Sunday, August 31, 2008

A video from last night/and if I can remember what I wanted to say....

Good afternoon. I hope that everyone are feeling good today. :o)

The above video is from last night. I woke up once again with my light on and my tv.
So, I got my camera and started the video. The time was about 12:30 am.
The light being turned on is something that has always happened. The rest is new to me. [ in this house]
I hope I was able to get on the camera so you can see it. I'm also going to try and get a few more videos from when I was recording my sleep.
I really hate to say this [I'm still sick] becuase I know that everyone is probably tired of hearing about it. I really don't care, because I'm still going to write about it anyways.
My doctor gave me a Z-Pack instead of more antibiotics. My daughter had one a few months back and she was feeling better that very day. The stuff that went down into my bronciols (SP) is still there. I can feel the deepness, and now my back is hurting me like my lungs are hurting me. I hope that came out right.
And I guess I couldn't remember what I wanted to.


Chicken Sandwiches

A little boy and a little girl attended the same school and became friends.

Every day they would sit together to eat their lunch.They discovered that they both brought chicken sandwiches every day!This went on all through the fourth and fifth grades, until one day he noticed that her sandwich wasn't a chicken sandwich.

He said, "Hey, how come you're not eating chicken, don't you like it anymore?"

She said "I love it but I have to stop eating it.""Why?" he asked. She pointed to her lap and said "Cause I'm starting to grow little feathers down there!"

"Let me see" he said. "Okay" and she pulled up her skirt. He looked and said, "That's right. You are! Better not eat any more chicken."

He kept eating his chicken sandwiches until one day he brought peanut butter.

He said to the little girl, "I have to stop eating chicken sandwiches,I'm starting to get feathers down there too!"

She asked if she could look, so he pulled down his pants for her.

She said, "Oh, my God, it's too late for you! You've already got the neck and the gizzards."


Friday, August 29, 2008


Wow! I got 57 ecards! Thank you so much! And....thank you for signing my guest book as well.

This entry is going to be like half and half. If that makes any sence?

Yesterday was so much fun! I would get worn out alot, but I'd rest then I could get back up.
I was going to take a nap, but I just didn't have the time to. I was wooped! :o)
I got a big cookie, which was really good, a hudge bag of bath and body works! Love that place! And a new digital camera. I was going to sleep in, but around 6:30-7:00 my phone rang. My sister wanted to be the first to wish me a Happy Birthday! Well, that blew sleeping in out! lol That was sweet of her. :o)

My grandson put 26 candles on my cake! LOL In the pictures it looks like to me that the cake was on fire! lol and then he helped me blow them out. :o) I have him help me every year now. :o) My grandsons really make me laugh! They're not doing it on purpise, but I think thats the best way, to just be yourself and natual. My son was able to come. So, I had my family, and that makes me happy. :o)

Now the other part. I'm really getting worse real quick. It doesn't seem to be doing like it used to. Yes, I've told my doctor. She gave me a script for my nerves and just plain old anxitiy. Because at times, I start to shake just from nothing. I don't understand this one but, if there is a change in the house, it's just like I'm up 30 stories high, on the ledge! I have like a panic attack imdeiatly. I just have to stand there untill my breathing gets better.
At any time I can fall asleep. I know thats narcolepsy, but only 'like' it. My doctors know this to. I 'll get this sluggish blury feeling and it's almost like being in a fuge state. Now, I've had that happen. I guess one day I was doing the laundry and the kids were home. My brother in law had come over and we talked for awhile and I sat down on my chaise for a few and thats when I "woke" up. That was a freaky thing, and I was scared. I asked the kids what I had done. Because I have I think it was 2 hours unicountable. My neuro then told me that I have those and he couldn't do anything about it! That was the neuro I don't like. What happens is I've worn out the system running in my brain, and like a generator kicks in until I'm better! Amazing!

Well, with whats been going on with me, I remembered the fuge state.
To be honest, I'm not doing so good anymore. I'm going to do my best to just live each day, and to make sure I laugh. And I deffinitly don't need those baby play games either. (the ones played here in J-Land using your journal to get somone else)

I just love this graphic! Thank you Sugar.
Thank you guys for everything yesterday. :o) I gotta go now! God bless you.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

I totally feel like its about time.

