There for awhile I think I was wondering what sleep was....LOL :o) I took a few Melatonin pills, an herbal suppliment that relaxes you, and last night it finally worked! YAY! :o) I got to bed late, but I'm not complaining....I got 5 hours of sleep! :o) Cool!
My physical therapist came this morning and boy did it feel good. My calves and my lower thighs have been really hurting and my legs are all jumpy. Reason why I couldn't sleep as well. Well...it didn't help any. She does deep tissue massage and oh boy she really rubbed them/cramps out for now. :o) At least I have some time without the jumping and painful legs. :o)
I've sent out 2 more post cards this morning! :o) This is really fun! :o) It would be great if I could get a post card from every state! :o) That might be stretching it a bit far....but it would be kind of cool! :o) Again, if anyone wants to send/receive a Post Card from me, send me an email and put in the subject line; POST CARD. :o) I have plenty to send! :o)
My health care aid will be coming today as well. She helps me out a lot too. :o)
My daughter just got a call from her best friend, and she will be coming up today for a visit as well! :o)
This is all for now. I also want to thank you for the sweet comments! :o) They keep me going! :o) God bless all of you! :o)
Monday, July 31, 2006
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Again...I was up last night because of my legs. My husband rubbed them, and it seemed to help a bit. After that....I end up with hives! Geesh! So I took some Benadryl to stop the icthing. I was able to lay back down. :o) Too bad I can't make up for all the sleep I've lost this whole week! lol :o) It kind of just hit me a bit earlier about maybe why my legs are acting up. Just keep praying! I pray for my daughter and the situations that she is going through. And then my grandson feels her emotions and he gets fussy. :o( Plus his teething as well. Yesterday I woke up and my whole left arm was tingling as if I had my fingers in an outlet! Yikes! Didn't feel good. This morning I'm shaky! Good Greif! I'm hanging ten on this wave! :o)
God bless all of you and have a great day! :o)
Has anyone else in J-Land thought about playing the post card game? I bought 30 cards, and have only sent out 3.
P.S. email me if anyone changes their minds, and be sure to put Post Card Game in the subject line! :o)
Saturday, July 29, 2006
I still couldn't get to sleep last night. I finally went to bed around 2:00. My legs and my spine are hurting, so that makes it a bit hard to get comfortable as well. I did get some sleep finally. I just don't know why this is lasting so long? Yesterday....my daughter and grandson went to the mall...which we spent a lot of time there. I was worn out, so I thought that might help....nope....
Today, I really didn't have anything planned, but I'm going to try to get out again to wear myself out. Something has to work. :o) I'm just riding this wave out as well as all of the other ones that are thrown at me. :o)
I do hope that I get more requests for the Post Card Game! :o)
God bless you all...and have a great day! :o)
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Ok...I'm up again...my calves are cramping up pretty bad. Plus my legs are jumping as well. Geesh! I layed in bed for a little over an hour, and nothing I could do worked. Sooo, I just got up! :o)
We had more problems with the air conditioner yesterday...but thankfully my husband could fix it. Whew! :o) I was really cramping up. But better now! :o) I do hope I'll be able to get some sleep tonight. This week hasn't been a very good week with my sleep. But....I still thank God for each and everyday I have! I'm very thankful for that! :o) I know that there are other people out there a lot worse off then me.
I'm going to go and try to get some sleep now...wish me luck! :o)
P.S. I sent out a Post Card today to Dianne! :o) Please Email me with POST CARD in the subject line, and your address! :o) As soon as I get a lot more...I'll post them all on this journal! :o) God bless all of you!
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
I didn't get any sleep last night. I was up all night. I suppose this is going to be one of those weekly ordeals that I am going to have to ride out.
I recieved my first post card yesterday! YAY! :o) Thank you Sug! :o) I can't wait to recieve more. :o) This is truly fun. :o)
No plans today except for the obvious....to try and get some sleep. :o) This is such an odd disease. <sigh> :o) You just never know what the day will be like, or the next. lol :o)
I want to thank you for your wonderful comments! :o) And God bless all of you! :o)
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
I wonder what would happen if we treated our Bible like we treat our cell
What if we carried it around in our purses or pockets?
What if we turned back to go get it if we forgot it?
What if we flipped through it several times a day?
What if we used it to receive messages?
What if we treated it like we couldn't live without it?
What if we gave it to kids as gifts?
What if we used it as we traveled?
What if we used it in case of an emergency?
This is something to make you go...hmmm...where is my Bible?
Oh, and one more thing. Unlike our cellphones, we don't ever have to
worry about our Bible being disconnected because Jesus already paid the
Last evening we finally got the central air back! YAY! :o) At first, it didn't seem that we would be able to find someone that we could afford to fix it. But my husband remembered a friend from work that could help. It only cost $100.00 to fix! :o) That included labor as well! Always Say A Prayer! God does hear you!
