OK....I just wrote a whole
entry!!! I clicked to save...
and now it's gone! When I
Get back from my DR.s
apt. then I'll write! ggrr!
P.S. Oh!! This it saves! LOL
Yesturday....if it could go wrong, it did. And all I wanted to do was to take a nap! lol I'm really not feeling very well at all. My delivery of meals were on time, the only thing that was on time. :o) My nurse comes here at 11:00 on Thursday's. Not yesturday....it was 5:10! :o) I called because I was worried and they had told me that she got a flat tire and is way behind. Thats good that she wasn't hurt or anything like that. Whew! Dh got to meet her and when she left...lol...he said to me that she looks like such a *itch! She can, but to me, I don't notice it as much I guess and I think she's nice too. :o) He said, He can;t see it!" lol I'm still without one of my pills. Lunesta. Thats all. I could go without it really. It was suppose to be ready for pick up on Monday! Well, you got to know this town by now! It's not! I called the doctors again about it and they said they would call it in! Oh, how nice....the nurse asked me when it was suppose to be ready and I said on the 26th! She just said, Oh! I'm glad it isn't one of my medicines that I really need! Geesh! So, I'm pulling for today that it should be filled! :o)
Soooo, I wasn't able to take a nap. Thats fine. I told Jim last night that I feel depressed and I need to do something about it now before it could get any worse. He said that he was proud of me for noticing it and wanting to do something about it. Me too! I was going to call today. Instead I called my primary care doctor to get in because of my sinus infection. You are NOT going to believe this one!!! Guess what....He's GONE!! Yeppers, the nurse told me that he left!!! I asked when and why but she wouldn't tell me! Amazing!! LOL You see what I have to deal with! That was pretty bad of him being a doctor to NOT send out a letter first! But, she did get me in for today at 11:00 to see a nurse practitioner, what ever that is! So, at least I can see somebody. :o) And....at least I won't have to deal with him anymore too. YAY!
When I woke up this morning, my left arm is still numb, but a bit worse. It has now gone past my elbow and my shoulder. It;s all the up to my neck and almost down to my fingers! In fact, I can only feel a few of them. Is this MS? It just feels like I have something heavy, hanging off the left side of my body! No kidding! I'll ask the new person I'm to see today.
I'm going to go now to get ready. :o)
I hope you all have a great day!
The principal use of Grandma's apron was to protect the dress underneath, but along with that, it served as a potholder for removing hot pans from the oven.
It was wonderful for drying children's tears, and on occasion was even
used for cleaning out dirty ears.
From the chicken coop, the apron was used for carrying eggs, fussy chicks, and sometimes half-hatched eggs to be finished in the warming oven.
When company came, those aprons were ideal hiding places for shy kids.
And when the weather was cold, grandma wrapped it around her arms.
Those big old aprons wiped many a perspiring brow, bent over the hot wood stove.
Chips and kindling wood were brought into the kitchen in that apron.
From the garden, it carried all sorts of vegetables. After the peas had
been shelled, it carried out the hulls.
In the fall, the apron was used to bring in apples that had fallen from
When unexpected company drove up the road, it was surprising how much furniture that old apron could dust in a matter of seconds.
When dinner was ready, Grandma walked out onto the porch, waved her apron, and the men knew it was time to come in from the fields to dinner.
It will be a long time before someone invents something that will replace that "old-time apron" that served so many purposes.
I just love this Christmas card! It's of Madia sitting outside and looking in the window at us! lol She always does this....she'll want out and then go right over to the window and watch us in the kitchen. lol Like she's this poor little doggie thats lost! lol :o) This is just too cute! Thank you! I love all of them! :o) They cheer me up when I look at them! :o)
There was no way that I could drive down to the hospital yesterday. Not even my son could have taken me. I was and still am, sick. I haven't felt this bad in at least a few weeks! lol :o)~ Honestly, I know I wouldn't be able to make it at all. I had and still do, diahhrea (sp)! Yikes! Ummm....not very fun at all! I am hot and cold and my ears keep popping and I didn't even know they were even plugged up! When I blow my nose, it's still green and yellow, so I know I still have some kind of an infection somewhere. I think it's my sinus's. <uuugghhh> No fun.
