me, then I can be treated for it and feel at least 50% better and in less pain. :o) Which is very good. :o) He is, however, very concerned with me falling as much as I do. My legs have gotten very weak, like my upper body has. I'm having a lot of trouble with walking and general things. I'm praying to hear very soon about the electric wheel chair. He told me that I really need to have it now. <sigh> So....I've been trying to deal with the fact of the things and abilties that I've lost and am losing, and the news I just got today. A bit hard to swallow, but will get through all of this. :o) God gave me these things for a reason, and I will ride them out! :o) I should feel pretty special that He picked me! :o)
I suppose thats all for now. God bless you all and keep the comments coming! :o)

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

A time to look closer......

.....God is my strength and power, and He makes my path perfect........  I say this because I am being tested once again by the negative and dramatic person. I don't understand why there are others out there that will not leave you and your family alone? ....What ever you do, work at it with all your heart......  Which is what we are doing! As a family, we stand together. And with our strength. .......I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.....   I will not ever let this person back into my life. I pray for them. They know not what they are doing. I can't have much more going on in my life right now, and honestly, neither can my daughter. I'm finding out more and more everyday that I am losing more abilities. I'm dealing with those right now. It's a lot to go through. I've just been having more and more accidents. I've almost lost my indipidence. This one is the hardest to deal with, but with prayer, I'm doing good. A few more weeks and I'll find out about my electric wheel chair. Right now...I can't wait, because I see now how much I do need it. My husband is done with the back porch/mudroom. He has put up a platform to make both doors to the outside level for me to get out. :o) This weekend he's going to start on the ramp off the back deck. :o) Today my daughter is here to do her laundry. :o) She and my grandson spent the night last night! :o) I'm still in a lot of pain from the fall. But I'll get better. :o) My physical therapist said at least my body isn't as bad as it was from after the car accident. Whew! :o) Thats a good thing! :o) I do have a doctors appointment tomorrow to see what all of the tests revealed. :o) I can't wait.
......Now the Lord of Peace himself, give you peace......
Thank you for your comments. God bless you! :o)

Sunday, March 26, 2006

another day to remember! yesterday so far in the morning was going fine...nothing out of the ordinary. Then I decided to go and get some money orders. I honestly don't remember what time that was, just that it was a bit after noon. I was going to go to Ulbrichs to get them, but I decided to just go someplace closer. I went over to The Dairy Mart. I had my walker with me. I went in and asked for some money orders, and the man told me that the machine was out until next month. I told him thank you and so I was going to go to the first place then. I walked out the doors and I moved my walker down the curb/step and then I stepped down and somehow I fell backwards and my back hit the curb/step and my head litterally bounced on the sidwalk! So I layed there with half my body on the pavement and the top on their sidewalk! This is what I remember. I know that my right shoe was all the way out of the parking lot and my walker hit my car, I was right there in front and beside my car. I always hold down my breaks when I do what I did to get down off of steps. But my breaks on my walker haven't been working right. I remember a man coming out and asking if I was ok and the back of my head was really killing me and my back and my left elbow. So he called the ambulance and once again I was put on a baord with a neck brace on and taken to the er. I was alone and I don't know if I passed out. One man said that he seen the whole thing. But I didn't think to ask him if I passed out or anything. I went through more x-rays and a CT scan. On the way in the ambulance, they took my blood pressure and it was extremly low so they started an iv in my wrist. I didn't even feel it! I've always been able to at least feel an iv in my wrist, but not this time. :o( That just shows that I've lost more on my left side. I called my husband to let him know what happened and to get my car. I remember going to sleep and wking up a lot at the hospital. It kept happening while I was getting my x-rays too. The doctor came in and told me that my x-rays and CT scan was fine so they gave me a shot and a script for Vicodine and I could go home. My husband came down to be with me so he took me home and got my script. I kept getting real dizzy the whole night and bad room spins and would get real hot all at once! Even when in bed! I don't know what that was all about, but I rode it out. I got up this morning at 6:30 and boy am I sore! My head and back and my left all of the other pains on top of that. My elbow has a big red bump on it. Just bruised it pretty good. I don't have a bump on my head, which is really surprising. My husband said that he will work on my breaks today for me. But they needed fixed for awhile now and I knew something like this would happen some day if they weren't fixed. I do thank God that I am not as injured as I could have been! I'm still pretty much out of it and in a lot of pain. With all of these tests that I've been having this month alone, I should be glowing and very magnetic! :o) But nothing lik any paper clips has stuck to me I must be fine! lol :o) Thats all for now, I'm still real dizzy...God bless you all and thanks for your comments. ;o)

Saturday, March 25, 2006

A day to remember.........