A big <sigh> . This flu/cold has me down! Picture it like the right tranqulizer to get an elephant down! :)
And once again, I was back and forth with CVS and my doctor. gggrr! And I still don't have my medicine. From not feeling good, I happened to over sleep. That means I slept through my morning meds. As always, I had the regular 2 messages. And I call them back. They said that they would call to get a nurse over here right away. I didn't know why it had to be rushed but, thays their job.
She showed me what to do if that happens again.
My son came over to use the computer to help find and apply for work. I feel so bad for him, becase if I had any money at all, I would give it to him. And I'm an "eye" person,and when you look in his eyes, you can see so much sadness. God bless him. He and I were walking in the hallway. I had my walker and he was beside me. My thighs really rub together, and from my right thigh, I felt a mucle just form like what you can imagine a tornado forming and coming down.
I was down. He helped me back to bed. Oh, I have a picture fot you to see, LOL
Well. I see that aol is up to somethings
Going back so I can eat water and crackers. Oh Joy. Soooo, that means I go.
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Have A great day and God Bless all of you who.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008


A distraught senior citizen
phoned her doctor's office.
'Is it true,' she wanted to know,
'that the medication
you prescribed has to be taken
for the rest of my life?'

'Yes, I'm afraid so,' the doctor told her.

There was a moment of silence
before the senior lady replied,
'I'm wondering, then,
just how serious is my condition
because this prescription is marked


Good afternoon. Hoping everyone is doing alright.

I still have this flu/cold. Not cool.I wish that for one day when I post an entry, it won't have anything to do with my health being bad.
Believe me...I know its redundant. So here we go again.
Ok...this is good news for me; Nena brought the kids over last night. :o) We were texting and she said after she got both boy's bath and nails clipped, she wanted to come over. Too bad it wasn't to spend the night. :o) I'll talk her into it one of these days. :o) Both boys were in great moods....yes, very onry! lol I like it that way!
Kayden had a doctors appointment. To see why he isn't talking like he should be. The last time she took him to this other doctor, he sent him to a place where they were teaching him [class] sign language! I had a major cow! I told Nena if she didn't take him out of that class, I would! That isn't progression! This one will actually teach him how to talk. I was having him roll his tongue all around to help excersize it. I knew someone that has a daughter that had to do the samething with her tonugue. She would do it in front of a mirror. I've been doing that with him.
My right hand has enlarged veins on the top and now they are doing the samething thing down to my palm. I didn't hit it and theres no marks at all on it. It feels weird.
I had my last of my chicken soup yesterday. Sounds good for today as well. today is my sisters birthday! :o) I can't remeber how old she is. 36 I think. :o) Then mine is on the 28, and are grandma's was on the 29! Amazinly close.
I need to get off of here.


Sunday, August 24, 2008

Good morning! :o)

I sure hope all of you are feeling great! :o)

I'm working on it....pains woke me up. I've been having such troubles with my shoulders, back/spine, my feet and legs and I'm swelling again. What a coctail! :o) I don't highly recomend it.
They are all starting to happen all at once now. Yesterday the top of my right hand was hurting. The whole top had dark blood vessels coming out. And I didn't hit it on anything because if I did you'd see where I did it. It just showed up. gggrr

I've been in my wheel chair more often. We are rearranging these 2 rooms again. I explained it to dh and it was the same way he thought as well. lol It's very rare that we agree with each other! :o) Thats good because then he can do it and I won't have to stay awake, I could take a nap. ;O) He is very good when it comes down to the house...meaning if we need an extra's there! :o) I'm glad that he knows how to do these things.
The last time I went anywhere was when my daughter and I went to Wal Mart. That really did my body in. I haven't felt the same since. I still have that cold/flu.
My temps. aren't as high...thats great...because I can't take any kind of heat. I really cramp up big time. Last night was nice and cool. And that felt great. I even turned my air conditioner off. I love nights like that.