My physical therapist came this morning and I told her that I was sick and couldn't go through the deep tissue massage. I forgot and had my window open all the way from yesterday and I also had my fan on high! She shut the window and I was actaully comfortable and didn't know why she did that. Since I was awake now, I went ahead and got up. It was 27 degrees out!!!! No wonder she shut it! Wow! To me, it didn't feel that cold at all! I have a feeling thats going to effect my body somehow now. Geesh! I felt fine, so I didn't shut it. That just goes with the numbing effect that I have with the MS! Not good! My left arm is half numb once again. I had one nice day with out the numbness! :o) It felt good and boy was I grateful for that! It's so weird to feel that half of my upper arm in the back is the only place thats numb! From my shoulder down to my elbow.
My son only did the back deck yesterday with the lights. He's not feeling well either and the cold weather got to him. I don't blame him. Since I was and still am, so dizzy yesterday, I had him take a walkie talkie and thats what we used. I feel safer that way.
I really do think I still have that infection because I'm dizzy like I was before.....having to just hold on to something so I don't fall over. I'm not nearly as shaky as I was yesterday which is great! :o)
My daughter called me yesterday to see if I could come over to visit. Oh man! If you only knew how hard it is to tell her that I couldn't. It was a struggle just to be able to see my car parked in the drive way because of being so dizzy, so I knew there would be no way I could drive. Plus I still need to get to the hospital for that stupid blood test! I agree with all of you....they had to have lost my last one and thats why the want me to come back in for another one! This wouldn't be the first time either! I've even had x-rays come up missing! Like I said, this hospital is for the birds! Thats why I hate going to the ER....they don't know what they're doing at all. I've even went to the hospitals manager, or what ever you call him, the highest you can go, and complained before! Sounds like I'll have to do it again.
Last night....dh has been helping me with my medicines. Guess what? I was shorted 3 pills! He's the one that noticed it! All I do is just grab them, toss them in my mouth and swollow all of them....so I wouldn't have really known. He also noticed that all of the next days pills weren't right either! Good grief! So, I got the ones I was missing out of their own bottles! Yes, I have the medicine reminder and my pills sitting right here in front of me behind my keyboard! Make any sense? Not to me! Especailly if I have a key to get in the reminder machine! I know, I don't get it.
I got my little refridgirator (sp) yesterday...yay! Glad my son was here, he carried it in for me and put it where I wanted it. I ordered it from finger Hut so I have to only pay monthly on it. Now all I need is a microwave! lol Then it would like I lived in my own little apartment! :o)
My nurse comes today, and so did my Home Health Aide, but I cancelled her because of how I'm feeling. But I didn't my nurse. I want to make sure that my pills are right! And I know everyone of them just by looking at them!
I do want to thank all of you for being you! And for your support as well! Thank you! I'm gratefull for having you as friends! :o)
I also have something I'd like to share as well. :o)
Just for the fun of it
Children do it, animals in the wild do it, and you can benefit greatly from it too. One of the best ways to learn and to grow, to improve, and to gain useful, practical experience, is to play.Playing is not merely for those who are young or irresponsible. Playing is for anyone who seeks to have a fresh perspective on life.Begin to play, and you become free of prior limitations. When there is no goal or specific focus to the effort, there is no telling what wondrous and valuable things you will discover. When you're playing and there are no serious consequences on the line, you're free to experiment with lots of different approaches. Spend some time in which the outcome doesn't matter, and the outcome will be that you gain valuable new insight.You perform at your best when you're doing something you enjoy. Increase your play, and you can significantly improve your work.Remember always to set aside some time, energy and resources for play. Explore and experience life just for the fun of it, and enjoy the serious benefits that come from being playful.
-- Ralph Marston
Hello. Last night, I did get to bed earlier then I have been. That was good. But then I was up all night sick. Thats alright, at least I was able to be in bed early.