I also want to clear something up for someone. "No, I'm NOT playing that game and I'm NOT falling for your little tricks!"
Yesterday was pretty much a painful day for me. The muscle cramping was pretty extreme. Even the bottoms of my feet were cramping up. I know it was because of the heat. This morning I'm feeling better. ;) It was nice and cool in the house last night by the time I went to bed....so I slept better then I did the last 2 nights. That will help with the pains as well. Heat, no sleep, and stress will throw my body in a frinzy! Ouchie! I've had all 3 the last few days.
Today...all I'm going to do is rest. I've been pretty busy with appointments and such to where I haven't been able to rest my body enough after I had my injections. I need to because both of my hips have been hurting a bit, and I don't want loose what I have....mobility.
Again...is there anyone else playing the Post Card Game? :o) Just a reminder. :o)
In my last entry, I wanted to post that poem for a reason. I am a Christian...and I'm human as well. :o) To the one that seems to want to question my faith and my beliefs, I found that poem fitting! :o) And yes...When I say; God bless all of you..."I" Mean it! :o) Because I know He does everyday! :o)
Thats all for now. God bless all of you! :o)
Monday, July 24, 2006
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
Hello! :o) I had an appointment this morning in Middletown for an EEG. I've had seizures all of my life; so it wasn't anything that concerned me. :o) While I was there at my new neurologists office...I asked if they had the results of my evoked potential test. The nurse told me that she would look through my chart and get back with me to let me know. :o) Whew! I would like to know because of the problems the tech was having to get my right side to react.
On the POST CARD GAME, I've sent out 2 post cards! :o) Come on J-landers (journal land). I know a lot of J-landers. :o) This is fun, and I can't wait to receive my first post card. :o)
By the way, this massage is to "Robin." I don't know of any other way to get ahold of you but, through this journal. Wanted to let you know that you and Sean and Jenny and Billy are not blocked from contacting me. :o) You can email me at any time. I had to do what I did because of someone that will not leave me and my daughter alone. I'm sure you know who it is. Just sorry I had to do that...on my "other" journal.
We lost our power again yesterday morning. I think it's because of the heat. Now we are having problems with the central air. Yikes! It's been pretty hard for me. Heat makes my muscles cramp more then usual. Hopefully today it will be fixed. :o) We have all of the fans that we could find on and the windows open. The fans are helping. I have one right on me now. Whew!
I need to go for now....getting a bit over heated and need to find someplace cool. :o) God bless all of you! :o)
Sunday, July 23, 2006
God bless each and every one of you! :o)
Saturday, July 22, 2006
The rules are; email me your name and address and I'll send you a post card from Ohio! :o) Then you send me one from where you live!
If you want to play...be sure to put "POST CARD GAME" in the subject line! :o) Have fun! :o)
I have been in such a great mood lately! :o) All I've prayed for is to only have 5 minutes; pain free! And to find out it is possible to have 3 months pain free! Wow! :o) In my back and my hips! God hears ALL prayers! He helps those that help themselves! :o)
Well...it's been raining a lot here. The farmers need it. :o) Last night was the first night in 3 days that I slept. Tuesday I couldn't stay asleep; Wednesday I didn't go to sleep! I couldn't get tired. Thursday I had 2 hours. Better then nothing. ;) I think I slept so good last night is because my daughter and my grandson went to the mall yesterday. We spent hours their! Then went to Wally world! I only took my cane to help me walk. :o) Thats all I needed! Yesss! The only pain I have right now is my spine! Yay! Not bad at all! :o) I think the reason that I stayed out for so long is because when I am able to get out of the house....I just want to go everywhere! LOL I wore my daughter out! LOL :o) But we had fun!
Today, I really don't have any plans; unless something comes up. :o) Oh...by the way...I danced for the first time in sooo long!!! YAY! :o) That is one of the things I miss the most of all the things I've lost....then hiking. I'll work up to that one next! :o)
My faith is being tested again with someone that has tested me before. I've prayed for them. I have God with me and the love and strength of my family. This person will not get past all of that! Impersonating someone else on the internet is so wrong! I think it's illegal as well. I know that my conscious is clear. I don't like it when an adult tries to play games with me and my family. We are very strong. :o) Having God and love; that conquers all! :o)
This is all for now...and thank you for your comments! :o) God bless you all!
Friday, July 21, 2006
Some days flow, nice and easy; and others like someone dropped a toaster into the bath water! No matter how your day goes today; know that it's yours. You own it, will handle it as it goes and at the end of the day, you can reflect. One thing for sure, you can always smile and know it all begins again tomorrow :)If you don't have the idea, the answer, the information that tells you what can be done when
and where, relax.
