I just don't really give a dam anymore. I honestly don't know how much more of this I can really take. Ok, we all know one thing....I'm in pain, that goes with what I have. I did get reliefe yesterday when the nurse was here. But that pain is back again. I'm so tired of crying and just down right hating my life! Yes, I am thankful for what I do have. I'm just sick of this. My nurse called me and told me that my doctor WON'T let me have a catheder! And the reason of her desiscion? Because I COULD GET AN EFFECTION!!!!!!!! oooh! Oh boy! Like THAT would be any worse than what I'm going through NOW?!? My nurse also asked about the Lasix IV. I don't even have to say it. I just sat and cried my eyes out like a big baby! I called my doctor to see if I could explain the why and hear the why's from her!She told me that it COULD be possible "IF" I had a cath in for 3 days that I COULD get an effection!!!! Oh boy! And she won't lewt me have just the cath either because of the same thing!!! I told hwr that I'm in pain nowe and what would be tyhe differeence? Sjhe doidn't HAABVE an answer for taht!!! Then she tells me tgat there is a new dioctor in thta office and she wants me to CHANGE doctrsas! All I kmnow is I'M SOOOOOOOOO DONR right now! I even aslked about doinh it i the hospotl! Nopr! I'm just si tired of this and crying. I'n crying right now and its so hard to trpy through mu teras. All I know now is thet i'm DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!