I woke up being really dizzy once again. I'm having to hold on to the desk. I still think I have that sinus infection. I'm real shaky as well, more than usual for me. So, if you come across any words that may look a bit goofy.....just know I'm typing on a keyboard that keys stick, and I'm really shaky as well. But, most of you already know I can't spell anyways.
I finally got a call from someone at the hospital, not my stupid doctors office, letting me know that I can come in the hospital at any time to get 'another' blood test. She told me that I don't have hepititis nor am I pregnant. I already know I'm not preganant, I've had all of what helps make you pregnant removed years ago. She told me that the last time I was there, (which was October 26) that the blood test I got then hadn't all come back yet. Well how long does it take then? Good grief. So, I have to go back and get another one. I know it's really going to hurt, because my arm isn't all the way better. Both of them. I was going to do it today but, the way I'm feeling, I can't. I'm just staying right here. When I'm like this, I fall. My son is here, thankfully and I told him how I was feeling and to please stay close so he can hear me if I need him. He says that he's going to put up the Christmas lights up today, which he'll just be right there so I could just knock on my window to get him. He said he was also going to put up lights on the back deck. I do have a set of walkie talkies, so I'll have him take one when he goes out back.
Dh and I watched the finale of Dancing with the Stars last night. Wow. It got down to where I really didn't know who would win. I had my favorites, but then they competing against each other. Mel B really was a very good dancer and she learned so much and she danced so beautifully. Heilio was my very favorite. I just wanted to tweek his cheecks. So, I'm glad that they won. This was the first season that I've watched that show, and I really liked it. I'll end up watching again next year.
Ok....I really do need to get off of here. Man...I really hate this dizziness stuff. So now I'm fighting agaisnt it as well. gggrrr! It will soon pass. Crossing my fingers, toes and eyes. I do hope that all of you have a wonderful day ahead! God bless all of you!
I'm still awake again. This is for the birds. I'm trying to make myself tired.
I had a great day today. My daughter nad my grandson came over to help decorate the Christmas tree. Thats always been a tradition, The tree gets put up and it will sit there until my kids are here to put the orniments on. I used to do the lights, but thats something way too hard for me to do anymore. Getting the things out of the boxes is bad enough on me. And Madia (my dog) did need to go out to potty. I thought so. She will sit there to let us know that...or that she wants to go out front by herself. I don't do that until Jim is home. He does it for her. I don't know what I'd do if anything happened to her.
I was able to get things off my mind earlier. <Huge sigh> Boy do I feel better.
My Home Health Aide came today. So she was here when the kids were decorating. I have my cell phone in my bedroom being charged and I got a call. My ring tone is Ozzy Osbourne's Crazy Train. So when it went off, she ran in there because she thought someone was in there and something was wrong. I was following her to answer it because I knew what it was. I was finally able to tell her what it was. I have that ring tone because I love Ozzy and it's loud so I can hear it. She asked me what the "noise" was that was coming through my phone, and I told her that it was just Ozzy signing Crazy Train. She's 2 years older then I am and she didn't know who he was. I told her that she was the first person I've ever met that didn't know who he was. Wow. She says she's always listened to country music. When I told her what I listen to and the kind of music my son plays in his band, and she just looked at me and shivered. So, now I know not to have any of mine or my sons music playing while she's here. I don't want her to freak out on me. We don't listen to satanic music or anything close to that, it's just hard rock and alternative rock.
I was writing back and forth to my daughter tonight, and I told her that I'm depressed. She said that she kind of thought I was, by the way I am during the day. I have all blinds closed, all curtains shut and my curtains that seperate this room to the living room. It makes it nice and dark at this end of the house. I like it that way. My eyes have gotten worse and I can see in the dark anyways. My eyes still don't dialate properly either. They are still big, and when the light comes through, it feels like acid is being thrown in my eyes. So I stay clear of it until Jim gets home. He has to have every light on in the house. I'm the opposite. I think it's so much more relaxing this way, and he thinks it's more depressing for him my way. And if I'm on the computer during the day, all the light thats on is from the monitor. I know, I'm weird. I admit to it.