I'm so glad that yesterday is over! Whew! I went to the hospital to get the MRI done. Low and behold....after I get in their to get it done, they tell me that I have 3 MORE MRI's that they needed to do and that they read the paper wrong! Yikes! So...I had a total of 5 MRI's done! I was in that mechine for a little over 3 hours! In the last ones taken, I had to have some dye injected. No problem, I've had that before. I'm laying there with my head in a "cage" ready for the next testing...thay start to inject me. I was asked over and over if my arm hurt! I kept saying no. I went through the rest of the tests, and they told me to wait in the waiting room for the cd of all my tests for the doctor. I had to go to the bathroom, and when I pushed up my sleeve to wash my hands, I noticed that my right arm had a hudge lump where the injection was put in! Good Grief! I showed my mom that was with me, and we just kept an eye on it. I got the cd and we went to the caffaterria and I noticed how hard it was for me to bend my arm! I looked at it and it had spread around my arm and elbow and up to my shoulder! And it was starting to hurt a bit then! I knew I was in the right place if anything would have happened. :o) By the time we were done and ready to leave, I looked at it again and my arm was swollen almost double the size of the left one! And it looked gross because of the lump! eeeewww! We went into the gift shop and I got a few large grip utinsles for me to use. when we left, I looked again, and the swelleing was getting to look a bit better. The lump wasn't as bad. So I felt safe to go ahead and leave. I got home and took my jacket off and it was slowly looking better. Whew! It was still pretty gross though...eeewww! I thought if I put an ice pack on it and elevate it it would get better. But....after I got out of my clothes and my mom left, I just had to copy that cd that was given to me! :o) If it's of me or about me and it's medical...I want it! lol :o) After that, I looked at it again and it was really looking so much better! Then I got in bed and was looking at a magazine and had it on a pillow. It went down to just looking like a "normal" looking slwollen arm! No more lumps too. :o) My daughter and my grandson came over last night, and we went to Wal Mart so I could get a few things. We came home and just went to bed. When I got up this morning, I checked my arm out again and it's still a bit swollen, but nothing to worry about...I think! :o) Whew! What a day that was! That was a day to remember! lol :o) I was so exhausted from being in that MRI mechine too! Geesh! You wouldn't think I should have been, but to have to lay flat on those hard tables and not move for that long, really hurt. day was a full one! I got home so much later then I had expected to. I had to call and cancel my Home Health Aid from coming, and I just hated doing that. I really needed her help too, and still do.
I was checking my mail this morning and noticed I had an email from my daughter's dad. He had sent me some pictures that I had lost! YAY! :o) I'm so thankful!
I guess thats all for now....I'm getting tired of typing! lol :o) God bless you all and thank you for your comments!

Friday, March 24, 2006


Well, today was another pretty good day. I did get some rest in bed. No nap though. :o( I tried. My mom came over for a visit this morning and tonight as well. :o) I haven't seen her in awhile.
My daughter and my grandbaby is here spending the night. Her wrist doesn't seem to be getting any better. I got up at 1:30 tonight. :o( The pain in my back is really bad and it gave me a haedache. So I had to get up. :o(
I wrote everyone about trying to get all of the pictures that I had lost when my computer far nothing yet. :o( It's hard to lose something that means that precious to you. But, my life will go on. :o)
Thats all for now. I have two MRI's this morning...gggrrr! I'll see what they will show. :o)
Thank you for the comments and God bless you and Gentle hugs. :o)

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Another good day!