Well, when it comes down to it, I'm really losing the use of my limbs. And just a few other things. I had another accident in bed the other night. I'm going to have to find another kind of over night diapers.
My son came to visit me on Thursday. That was a nice surprise. :o) What it was is he brought his laundry over to do! :o) But it was still a nice visit. :o) He helped me more than he did when he lived complaning. :o) My daughter had come over with the babies. They truly are a cure all medicine. :o)
I was a bit down and here they came, :o)

What has been getting me down has been losing so many abilities. Last week I had to have my Home Health Aide to wash my hair and to brush it. I asked dh if he could wash my hair for me.He's been really a big help for me. My right hip hurts like hell and the whole area is swollen. Its feeling a bit better right now. He asked me if I need him to rub out that area again. As much as it hurts, yes. He's also been rubbing my feet eveynight with lotion. I'm supose to have my whole body done 3 times a day.
Oh....I want to thank you for signing my guest book! That cheers me up. :o) Again thank you. <-----Located on my side bar.
You know, in alot of ways, it's good to have the house alone. I'm a nudest and couldn't walk around like that. This morning I could. Felt great. :o)

I forgot to get my tablet that I keep my stats on. I need to log this stuff so I can find it when I need it. I do remember that my temp was 99.9. Getting lower! :o)
Dh got home and is waiting on me. :o)
       Good times are "created" from
         Time spent together!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


Ok.....we all know that I'm pretty much scatter with the videos, I have no idea why I started to do them. And I'm serious about this...I was showing my mom my late night videos and especially that one with that black thing in it. She asked me why I was doing this, and I couldn't answer that question! And I'm still trying hard to remember.

Love her slippers! lol
Yesterday my left side only was just giving me fits. Both of my shoulders have been hurting me and now it's affecting my abilities. I was having a hard time holding in if I even picked something up, even paper, 95% of the time, I dropped it. All of this thats been going on has upset me. I've been doing the best I can, but my body isn't.

I just found this out soon as my mom gets the rest of this done, (to be my daytime care giver) I will have to be on another server. When I found that out I kind of had a little 'freak out moment." Then when my mom explained it to me, I feel alot better about the whole change.
That cold/flu that I have is still with me. Geesh! I walk around the house for exercise and I'm the only one with this! LOL Well, no, my grandson has it too! :o) Bless him! I think its because when they do come over, I hold Andrew alot. I don't know why! LOL :o) I feel bad that he has it as well. He went to the doctors and has some medicine for it.

Now isn't that the truth!
I've been on an antibiotic and cough syrup...Ick! And they are getting the crap out of my lungs. And here I haven't been feeling up to par lately and even told my nurse. She said that my lungs sounded fine...well I can't have that. So my medicines are working....yay! :o)
I'm still going to turn them in to the Better Business Bourou. (SP)
I just don't want anyone to be treated poorly like I have. I'm also young enough and a bit more 'withit' then a lot of the people they help.

I really love this graphic! So true! "But they create it." Thats what it's all about.
Anyhow, I don't have a picture of dh's new car he got on Sunday. I have one on my phone but it's a bad one. It's a 2007 Malibo and it's a pretty color red as well. And thats whats going to be his work car! :o( And my car stolls. hhmmm, you'd think he would want me in the safer car...I guess not. I am happy and grateful that we were able to get it for his new work car.


Never take someone for granted
Hold every person close to your heart
Because you might wake up one day
And realize that you've lost a diamond
While you were too busy collecting stones.

I've always liked the above. And very true as well. He had asked me what I wanted for my birthday, and I said a new laptop, and he said no. hhhmmm.My mom got me a new digital camera. It's pretty cool! :o)

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Food Spoilage Guide, A Guide For The Rest Of Us!

Finally, a way to know what to pitch and what to save!

Anything that makes you gag is spoiled (except for leftovers from what you cooked for yourself last night).

When something starts pecking its way out of the shell, the egg is probably past its prime.

Milk is spoiled when it starts to look like yogurt. Yogurt is spoiled when it starts to look like cottage cheese. Cottage cheese is spoiled when it starts to look like regular cheese. Regular cheese is nothing but spoiled milk anyway and can't get any more spoiled than it is already. Cheddar cheese is spoiled when you think it is blue cheese but you realize you've never purchased that kind.

If it makes you violently ill after you eat it, the mayonnaise is spoiled.