And I was once a sun worshiper as well. I'd get up in the morning, put my bikini on, grab my blanket and go finish sleeping in the sun. I used to be dark all the time. You see how dark complected Jim is, I was always that color or darker then him. Plus, it does seem that since all of my illnesses, it actually took all of my color to my skin. I know that may sound weird too but, I'm Hungarian and Native American. Dark skinned. Odd.
I'm done rambling on. I asked my daughter if she is coming over tomorrow and she doesn't know yet. It's just been awhile since we've spent time together. I miss her. Yes, I love her new hair cut too. It's so cute on her. Mine had a chop job done on it. This is why I don't like anyone else doing my hair. The next time, I'm doing it my self. I complained about it and the other lady tried to fix it but couldn't because it was chopped that bad. It looks like I have dog ears. Yes...it is funny looking. Oh well.
I dreamt that I went to Heaven and an angel was
Here, all petitions to God said in prayer are received."
He seemed embarrassed "How is it that?
There's no work going on here?" I asked.
We watched our grandson tonight. I missed him so so much. I love that boy with all my heart. My daughter and her husband went to see a movie.
Dh and Kayden were on the floor playing cars. That was cute to watch. He also drew a picture for pawpaw too.
Then we went in my bedroom. I have another t.v. in there as well. It's an older one that I've had for years. Dh put an antenia on it and I can get 2 channels. They're the ones I watch anyways. But, we sat there watching t.v. together. Then he layed back on his pillow and wanted me to do the same. So cute. We watched Extreme Make-Over. He would clap for the people on t.v. It was so nice to get to spend such quality time with him like that. Dh agrees.
When they brought him here, he hadn't had anything for dinner yet. So I fixed him some chicken sticks and applesauce. Dh and I sat at the dinner table with him. He didn't eat a thing. That upsets me when I know he's hungry and doesn't eat. He did eat some of my chicken though, which made me feel better. He was thirsty alright. He downed to cups of juice. Wow.
I have a few things on my mind that still upsets me. Maybe someday I'll be able to talk about them. I know I really need to because it's a huge stresser on me. I took a nap as well earlier. My daughter and my grandson woke me up. Thats something so nice to wake up to.
I know I was having a nightmare when I was woken up. I can't remember what it was about because I didn't wright it down. The above graphic kind of reminds me of how I've been fighting myself, if that makes sense. It's hard to fight your own mind and body. There are times that I wish either I can exchange for a new body, or find Jack Kavorkian. I can actually feel my brain not wanting to work. And of course my body. And then the fight to keep them together and in tune with one another is the tricky part.
I turned off my medicine reminder tonight. I've been sleeping so much lately and since dh will be going back to work, I won't be able to hear it go off. If it goes off for 20 minutes, they call the paramedics to the house. I don't want that to happen. When I turned it off, the other machine went off. Someone came on and asked me if I knew that it was off. I told them yes and what has been going on. She was very nice about it and understood. I'm glad that they are so fast.
I've been having accidents more often lately as well. My bowls and my blader. Not fun. So, dealing with that now. Oh yay.
I think it's cute when my grandson see's that mawmaw uses diapers too. His reaction is adorable.
I'm up late because of the things on my mind. After I get done writing this, I'll go play some games on Pogo.
When I walked into the living room tonight, the Christmas tree was put up. That was so nice of them to do that for me. They know how I am. I also have a white dear that has lights on it and moves its head. Dh put that up too. Amazing. Since we have a grandson and another on the way, he's really into Christmas now. I love that, because I'm always into Christmas and decorating the house. My son said he's going to put the lights out on the front porch and the back deck tomorrow for me too. Wow. I will of course take pictures.
I can't wait to be able to go shopping. This year is going to be the worst year yet with money. Dh still hasn't got the money back (something personal) that he paid out. That was suppose to be our money to Christmas shop with. Bummer big time. All we were going to shop for was just Kayden. But, now the fun of that is gone.