Yesterday I didn't get the rest that I had planned on, but my strength is slowly coming back. :o) I was real dizzy as well. I don't know why, but I did have a hard time keeping my balance. My home health care aid came and got a lot done for me. :o) Boy do I appreciate that. :o)
My daughter's wrist seems to be feeling better. And thats good. My son's face is looking a bit better....just wish he would have went to the er to make sure that nothing is broken. His right cheeck bone and his nose still looks bad to me. :o( At least he is able to see out of his left eye now. Whew!
I'm still having some problems with talking. I don't get it. It just seems that it takes so much energy to talk. Like I'm using too much of the muscle in that area. I don't know. My swollowing is still the same, I still choke a lot. Maybe it has something to do with the multiple sclerosis? I have no idea. I still don't know anything about it as well as much about the fibro. It's all starting to run together to me, if that makes sence? My physical therapist will be coming this morning. YAY! :o) Maybe she can answer some of my questions? Tomorrow I have to go get more MRI's done. Oh boy! :o) Hopefully they'll show more stuff for the doctors. :o)
Other then my physical therapist coming today, I don't have any plans. All I want to do is get some rest. My body really needs it. Soooo, on the note....thank you for your comments and keep them coming! :o) God bless you!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Today is a rest day for me. :o)

Monday night was great. :o) My daughter and the baby spent the night......and then on Tuesday's is her laundry day. The baby is teething and the doctor said that he is getting 4 of his upper teeth in all at once! Ouchie! The poor thing is in so much pain. :o( My daughter has been having a lot of pain in her right wrist lately and it was pretty bad yesterday. She could hardly use her right hand. She went to the er to get it checked. She came back with a wrist brace on and she has tendonitisis. :o( I let her know if she needed any help with the baby that I'd be here for her. Bless her heart!
Today is going to be a rest day for me. I really need it. I've been doing way too much for my body. And it's taken a toll on it. I am very weak in my upper body and my lower body. I feel so limp and very weak. So I'm relying on my back for support and it's in a lot of pain as thats not helping very much. Geesh! I really had fun though yesterday with my daughter and grandson! :o) Boy is he a handful now! Yikes! lol :o) My son's face is looking a bit better, but he says it is in a lot of pain. :o( He told me that he has learned a vaulble lesson. I'm so glad. :o)
My Home Health Care person comes today. I'm reaaly glad because I need the help today! :o)
Thats all for now. Please keep the comments they do help me not feel so alone in this. :o) God bless you! :o)

Monday, March 20, 2006


I just got a physical therapist is sick and won't be coming this morning. I hope she feels better. :o)
I has such a great weekend! My husband and I babysat our grandson overnight on Saturday! YAY! :o) and boy is he a! :o) I can't wait to be able to do it again! My daughter and my grandson will be spending the night tonight because tomorrow is laundry day for her. I can't wait! :o)
Everything went great over the weekend. My husband was measuring the doorways and outside to start building me a ramp, and to put little ramps on the doors to make it easier for me to get in and out of them as well. :o) Next week he's going to start on this project! :o) It will make it so much easier for me. :o) Our back door is the hardest for me to use because of the doors. And those are going to be the ones that will be started on first! Yes! :o) Things are really falling into place lately! :o)
Today all I have planned is to rest in my bed and do some reading. I need to get the rest I lost over the weekend.....I didn't sleep Saturday night. lol I slept Friday night and last night! Yikes! so...I really need to rest my body up! :o) I looked like a walking zombie! lol I could barely even speak! I missed the yearly Lady's Auxillary Dinner yesterday. :o( They understand. I will go next year. :o) (I belong to the Troy Eagles) My best friend went, so she will let me know what I missed. :o)
I have been thinking for awhile now about something that I'd love to have. I know, this is a "want" and not a "need." But I was a model a few years back before I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Now, I would love to be a photographer! I absolutly love to take photo's! Of course my family and friends know that! lol :o) My best friend bought her ex husband a 45 mm camera with almost everything that you could get for it. I would love to have a camera like that one! It takes great photo's and is the one that would be the best for me. It cost her a lot of money, but that is a dream of be a photographer! :o) I know it probably sounds silly, but I want to be on the other end now, and take photo's of my grandson! :o) I'll put that on "What I want for my birthday" list! lol :o)
I have all of my needs, now I have a "want!" :o) And thats it! :o)
We have a winter storm warning out for today. Geesh! And today is the first day of Spring! Thats Ohio weather for you!
Well...I've chatted enough for now. Thank you for you comments and please keep them coming! God bless you all! :o)

Saturday, March 18, 2006

A great day!