Frozen foods that have become an integral part of the defrosting problem in your freezer compartment will probably be spoiled - (or wrecked anyway) by the time you pry them out with a kitchen knife.

This is NOT a marketing ploy to encourage you to throw away perfectly good food so that you'll spend more on groceries. Perhaps you'd benefit by having a calender in your kitchen.

If opening the refrigerator door causes stray animals from a three-block radius to congregate outside your house, the meat is spoiled.

Sesame seeds and Poppy seeds are the only officially acceptable "spots" that should be seen on the surface of any loaf of bread. Fuzzy and hairy looking white or green growth areas are a good indication that your bread has turned into a pharmaceutical laboratory experiment.

Flour is spoiled when it wiggles.

It never spoils.

It is generally a good rule of thumb that cereal should be discarded when it is two years or longer beyond the expiration date.

Bibb lettuce is spoiled when you can't get it off the bottom of the vegetable crisper without Comet. Romaine lettuce is spoiled when it turns liquid.

Any canned goods that have become the size or shape of a softball should be disposed of. Carefully.

A carrot that you can tie a clove hitch in is not fresh.

Raisins should not be harder than your teeth.

Fresh potatoes do not have roots, branches, or dense, leafy undergrowth.

If you can take it out of its container and bounce it on the floor, it has gone bad.

Putting empty containers back into the refrigerator is an old trick, but it only works if you live with someone or have a maid.

You know it is well beyond prime when you're tempted to discard the Tupperware along with the food. Generally speaking, Tupperware containers should not burp when you open them.

Most food cannot be kept longer than the average life span of a hamster. Keep a hamster in or nearby your refrigerator to gauge this.

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Monday, August 18, 2008


After having dug to a depth of 10 feet last year, New York scientists
found traces of copper wire dating back 100 years and came to the
conclusion, that their ancestors already had a telephone network more
than 100 years ago.

Not to be outdone by the New Yorkers, in the weeks that followed, in
California an archaeologist dug to a depth of 20 feet, and shortly
after, headlines in the LA Times newspaper read: 'California
archaeologists have found traces of 200 year old copper wire and have
concluded that their ancestors already had an advanced high-tech
communications network a hundred years earlier than the New Yorkers.'

One week later, a Texas newspaper, reported the following: After
digging as deep as 30 feet in his pasture near Bastrop, Bubba
Mitchell, a self-taught archaeologist, reported that he found absolutely
nothing. Bubba has therefore concluded that 300 years ago, Texas had already
gone wireless.

Sunday, August 17, 2008


Good morning. How is J-Land doing? I do hope great.
Well, of all times I didn't tape myself sleeping, I had alot of stuff done, a mess and all over my bedroom! No, the dog couldn't get in. But what upsets me is getting out of bed! And I know I did because I had my tapes stacked on the floor, ciggerettes, no lighter, it was just a mess! Too many things went on.

Also a bit of logging as well. I have the stupid shakes again this morning. Oh, thats fun. My whole body really feels like the tin need of oil to stay running. No kidding. My doctor wants me to see another neurologist. He just across from my gp. So, now everyone in that building I see. I'm not complaining, it's so much more easier on me. Tomorrow I have to go and see a dermatologist. I have a mole on my face thats needs looked at! LOL....I just had to do that! :o)
Jim had an Aunt die last week. His best friend was able to come down and go to the funeral. They've known each other since the crib. lol true. It was real good to see him. It's been longer than 10 years since I've seen him. The Aunt was also his friends Aunt as well.

I wonder how many accualy know that I'm back? It's been months now.
Oh, thats right....I don't have a "happy" journal according to most people here. Some of the emails are cruel. I didn't know that I had someplace on my journal that says "Please be mean to me," "I'm not going to put a comment in because she doesn't comment in my journal." Why? You could do it before. I'm doing my best to keep up with who I do go to. Hey, ask someone else that has what I do and see what you get. Yea, as you know, I do write what I want to in this journal.

I mean, when my body was up to doing things that they should, then I could go to all of my friends'. I remember that it would take me until around 3:00 to finish. I know you have jobs and your families, etc...  But you did it before, so why now the excuses? It really hurts. I know I'm being selfish and a big baby about this. It just means alot to me to get feedback.