Please sign my guest book.
It doesn't take that long.
Also, since I didn't get any emails, no one wants me to send a Christams card?
Well, I'm gone for now.
INFORMATION YOU NEED TO HELP YOU CHOOSE YOUR NEXT HEALTH PLAN ..
Q. What does HMO stand for?
A. This is actually a variation of the phrase, "HEY MOE."
Its roots go back to a concept pioneered by Moe of the Three
Stooges,who discovered that a patient could be made to forget
about the pain in his foot if he was poked hard enough in the eyes.
Q. I just joined an HMO. How difficult will it be to choose the doctor
A. Just slightly more difficult than choosing your parents. Your
insurer will provide you with a book listing all the
doctors in the plan. These doctors basically fall into two
categories -- those who are no longer accepting new
patients, and those who will see you but are no longer
participating in the plan. But don't worry; the remaining
doctor who is still in the plan and accepting new patients has an
office just a half-day's drive away and has a
diploma from a Third World Country.
Q. Do all diagnostic procedures require pre-certification?
A. No. Only those you need.
Q. Can I get coverage for my preexisting conditions?
A Certainly, as long as they don't require any treatment.
Q. What happens if I want to try alternative forms of medicine?
A. You'll need to find alternative forms of payment.
Q. My pharmacy plan only covers generic drugs, but I need the name
brand. I tried the Generic Medication, but it gave me a stomachache. What
should I do?
A. Poke yourself in the eye.
Q. What if I'm away from home and I get sick?
A. You really shouldn't do that.
Q. I think I need to see a specialist, but my doctor insists he can
handle my problem. Can a general practitioner really perform a
heart transplant right in his office?
A. Hard to say, but considering that all you're risking is the $15
co-payment, there's no harm in giving him a shot at it.
I haven't written for a few days. I would like to log this. Thats the reason for me writing what I am going to write here.
****Again, if you don't like what you're reading, then stop! I am not trying to offend anyone as well. This IS my life and what I go through.**** I do hope that this is clearly understood.
I haven't written because I get tired of writting about the same thing. And I can only realize what it's like to keep reading the samething over and over. But you know something, it's what I go through and it's my actuall life. I hate it! I truly do. A lot more then you will ever know. I do my best at keeping my spirits up and in a good mood and to see the good in certain things. Sometimes you just can't. I still push myself. But I haven't gotten anywhere lately with doing that. The mind over matter isn't working anymore either. Believe me, I keep doing these things to help myself. Yes, I'm a fighter. But for a while now, it hasn't been working for me. I don't know why. I feel like I'm stuck in some kind of a gray area. I admit that I've been kind of depressed for a few months now. I honetly think it's because of so many things have happened to me in those months. Then it has really hit me very hard. But I am thankful that I know what I do. Just as you get tired of reading about all of my stupid health problems, I'm also tired of writing about them. Because I'm living it! I do my best to get out there what it's like to go through what I am going through, hoping to help others. Plus to log certain things as well. I haven't felt like this in years. Being depressed really sucks! After stepping back and looking back at a few things...thats when I noticed it and how I need to get it out there and to admit to this. If I don't, how will I be helped? I'm hoping that I still have the support from all of you here in J-Land. If you only truly knew what it means to me to get your comments and your advise. Because I do use all of your advise. Mine isn't working, so I have to try something else.
I'm also sorry that I can't get to all of your journals. I'm having a hard enough time with my own life outside of J-Land. But please know that not a day goes by that of course I think about you all! :o) My readers mean so much to me.