Do what has to be handled in the present. Do you
have to go to the bathroom? Do it now. Do you
have to answer the phone? Are you hungry? Does
your body need some exercise? Is there some
energy that is calling you to go within and
meditate? Do it. Handle the simple needs right
now. You can let the process work by itself, as
you handle the practical needs.
The process is your having the faith that "the
Spirit in me is working and will supply me with
what I need when I need it."
A lot of people feel threatened if they feel they are being asked to question their cherished beliefs or their perception of reality. Yet questioning is what keeps our minds strong. Simply settling on one way of seeing things and refusing to be open to other possibilities makes the mind rigid and generally creates a restrictive and uncomfortable atmosphere. We all know someone who refuses to budge on one or more issues, and we may have our own "sacred cows" that could use a little prodding. Being open-minded means that we are willing to question everything, including those things we take for granted. The willingness to question everything doesn't necessarily mean we don't believe in anything at all, and it doesn't mean we have to question every single thing in the world every minute of the day. It just means that we are humble enough to acknowledge how little we actually know. Nearly every change in history came about because someone questioned some time-honored belief or tradition and in doing so revealed a new truth, a new way of doing things, or a new standard for ethical and moral behavior. Just so, a commitment to staying open in our own individual lives can lead us to new personal truths, truths that we will hopefully, for the sake of our growth, remain open to questioning. :o)
'Tis easy enough to be pleasant,
When life flows along like a song;
But the man worth while is the one who will smile
When everything goes dead wrong;
For the test of the heart is trouble,
And it always comes with the years,
But the smile that is worth the praise of earth
Is the smile that comes through tears.
. . . .
But the virtue that conquers passion,
And the sorrow that hides in a smile--
It is these that are worth the homage of earth,
For we find them but once in a while.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox, Worth While
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
I went to the heart doctor first yesterday. The results on my tests were Good! :o) YAY! But...my doctor wanted me to wear this 24 hour monitor. Sooo...I am wearing the monitor, and I have to go back sometime after 12:30 to have it taken off. It was a bit hard to sleep with last night. :o) I'm just so very greatful! :o)
Then I had an appointment to go to the pain clinic. Yes...the evoked potential test is what took away the first injections that were given to me. He asked me before he injected me again if I had to go through anymore tests like that. I don't! :o) Soooo....He gave me injections in my back and my hips again! Wow! I'm able to stand up straight and walk again without my cane or walker! YAY! :o) I feel great all over again! He told me that these injections should last me for 3 months! Wow! Thats great! :o) So..I'm going to go get this monitor off today, and probably not do too much...he said to rest last night and today to give the injections time to get in my system. Thats ok...I'll do what ever it takes. ;o) For about the last 2 and 1/2 months now, things have really turned around for me...to the good! :o) I've been working on getting all of the negativity out of my life...and so far so good! :o) We've been so blessed! Like I've always said; No one can take away my faith and strength...but I can be challanged by the negativity. And I have been doing great now! YAY!
God bless you all! :o)
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Today I have an appointment to see my heart doctor to talk about my test results. I can't wait. I also was able to get ahold of the pain clinic to let the doctor there know what was going on with me. I have an apointment to see him today as well. :o) Boy...I can't wait for that one! :o) Even though the injections are gone...I still feel very blessed to even have that much time without the pain in those areas. :o)
Yesterday was a pretty painful day. I haden't gotten any sleep the night before...then was able to lay down at 5:30 in the morning....then my physical therapist woke me up to do the deep tissue massage therapy. Soooo, I had 2 hours of sleep. Between the heat and lack of sleep, made for a painful day.
My mom and my niece came to visit! :o) I loved that! :o) I haven't seen her in 6 months! :o) She brought a very pretty dress with her so I could take some photo's of her! I love doing that! lol :o) I had ideas from the start! :o) I took some photo's and I had planned on working on them in the evening but.....our power went out! Geesh! Sooo...I couldn't do that. :o) When it came back on, I was ready for bed. :o)
This morning when I got up, I was and still am very weak and shaky for some reason. I did rest yesterday. I just don't feel my "normal." But thats alright...I'll just ride this wave out! :o) Nothin' to it! :o) I know God is strong and He has me! :o)
Well...thats all for now. God bless all of you, and gentle hugs! :o) And thank you so much for your comment! :o)
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Well....I didn't get anything done that I wanted to yesterday. All I did was rest and took a nap. I started having chest pains all over again! Yikes! Sooo..that kind of nipped everything in the butt for me! I didn't go outside...it got up to 103 degrees here! Whew! I really didn't want to go out in that! I was inside all day with the air! :o)
Maybe today I'll be able to do something. My chest feels better right now...so hoping that it stays that way. :o) There was a church carnival here in town yesterday...my husband took my daughter and grandson in the evening after it cooled down a bit. They didn't stay long because It was still too hot and humid out. My grandson had been walking around all day! :o) Oh....it is just too cute! :o) He's not walking yet...just walking from one chair to another! YAY! :o) He might just start walking any day now! lol :o) Too cute! :o)
Well....I hope that today will be a better day. Also not so hot! Geesh! Sooo....I'll try to do what I wanted to do today. It really doesn't matter...it will all be there no matter what...waiting on me! lol :o)
God bless all of you and gentle hugs! :o)
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Yesterday I had to take another pain pill for my back. I rested in bed more....which I really don't like to do...but if needed I will. The pain medication kind of took the edge off the pain a bit. Thats good. :o) I'm back to using my cane again. I really don't feel safe enough to walk without it again. Oh well. :o) I didn't do much at all.