In my humble opinion, you'd feel the same as I do. The feedback does help. Plus, it's nice to know that someone took the time to respond.
  Sorry, I just had to get stuff off my mind. Even though I sounded like a baby. It does help. This is theraputic. Plus, I considered all of you my friends.
I was on my way out to the garage last evening and I got another surprise! It was my friend! She was worried and stopped by and gave me a nice bear hug! :o) Loved it! She has always been able to cheer me up and make me laugh! :o) She couldn't stay, she had to do a few things before it got late. :o) If I could get a hug like that one everyday, I just know that I'd live longer! :o) What a freind she is. :o) Why is breathing just so hard to do? It really is. I know I'm depressed right now and I'm taking things out on others and don't mean to. Then I've got to just stop! Then breathe.
Well, I should go now...I've probably pissed some people off.

Saturday, August 16, 2008


Ok, I went to the doctors and she gave me 2 medicines, ones an antibiotic and other is cough syrup. And they're kicking my butt. :)
I asked about the diabieties medicine. She said that she is still needing more tests! aaaaahahhhhh! I can't make it happen any sooner. :o)
I video taped myself again last night. I'm still not done looking at it. So, it's still a mystery.
Got to go!


Friday, August 15, 2008

I have an appointment this morning to see my gp. She said the last visit that she was going to start me on medication for diabeties. I hope she does and something for this cold. LOL I know, I know, I said that I could hold out the 7-10 days, but I guess not. :o)
Have a good one.



Thursday, August 14, 2008

A video of a black thing

This is on one of those videos that I took. I didn't go far enough on the tape. After seeing it, then you will see me still sleeping. This really freaked me out! What are your views on this video?


And, how did it know how to turn the camera off?

Marriage Rules

Typical macho man married a typical good-looking lady and after the wedding, he laid down the following rules:
"I'll be home when I want, if I want and at what time I want-and I don't expect any hassle from you. I expect a great dinner to be on the table unless I tell you that I won't be home for dinner. I'll go hunting, fishing, boozing and card-playing when I want with my old buddies and don't you give me a hard time about it. Those are my rules. Any comments?"

His new bride said, "No, that's fine with me. Just understand that there will be sex here at seven o'clock every night... whether you're here or not."

Well, I not feeling very good still. Thats to be expected.
The roller coaster that I'm on is on it's way up. I can feel it.
I'm making a list of things for my aide that she needs to do for me.
I hope today goes fast. With a cold on top of everything else makes it a very long day.
My daughter and the kids came over yesterday and so did my son. :o) I just love it when they are all here. :o)
I did one of my double flips in the hallway. I couldn't get up. My daughter came down the stairs to help get me up. I know that I'm really sore this morning. I forget what side I landed on. My legs are very weak and I wasn't in my chair.
Well...I finally did it! LOL And hey...I love them! :o) I bought myself 6 moo moo's! (SP) These are what I've needed. One piece, slip in on then take it off. So much esier! :o)
I'm going to go now. I'll have to take some pictures of them. :o)



Wednesday, August 13, 2008

~I'm doing my best.

Good afternoon. I hope that all of you are feeling and doing alright.

The last few days, I couldn't post an entry or comment. So, I was having an aol fit! :o)
I've mostly, as always, been in bed resting to keep my legs, ankles and feet down from being swollen. They all started in yesterday.  <uuugghhh>  Theres a cold/flu going around. Guess who got it.....yep, a virus can't pass me up, huh?! :o)    I did, however, watch those tapes. Talk about boring. But I feel that this was and is very important to do. The next tape I'm going to really give a good look at is the one where I have the start of a sezuir in. The doctor really needs to see that.
I'm just going to ride this cold/flu out. It takes 7-10 days no matter what you do to get rid of it.
Well, my nurse still hasn't come yet this morning. It's too quit in this house for me. Well, unless you hear the back door slam a few times. That one was going on all day yesterday. We've all heard that one when we moved in.

I would love it if my babies came. :o) Kayden wasn't up to par the last I heard. Bless him. Andrew is doing fine, just looking around and smilling at everyone! :o) He's such a happy baby. :o)
Today, I'm going to just lay around. Boy is that lazy! LOL I really do miss working big time. Oh well.