I'm in this funk that I just can't get out of. So many things have seemed to just rush into my mind and haven't left. I think it's hard to try and except that you have certain illnesses. The MS is the one that is taking it's toll on my body and also my mind. It's a mind f*ck! You never know when you wake up if you can still do the samethings that you could do the day before. Mostly the answer is ,"No, you can't" My body has failed me. But the weirdest thing is that I still feel in my mind and in my soul, the same as I did years ago before all was taken from me. That may sound werd, but it's true. It's so much (to me) a lot like being anorexic! I still am battleing that as well, but when I look at my self in the mirror, I see myself as I did when I wasn't this heavy. So, what I'm now seeing in the mirror is the real me now. So, I still count colories and don't eat. This for me, as I see it is going to be a life long problem I'll be going through, even though it's not food that has made me gain weight, the medicine has. But, it's still right there. When I look at myself in the mirror and can actually see all the things that are either hurting me, like a bad muslce lump or to notice what I've lost, certain abilities. That really sucks! I avoid mirrors at times, why would I want to see me (the outside of me) the way I am now? I don't.
My identity was taken from me when my stupid dentist did his number on me. To go in to the dentist to get 2 teeth pulled and end up walking out of there with no upper teeth! Plus, the ass didn't even make my teeth the right size! Thats why when I smile, you can hardly or even don't see my upper teeth! They are more then half the size of my real teeth! He won't fix them for me, so I have to wait until my insurance can help getting me new ones and I will not go back to him! Duh! I don't want anyone to think that I'm being superficial in any way. No. Thats NOT me at all. These are things that also effect me on the inside as well. Since my teeth aren't the right size, I can't eat properly anymore which makes me constipated.
So, I'm just writting about my life and what my life is like day in and day out. Just like having those stupid blood clots, I'm like, "Where in the hell did they come from!" If you only knew about all of the things similar to that, that I either wake up with or it just shows up! I've been told so many times in my life, that God won't give you more then you can handle! I'm thinking that I'm at my limit now! I've even tied a knot at the end of my rope! So far so good with that one. I'm just depressed. And all I end up writing is depressed things! I'm sorry about that. I hope all of you can hang in there with me. Yes, I will find a way to get help with the depression now. Geesh! It truly would be nice to have one day. One day of just nothing! I probably wouldn't know how to act. No, this isn't something new, I've been trying to fight it for awhile now. ggrr! If you've gotten this far in reading this...thank you!
I forgot something; if you would like a Christmas card, just email me you name and address. I still have a lot of them from last year, but not sure if you have moved or not. :o)
Thank you for standing by me through the so many things I write about.
If my body were a car, this is the time I would be thinking about trading it in for a newer model. I've got bumps and dents and scratches in my finish and my paint job is getting a little dull ... but that's not the worst of it. My headlights are out of focus and it's especially hard to see things up close.
My traction is not as graceful as it once was. I slip and slide and skid and bump into things even in the best of weather. My whitewalls are stained with varicose veins.
It takes me hours to reach my maximum speed. My fuel rate burns inefficiently.
But here's the worst of it --
Almost every time I sneeze, cough or sputter.....either my radiator leaks or my exhaust backfires!
I tried to take a few videos, but I was shaky and my finger kept slipping off the button. But I was able to get 2 very short ones.
That is my mom and my younger sister.
The things that I actually made myself were the candied yams and the dressing. The rest I had help with. Even with making the devield eggs. Not much was made this year because I so didn't feel up to it. I do have the pictures though, to share.
It was my moms first time seeing my legs. My arm is getting better by the way it looks, but does still hurt. I haven't look today to see if I have any more new ones. I guess it's because I just don't want to know! I'm tired. I've had enough now. I went to bed last night at 9:30 and woke up around 10:00! I don't understand why I've been sleeping so much lately. I like it! :o) But I know it's not normal.
I hope you've enjoyed wacthing and looking at my pictures and videos. :o) No one else came. My kids were not here! :o( That hurts. I hope you and your family had a great day yesterday!
I hope that everyone will have a great Thanksgiving today!
Sorry, I know it's Thanksgiving, but I really still need to just talk through a few things and log.
