.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......
I really don't know what to say. I will answer some questions; No, I'm not on any blood thiners and never have been. Yes, I have been trying to get another doctor, but they are not taking any new patients right now. I've even called the ones that my nurse gave me that will come to your house. So I'm stuck with the stupid doctor that I do not like. I have no other choices. Yes, the bottom part of my left leg does hurt. Yes, my right arm is still in pain. No, the heat isn't doing anything to help. Believe me, I've been trying everything known under the sun. I'm told to rest....I'm told to walk....I'm told to NOT walk....I'm told to NOT be in bed resting!
My doctor told me that "He can't do anything else for me, since I just had an appointment!" And no...unless I'm bleeding out of my eyes, the ER won't do anything about this.
I'm so confused now, more then ever! I do have one good thing that has happened......the back of my left arm has feeling in it once again!
No one hears me. No one "see's" what I'm asking for help....because "I look good!" If you only knew how tired I am of hearing that!!!!!! If I had a penny for each time someone has said that too me...I'd be filthy rich!
It feels like I'm at the very begining again. Before I was diagnoses with the Fibromyalgia! My nerves our shot, my patience level is NIL! And the pain is driving me nuts! No, I do not have any pain pills.
The only pills that I have are the ones that are for my fibro, and one for my MS. Thats all. Oh, and one for my seizures! Can't forget that!
I was on the computer yesterday, looking up thromboplebts and phlebitis. Oh gee, everything I read wasn't a pretty site. They all said the samethings. I'm just so tired!
Today, I feel like I'm actually going crazy! huh...how about that! I wouldn't know why! I have all of the blinds closed and the lights off! I don't want to see or hear anything or anyone. What I have planned is to just get back in my stupid bed and pull the covers over my head and hope that maybe I'll wake up. I'm tired right now, later.