I think I should eat alittle, my stomach is blah! I've been having crackers. But my mouth is so dry, it makes it hard to eat them. :o)

I'm going to make some vegetable soup. It just sounds good to me. I hope that I can still do everything. The other night I was trying to make something, (I don't remember) And nothing worked out at all! Alot of it are my hands. I just was a cry baby as always. So dh finished it for me. I've almost lost the use of my hands. I couldn't believe how fast that was.
Dh has been rubbing my feet before he or I go to bed.He really slathers the cream on his hands and my feet are looking so good. :o) The do feel better. Like he said, he hasn't seen my feet in a long time...before all of these illnesses started on me.
  This is me during the day trying to remember things. I've noticed how much I've been struggling just to talk.
I've seen now that I can't beet this. I just have to flow with it. And that I can do.

Thank you for signing my guestbook Guido! :o) You cheered me up.
BTW.....It's on my side bar. I'm going to go now.

Are your fingers crossed?


Finally! Whew! :o)

Well, I've finally got a few 'snipits.' I would also like to get some of the noises as well. Thoes are weird. Yes, I know I look like Jabba the Hut! LOL :o)


Sunday, August 10, 2008


Hello all. I don't know if this was happening  to everyone today, but it the compuer wouldn't let me on to put an entry in. At least it's over for me.

If it's one thing or another...gggrrr! These illnesses can really knock you right on your ass!
One thing, I did wake up yesterday with a sore throught. I think I know why.
When my daughter and I went to WalMart, I had my hair up in a pony tail. It was also later in the evening as well. It never fails, I have my hair up, it's dark and a bit nippy out, and it gets me everytime. I should have known.
So, needless to say, I'm not feeling well.
Last night all I wanted to do was to just go to bed, and didn't record. This one is kind of ...I don't have a word to explain it. I sleep on the left side and I have a few things there. I remember pouring water on the bed! So, I had to change the bed. And the pains I was in just trippled. I didn't think I was going to make it. After that stint, I went back to bed. I woke up this morning laying on the right side of the bed, with the light on, and me laying there with a different tape in my camcorder! I looked as those it went to a certain place, I watched it and to me, I didn't see anything as in something that happened on my tape. I put the tape back into it's own case and put the tape that was already in it.
My bedroom is having fun with me. Well...the "others" that are here.
Like last night, I stayed awake. I'm probably going to do it tonight as well.
I'm going to tape again tonight and see if I get anything, with or without me being in there. I'm still going to show you them when I can. I have my air on in there and my oxygen tank is there and 3 fans all going. So it's kind of hard to hear. I also wish I knew how to "clean" them so you can hear better.
I was in so much pain earlier, I took some medicines and it knocked me out good! I so needed that sleep. And as you can tell, I'm up too late again.
I did take some pain pills and nothing has happened yet. They'll hit me here soon. Oh, what I wouldn't do for a shot of Demerol.Now that stuff really helps me.
I'm very worried about Madia. She sleeps alot and doesn't get up very offten like she should be doing. She hangs out with me during the day until dh comes home and then its him. I just hope I'm wrong.
My pains are getting a bit worse. This is my life...the rest of my life. And I'm only 44. Well my birthday is soon.
Have a good one! :o)



Saturday, August 9, 2008

what piece am I?

I would like nothing more to share with you, but as soon as I can fix my camera, You'll be the first ones to see.
One thing that I had on my mind today is if thats all I talk about is my pains and illnesses. I need to. I need to log.
In a way, it's like refreshing my soul. It really helps.

I'm still trying hard to figure out what is going on in my sleep. This is another different thing to go through. It's not sleep walking, it's not something that I'd be embarrassed about. I just wake up in the mornings to a thrown about room.
It's odd because I never seen it happen and to my knowledge no one comes into my bed room to do this.