Yesterday, I woke up with another blood clot on my left leg and also one on my right leg now, above the knee. My physical therapist came in the morning and I showed her the new ones. So, both legs look weird to me and they do hurt. She wouldn't rub my legs....and I'm very thankful for that one! She did tell me that by rubbing or messing with them, it will make them move up. I already know that. My right arm is doing better. She called my nurse to see if she could come over yesterday to draw some blood to see if my blood was too thin. I had asked my therapist wich is a nurse as well, if going to the ER and if they would help me. She said that she highly doubts it, because I just have the brusises! <shaking my head>
A few hours later, my nurse came. She got all of my vitals and did my medicine machine for the week. Then she called my primary care doctor ( the one I hate) to get the go ahead to draw blood. She was on the phone with the nurse and wasn't happy at all of the way that office was run! Since the last time I was at the ER, which was October 26th, my nurse asked if she could have the results from them. The nurse told her that they didn't have any of my papers that are from the ER each time I went!!! What?! My nurse was livid! She told her to fax a letter to have them faxed to the office! The nurse told my nurse that she can't do that! My nurse told her that YES YOU CAN!!! Then that same nurse started to argue with her! My nurse was telling her how that office was not at all ran right and that they really need to change things! I was glad to hear her stand up for me! Plus...now she knows what I go through every time I call my doctor! We were sitting next to each other and I could hear the other nurse! How rude she was too! My nurse didn't back down, she explained what was wrong with me and that I needed medical help now! The other nurse told her that she would call he back as soon as she gets the results from the hospital. I told my nurse not to hold her breath because this is what I go throu everytime I call them or go there!
Since I didn't get a phone call back from my nurse, I see that the office's nurse never called my nurse back! So, it looks like I have to wait over this long weekend once again to see if I can get help! I'm so very tired of all of this.
Each and eveery bruise that I have on my legs look the exact same. They even start out the same way! I don't know how fast a blood clot moves, I just hope that I can get some kind of help. No, I don't give up with my fight with all of my other illnesses....but this one I just feel like throwing in the towel! They hurt, the heat isn't working and I'm just down right tired of it all! If she (my nurse) doesn't get a call back, then thats it for me! This stress is way too much for me! Which isn't helping me either. The newer clots that are on my left leg are also above my knee. Like the new one on my right leg. I've just had it. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm going to have to get some kind of strength all the way from my toes to try and deal with this. And I'm finding it very hard to do. I just don't have much more.
Last night and this morning, my son and his girlfriend and dh really helped me with cooking for today. I'm very thankful for that. I don't know how I could have done it without them.
I need to get off of here so I can get cleaned up. I slept in until an hour ago! Thats good! I slept most of the day yesterday too. I'm really tired. Well..........
Have a Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
P.S. Please sign my guest book, thank you.
In 1621, the Plymouth colonists and Wampanoag Indians shared an autumn harvest feast which is acknowledged today as one of the first Thanksgiving celebrations in the colonies. This harvest meal has become a symbol of cooperation and interaction between English colonists and Native Americans. Although this feast is considered by many to the very first Thanksgiving celebration, it was actually in keeping with a long tradition of celebrating the harvest and giving thanks for a successful bounty of crops. Native American groups throughout the Americas, including the Pueblo, Cherokee, Creek and many others organized harvest festivals, ceremonial dances, and other celebrations of thanks for centuries before the arrival of Europeans in North America.
Historians have also recorded other ceremonies of thanks among European settlers in North America, including British colonists in Berkeley Plantation, Virginia. At this site near the Charles River in December of 1619, a group of British settlers led by Captain John Woodlief knelt in prayer and pledged "Thanksgiving" to God for their healthy arrival after a long voyage across the Atlantic. This event has been acknowledged by some scholars and writers as the official first Thanksgiving among European settlers on record. Whether at Plymouth, Berkeley Plantation, or throughout the Americas, celebrations of thanks have held great meaning and importance over time. The legacy of thanks, and particularly of the feast, have survived the centuries as people throughout the United States gather family, friends, and enormous amounts of food for their yearly Thanksgiving meal.
What Was Actually on the Menu?