I couldn't have asked for a better day! I had time alone to do some things that I've been wanting to do. Like pick up my bedroom a bit. :o) Thats about all I can do. LOL :o) I finally recieved a Bible carrying case that I had ordered awhile back. It's so beautiful...much prettier then the one I had. And a cross sticth pattern of a Cross...I can't wait to start that. :o) I read some of my favorite Psalms! That really uplifts me!
My best friend came over. And her daughter...which is my Home Health Care came from 2:30 to 4:00. :o) It really does help to have her come. Thank you "E!" :o) I rested my back, hips and legs as best I could as well. They were really hurting pretty bad yesterday. Ouchie!
In the daughter and my grandson came over for a few hours! :o) I had a lot of fun! :o) day was great! :o) Just the usual pain. Starting to get used to that...don't know if thats good or bad. lol :o) You do what you have to do to get by in your everyday life. :o)
Since my computer crashed a few weeks ago, I lost all of my pictures that I had on here of the day my grandson was more of him. So this morning I emailed my daughter's dad and step mom to see if they could email me the ones that I sent to them, and the ones that they might have. :o) This time I'll back them up so I won't lose them ever again. Whew!
This morning, a few things that I had ordered for my duaghter's birthday finally came. :o) I can't wait to give them to her. :o)
I guess this is all....Have a great day and God bless you. Thanks for any and all comments. Please feel free do leave one. :o)

Friday, March 17, 2006

The Lord has us in His hands! :o)

I am in one of the best moods that I've been in for such a long time now! :o) When you ask God, you will recieve! :o) My family was blessed yesterday with good prevailing over evil! :o)
My daughter called me yesterday morning asking for me to come over. Of course I did. :o) My grandson was crying and had a fever. I prayed before I left for him to heal. When I got there, I held him and his fever went away and he was right back to being himself! YAY! :o) What it is, is he's teething again. He is getting his upper teeth! :o) It looks as though it could be 3 or 4 of them! Yikes! My daughter and I spent the day together talking and having fun together once again! :o) I felt our closeness back again! YAY! :o) She wanted to let me know that she had been doing a lot of thinging on her own and had come up with a lot of the things that were told to her by this evil person didn't pan out to be true! She had to realize that and see that for herself..nothing I could do or say would convince her of what I had already knew. So...she really wanted to come over to talk to my husband as well about a few things! :o) It was great! I had put this situation in God's hands, and He took care of it! :o) As a friend of mine told me yesterday....I must be on the right path for evil to keep testing me! Thank you for reminding me of that! :o) It is so true! But....the evil didn't win when it came to my family! Yessss! :o) My husband is feeling better with his blood pressure. :o) which makes me feel better. :o) The truth will always come out some time or another no matter what! :o)
I went and got my blood tests done early yesterday morning. They told me that I needed to schedule the MRI tests myself. I thought that to be odd, but I came home and done just that. So, as soon as I hear back from the neurologist, I'll know when the appointment for those.
I slept pretty good last night. I got up at 3:00, but I actually had no interuptions while sleeping. :o) My mind and body are so exhausted from the trials I've been going through. Whew! And knowing that thins will be back to normal in our family helped as well. :o) I am very sore and in a lot of pain, but I will manage. My stress level has gone down considerably!
I want to thank you for your comments and support through all of this and God bless you! :o)

Thursday, March 16, 2006

"Never be afraid to raise your voice for honesty and truth and compassion against injustice and lying and greed. If people all over the world would do this, it would change the earth."
--- William Faulkner

Monday, March 6, 2006

Need to release......

I need to release all the bad and unhealthy things and relationships in my life! My nerves are totally shot! I have a migraine on top of it all.
I just found out something this morning that has really upset me! If I had known this...things would have been very different!
If anyone has something to say to me PLEASE do NOT leave any nasty comments in my journal! Write me a letter or give me a call! I will NOT tolerate it anymore!
I have put all of my problems in God's hands and I know I will be ok.
I need to start thinking of me and not everyone else for a change! And I don't think that thats a bad thing! And if anyone does not like what I have writen in this journal...too bad!