The butterfly, in Native American culture, represents transformation and balance. This is a tough one for me in my life right now. I used to go out in the night and watch the animals coming from the sewers to find there food. In the morning and afternoon, go out in the sun work in my garden. I would rotate each year, veggies one time and then flowers the next. The soil was very fertile. Even the squills knew where to plant there peanuts. It was cute. To ground myself I would put my hands in the soil. It felt cool on my hands. I miss doing this. But, there is a way that I can feel the soil. It could be brought in the house for me.
I do know that I need a transformation. Butterfly, there are 4.
I tell myself that, "Oh, I just don't have the time." But I do have plenty of time. I just don't see it. I have so many projects that I've started, and need the love that I put in it.
Yesterday and the day before, I had to be in my wheelchair. The feeling of that, of "having" to do it makes you feel your life in such a different way. Things that I look at when I am standing, then when I'm in the wheelchair is so very different. I know that I feel like I need to stand up for someone/anyone to see me and hear me. Not so. It just comes to a matter of choice.
I am naturally a quit person. I'm not sure if that comes across or not. Yesterday my daughter was here with the kids.Kayden can do something...can't remember, sorry...but I tried it and couldn't do it. That upset my daughter.I told her last year when I did lose the things I could do with my fingers and hands.Its like, "Hey....I have hands, but can't use them properly." What I think it is, is she's never seen me not able to. It's like if, "Out of mind...". Then This morning I got a call from her letting me know how sorry she was that she couldn't help me more. I told her that shes got enough on her plate.
My mom is going to be my care giver. Shes past all the testing and now all she needs is number and shes in like flint! I know I'll be well taken care of. It will be about the same time that I'll have to be in my wheel chair more,and laying down and resting.
I had no idea how much I had written. If you got this far, thank you for listening to be. If not, I don't blame you! :o) I just have so much to say, but I don't know how to get it out and on the computer. I have to go......


Good afternoon. I do hope that everyone is doing/feeling great this beautiful day.

I posted the pictures that I took a few days back. I lost all of the videos and pictures. gggrrrr! I have plenty of time to get some more.
Thursday evening I felt good enough to go to wall mart. I needed to get something. I called my daughter and she said she could go with me. Whew! I drove to her house because she has a bigger car than I do to put the babies car seats in. On the way there, which isn't very far at all, I forgot what it was that I was going to Wal Mart for. I started to get upset. I just could not remember. It was a bit scary, because it could have been something I needed fast. I asked Nena if she remembered. She did and all it was was a tape holder for smaller tapes to watch them on tv instead of watching the movies in that little square! :o)
They had some and my tapes didn't fit. Nena held the container it came in and right on the front it said not for the use of_____! LOL Boy did I feel like an idiot!
I started to not feel right, and I even had a scooter to ride in. I had to get home quick. It was about 11:30 when I got home. :o) It felt so nice to get out. It had been raining here, and I wear my cowboy boots, because they are the only shoes I have to wear so I don't get all muddy. Dh was up waiting on me, so he could take them off of me. That was so sweet of him. Yep! My feet were swollen to the shape of my boots. Geesh! I thanked him and then we both went our seperate ways.
Thats another thing I bought, tapes for my camcorder. Duh! LOL I'm such and air head! lol Still trying to see What ever it was....going blank here! Oh, ok...I remember now. The activity I was having in my bed. I have 1 EVP tape and 3 Tapes with " something" eles doing things. I needed to get more tapes because "who ever" it is thats doing this stuff, I'd like to try and get a bit more information. This is very interesting.
In the last tape I did, I was having a seizure! I had to show it to Nena because I don't know what it looks like when I have them. She said that I was and to show it to my nurse. I'm going to.
I'm not "whining," but dam my whole body is killing me! I have muclse cramps everywhere, and I can barely walk. Yesterday I had to use the electric wheel chair. :o( My son and my daughter were here yesyerday. Boy do I really miss Jason. Oh well....he had to move out sometime! LOL
Well, I'm going to my room and try to relax. I was going to save my money for 4 days at the Comfort Inn Hot tub room.





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Tuesday, August 5, 2008

~Calmness In Our Lives

I am passing this on to you because it definitely works and we could
all use a little more calmness in our lives. By following simple
advice heard on the Dr. Phil show, you too can find inner peace.

Dr Phil proclaimed, "The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all
the things you have started and have never finished."

So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and
hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning, I finished
off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of Zinfandel, a bottle of Bailey's
Irish Cream, a bottle of Kahlua, a package of Oreos, the remainder of
my old Prozac prescription, the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos,
and a box of chocolates and the rest of my half-gallon of Blue Bell
Original Vanilla Bean ice-cream.