What foods topped the table at the first harvest feast? Historians aren't completely certain about the full bounty, but it's safe to say the pilgrims weren't gobbling up pumpkin pie or playing with their mashed potatoes. Following is a list of the foods that were available to the colonists at the time of the 1621 feast. However, the only two items that historians know for sure were on the menu are venison and wild fowl, which are mentioned in primary sources. The most detailed description of the "First Thanksgiving" comes from Edward Winslow from A Journal of the Pilgrims at Plymouth, in 1621:
"Our harvest being gotten in, our governor sent four men on fowling, that so we might after a special manner rejoice together after we had gathered the fruit of our labors. They four in one day killed as much fowl as, with a little help beside, served the company almost a week. At which time, among other recreations, we exercised our arms, many of the Indians coming amongst us, and among the rest their greatest king Massasoit, with some ninety men, whom for three days we entertained and feasted, and they went out and killed five deer, which they brought to the plantation and bestowed upon our governor, and upon the captain, and others. And although it be not always so plentiful as it was at this time with us, yet by the goodness of God, we are so far from want that we often wish you partakersof our plenty.
Seventeenth Century Table Manners:
The pilgrims didn't use forks; they ate with spoons, knives, and their fingers. They wiped their hands on large cloth napkins which they also used to pick up hot morsels of food. Salt would have been on the table at the harvest feast, and people would have sprinkled it on their food. Pepper, however, was something that they used for cooking but wasn't available on the table.
In the seventeenth century, a person's social standing determined what he or she ate. The best food was placed next to the most important people. People didn't tend to sample everything that was on the table (as we do today), they just ate what was closest to them.
Serving in the seventeenth century was very different from serving today. People weren't served their meals individually. Foods were served onto the table and then people took the food from the table and ate it. All the servers had to do was move the food from the place where it was cooked onto the table.
Pilgrims didn't eat in courses as we do today. All of the different types of foods were placed on the table at the same time and people ate in any order they chose. Sometimes there were two courses, but each of them would contain both meat dishes, puddings, and sweets.
More Meat, Less Vegetables
Our modern Thanksgiving repast is centered around the turkey, but that certainly wasn't the case at the pilgrims's feasts. Their meals included many different meats. Vegetable dishes, one of the main components of our modern celebration, didn't really play a large part in the feast mentality of the seventeenth century. Depending on the time of year, many vegetables weren't available to the colonists.
The pilgrims probably didn't have pies or anything sweet at the harvest feast. They had brought some sugar with them on the Mayflower but by the time of the feast, the supply had dwindled. Also, they didn't have an oven so pies and cakes and breads were not possible at all. The food that was eaten at the harvest feast would have seemed fatty by 1990's standards, but it was probably more healthy for the pilgrims than it would be for people today. The colonists were more active and needed more protein. Heart attack was the least of their worries. They were more concerned about the plague and pox.
Surprisingly Spicy Cooking
People tend to think of English food at bland, but, in fact, the pilgrims used many spices, including cinnamon, ginger, nutmeg, pepper, and dried fruit, in sauces for meats. In the seventeenth century, cooks did not use proportions or talk about teaspoons and tablespoons. Instead, they just improvised. The best way to cook things in the seventeenth century was to roast them. Among the pilgrims, someone was assigned to sit for hours at a time and turn the spit to make sure the meat was evenly done.
Since the pilgrims and Wampanoag Indians had no refrigeration in the seventeenth century, they tended to dry a lot of their foods to preserve them. They dried Indian corn, hams, fish, and herbs.
Dinner for Breakfast: Pilgrim Meals:
The biggest meal of the day for the colonists was eaten at noon and it was called noonmeat or dinner. The housewives would spend part of their morning cooking that meal. Supper was a smaller meal that they had at the end of the day. Breakfast tended to be leftovers from the previous day's noonmeat.
In a pilgrim household, the adults sat down to eat and the children and servants waited on them. The foods that the colonists and Wampanoag Indians ate were very similar, but their eating patterns were different. While the colonists had set eating patterns--breakfast, dinner, and supper--the Wampanoags tended to eat when they were hungry and to have pots cooking throughout the day.
Source: Kathleen Curtin, Food Historian at Plimoth Plantation.