Sunday, March 5, 2006


Ok.....I read my Aunts Journal that she has as well. (my mom's sister) I found out through her journal that my Uncle has prostate cancer! :o( I'd like to know why my mom, me, my sisters were not told of this?! Why only my Aunt and possibly her family?! :o( That really hurts. At least "I" will now let my mom and my sisters know this! :o( When someone has an illness in our family, at least I let everyone know. :o( I'm very hurt. And very worried as to how long has he had this and what will be done. :o( I want to thank you for "not" letting us know! :o(

My day yesterday went well. I took a long nap. My body was exhausted. My grandson is still not feeling up to par. But is feeling a bit better. It was good to visit with my daughter and her boy friend as well. My son and his girl friend were in and out all day. I should be able to visit with them today a bit.

Thats all for now......I'm still feeling overwhelemd right now. Plus I feel even more like I'm still in a glass I'm being ignored by other family members. Thanks. God bless you all....and my prayers will be with my Uncle!

Saturday, March 4, 2006


Last night my sister, best friend and her daughter went out and had fun! :o) YAY! About time! :o) It really felt good to get out of the house. It was well needed for all of us. :o) We went to a bar that her daughter goes to...LOL...I think we might have been the oldest ones there except for the bouncers! :o) It was still a lot of fun. ;o) I'm surprised we didn't get our hands stamped senior citizens instead of over 21! lol :o) And I am the oldest out of all of us! :o) It was fun to watch the kids dance and have fun as well. :o) It was the first time that I've been anywhere like that with my cain. It went well though..Whew! :o)

I didn't get much sleep, because of my back killing me, so I really need to get a nap in. :o) My daughter is bringing my grandson over some time today for my sister to watch while she and her boy friend go out for awhile. :o) I can't wait to see him. It seems so long since I have. :o)

Well....thats all for now. God bless you all and thanks for your comments. :o)

Thursday, March 2, 2006


Yesterday was not a very good day at all. The testing took a lot longer then expected. ggrrrr. I was so drained and weak by the time I got home since I had gotten up at 12:30. I didn't have a nap. Within the past couple of days, I had only a few hours of sleep. I can't even begin to describe the pain that I'm in. :o( My physical therapist is coming this morning and I know it's really going to be very painful.
I'm also in pain for what happened last night. This pain isn't physical. My husband came to me and asked me if we should give the puppy back to the people we got her from. I didn't know what to say. :o( We talked for awhile about how much work she is on me and how I haven't been able to get much sleep. :o( I cried so hard. :o( We both realized how much we have forgotten how much work it is to take care of a puppy. This was a very hard dicision to make. :o( We went ahead and called the people and they told us that there was a family with children that had called them wanting one of their puppy's, and to call them to see if they would like to have her. The family's other dog just died of cancer and the woman was delighted to have her! My sister took her to their home and the children were so happy to have her! :o) My sister cried to see their happiness. That made my husband and I happy to know that she is in a good and loving home. They wanted to exchange addresses so they could send us photo's of her growing up! :o) How wonderful that will be! :o) I felt so bad about not being able to take care of her and now she is in a home that we all are very happy about! :o)
Last night my daughter was calling me about my granson. He hasn't been feeling well for the past few days. She took his temp. and it was high. Of course I was freaking over that as well as the dog situation! I told her to take him to the ER. Her boy friend got the night off of work to go with her, and my husband went as well. I asked for them to keep calling me to let me know what was going on. My daughter had called to let me know that his fever had went down. I was very relieved! Then about 8:15 I started to feel as if I was going to pass out from exaution! I had to get to my bed! Thats the last I remeber and I got up this morning at 5:45. I had slept that long! It's been a long time since I had this much sleep! :o) What a night it was! :o( I woke up to a note on my desk telling me that my grandson has an ear infection and is teething, and has RSV. I'm so glad that he has a doctors appointment for today. Whew!
I hope that today will go a bit better then yesterday did. My sister and I really need to relax. She went with me to the hospital yesterday while I was having the she is exhausted as well. And with all of our emotions going from up and down all night last night.

I wish everyone a great day and God bless you all. Thank you for any comments that you have given me. :o)