You have no idea how freaking good I feel right now!!

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Monday, August 4, 2008

~This and that

Not too much has happen since I last wrote. Well, that I'm able to write about.
Last night my pains woke me up. I was screaming and dh comes in to check on me. My hips were just killing me! I have been having a bit of time with them this past week. The night before last I did the same thing, but this time it was my shoulders. This just has to stop now! LOL :o)~

My daughter and her cute little family are fine....they went to see that new movie with Heath leadger. dh and I, (I really have a hard time with that) watvhed Kayden, and someone else watched Andrew. I'm glad they went and had fun. :o)
I am still taping me sleep so I can give it to my doctor. Well...Both of them have noices, people talking, someone waking on a wooden floor with heavy boots on. I want to figure out how I can edit them and put them on youtube. It was not at all what I expected to see or hear!  I've even had 2 things thrown at me while sitting in bed! I showed it to dh and he said that there is no way that it could have happen. This was a cup. And it came down to the same thing with the other. I don't know why all of this started in my room. Dh said that next weekend, he's moving me out of that room. I'm a person that it takes alot for me to be scared. Talking about the paranormal. Even that house we used to live in didn't scare me. I dread going to sleep in there. And I have no idea as to why.
My kids don't really beleive that it bothers me.
Last night...I prayed so many times. I know prayers will help.

I've also been sick. Blah! My daughter wanted us to go see that movie. And I had to decline. That was so hard for me to do. I can't really plan anything. That sucks.
I need to legs and feet are swelling up once again. gggrrr

Saturday, August 2, 2008

~What a week.

Good morning everyone! I'm hoping that all of you are feeling great this lovely day.

I honestly don't know where to start from where I left off. :o) Well...I do have pictures and 1 video for now. I've been so busy that I could only upload only the one. :o)

I do hope you enjoy it. :o)
There is only one sentence that I can think of that this week has been, "God must really feel that I have very strong shoulders!" I've been working on getting my legs and feet down. So that leaves me in my bedroom. I watch BB afterdark, then what ever I've recorded. I did, however, record one of my favorite movies, Wuthering Heights! The original. Love it! :o) I had so many movies that I really needed to get off the dvr. Dh, got me 3 tapes and I think I need about 3 more! lol :o)

My doctor called me last week about those blood tests. It sugar was 249. She asked me if I've ever had it that high before. Ummm, Yep! Thats my "normal" blood take. It's even been over 300. So she said that she wants to monitor me! Um, how? lol Either she'd be here, or me in the hospital. Geesh! The appointment that I had the last time with her, I took my tablet and talking to me and dh that it was very clear that I do have diabetis. And what is she looking for now. lol Maybe she should go back to my files. :o)
This week, since I've been having activity in my bed and trouble sleeping at night...I dreed going to sleep! Thats not me! lol :o) My home health aide was here the next morning. I couldn't for the life of me remember how to put a tape in or take one out of my camcorder! So I asked if she could help me. I hooked it up to the t.v., and started to watch it and I told her that she can too, because I might miss something. Well, no, I didn't miss a thing! It's more like a paranormal tape then anything!!! No kidding! Even the camera was picked up and moved. You hear heavy foot steps on a hard wood floor, alot of knocking and all kinds of noises! I was so glad that she was here when I started it! LOL As soon as I can, I need to edit (because each tape is 2 hours and the time it took for me to flip the tape) it too much time between. And here I am in the background sleeping and not knowing whats going on! I had the setting to night vision.

We also noticed that there were time missing! Someone/thing had turned the camcorder off, looking at the blue, then back to me again. It did this on the next tape. I was up and remebered to turn the tape, so I had 4 hours. Well, so I though I did. There were alot missing from that one! I did it again last night. I didn't wake up through the night, so I have no idea as to whats on it. I'll let you know. :o)

My mood being as "Rebllious..." That came from my daughter. lol She came over this week with my grandsons and I don't know what I said or did, but she texted me when she got home and said she thinks I'm a rebel and she likes that! :o) I thanked her. lol I don't know if thats good are not. Thats my baby!
Well, I'm going for now....You Have a great day! :o)