My grandson is still getting more teeth in! :o) It looks like now he is getting in more then I thought! Whew! Poor thing has to be in a lot of pain. :o( Bless his heart. My neice called me again last night! :o) I'm so proud of her! :o) She's really got her head on straight! :o) She was accepted to a collage here in Ohio! YAY! :o) She leaves in September! :o)
Today all I have planned is to get a few things done that I've needed to do for awhile...my husband is home today so I will be able to do things with his help. :o) I'm going to change my curtains again in my room. I would like to have a bit more privacy.
Wow....in the news paper today on the front page it says that the electric company is getting strickter! It reads that Piqua residents who don't pay their electric bill on time will be sitting in the dark! This city is becoming more and more dictated! :o( ggrrr! I'm going for now...God bless all of you and gentle hugs! :o) Have a great day! :o)
Friday, July 14, 2006
I rested most of the day yesterday. I had to take some pain pills! :o( My back is hurting once again. <sigh> I wonder if that evoke test did something to my back to make it hurt all over again? I even had to put 2 pain patches on! It's back to where it was a few weeks ago. I am very greatful for having this long without this pain. :o) I thank God for that! :o)
My right side was also shaky....I don't know why. What I think I'm going to do today is call my doctor and see what he wants me to do....then call the pain clinic to see if there might be something else that will help me with this pain. I even took 2 more pain pills last night before I went to bed....and I still couldn't sleep...the pain was too bad. All I did was toss and turn.
I know that today I'm going to need a lot of help with doing things. It's back to the drawing board! :o) I know God has me in His hands! :o) Theres a reason for all of what has happened to me this week. I just need to find out what it is! :o)
I also want to thank you for the encouraging comments! :o) They really do help me to get through all of this. I don't feel so alone. :o) Which I know I'm not....I have God with me! :o) You know I grew up with a stepdad...and I didn't know my biological father. One time I was asked who my father was? My answer was God! Because my stepdad abused me in everyway possible, and I never knew my bioloical dad..sooo I know that I grew up with my real Father! :o) If any of this makes any sense...it does to me. :o)
Well....I'm going to see how I'm feeling later on, then call my doctor and the pain clinic. Plus...get as much rest as I can. There is one thing that I can't stop doing the hurts me to do...and that is to pick up my grandson and hold him! I can't deny him when he holds out his hands to me! :o) I will always be there for him! :o) But...thats another story! lol :o) I love my family soooo much!!! :o)
God bless all of you!
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Yesterday I really didn't do anything at all. I still don't know how to describe how I'm feeling. My right foot is still feeling like it is still getting alittle bit of a shock. I didn't sleep well last night. I'm going to take a nap today....I didn't yesterday.
I did, however, take a pain pill. I haven't had to do that in a while. I plan on doing nothing today....and just rest a bit more. It's all rainy and gloomy here...so it will be pretty easy to just lay down and get all snuggly! :o) I even called my physical therapist this morning to let her know how I was feeling and to not come this morning. She did come over and I explained again, and she gave me a hug and said that I need to find out the results of that test very soon....especially if it's making me feel this odd.
I really like her a lot. :o) She's also a nurse as well, which does help me feel better when she is here. :o) So far....my foot hasn't gotten any worse....if it does, I will then call my doctor. Beleive me...I really don't like going to the doctors. :o) I end up hearing things that I don't want to hear....and if I can stay home..I will! :o)
My grandson is teething still. He's getting 2 more on the bottom, and possibly 2 on the top! Whew...he's just a bit grumpy! :o) The poor thing is soooo miseriable. I wish I could take the pain from him so he doesn't have to go through it. God bless him! :o) He's also trying to walk more! :o) Too cute! :o) I don't know if I've said this or not, but if I did...I'm going to say it again...my daughter got excepted to a collage!!!! I'm so very proud of here! She's going to become a nurse! :o) YAY! Maybe by then...she can take care of me?! lol :o)
I got a comment in my last entry about what I have to write in my journal that what I write is about my life and no one elses. It was my husbands idea because I have had someone actually think that I write about them! It's not my fault if my life or what I write might coinside with anyone elses. I still feel that I need to make that very clear to that person.
Until the next time....God bless you all and gentle hugs to you! :o)