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I was able to get 8 hours of sleep last night. YES! :o) I think sine I wasn't getting much sleep for such a long time, made my system really screwed up. I'm in so much pain today, and I feel like I'm sick. BLAH! Just not a very good day all in all. But, Just very thankful I did get more sleep. That will help out my immune system. I'm going to go back to bed. Prop up everything that hurts, and rest. Gentle hugs. :o)

Cha....Ching!!!!! :o)

Yay......I was able to get 7 hours of sleep last night! :o) I feel alittle more rested finally! :o) Now I hope my day will be a lot better as well; pain wise and rest. My right foot and ankle are still swollen and purple. Still numb were it is purple. I don't know what thats about either, but I'm keeping an eye on it to see if it soes get any worse. Again, I don't know if this is a part of fibromyalgia or not. This disease is the oddest....you have a hard time trying to tell what is from the fibro, and what isn't. Geesh! I'm still very weak. But I'll get by. :o) I suppose thats all for now. God bless you all! :o) Thank you for the sweet comments, they keep me going. :o)

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I had such a long dat yesterday.....and still not even a nap. So, I wasn't doing much at all. My head felt so heavy, and my hips and legs are so weak from no sleep. My physical/massage therapist comes this morning, and I can't wait. I know it will hurt like you know what, but I know it should help my body feel a bit better. :o) I'm hoping to at least be able to get a nap in today, and get sleep tonight. :o) Boy do I not like it when my system goes through these "no sleep" periods. Geesh! I just get so weak and worn out over it. I'm hopeful enough that this too shall soon pass. :o) And I know it will some time. :o)

.....................................You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.

-Rosalynn Carter

I need a vacation!

With so much on my mind about my health, and a few other things...I really need a vacation! All I need is a few days of nothing but relaxing, and nothing else going on thats outside of this house. It upsets me to see or feel something new about or on my body. If it pulls me back 2 steps, I'll move forward 3. I'm so determined to figure this disease out. Why am I getting tumors....why is my foot and ankle purple....and why are my hips and legs so weak? There is no why, it's what can I do now to get better. I have to think of it that way. I'll come up with an answer that I know that I'll be able to do. I just really need to give my body a rest. And, get some much needed sleep. :o) Oh well.....life goes on with fibromyalgia even if you have to push yourself every hour of the day. :o) God bless you all. :o)

hmmmm?

Someone must have a guilty consious. If you think that I might be talking about you in my journals, then you must feel guilty of something. I have my own life that I live, and if I write something in this journal, doesn't mean I bring things on myself, or am writing about you, I write about what happens in my day to day life....Ok? So save it for some one who cares....You are not the center of my world...ok? And I never said when and what time either. So why an aliby?

Sleep? What's that?

UUGGHHH!!!! Once again...not much sleep again tonight. Another 1 1/2 hours. :o( My eyes are so used to staying open, they wouldn't know that to do if they were shut for more then 3 hours! This is really taking it's toll on my body. This weather we are having isn't helping either...cold and hot...you never know, and that messes with my body as well. gggrrr. :o) Again, it's from one hour to the next right now. I'm dealing with it. :o) Nothing else I can do. Unless I break down and take a pain pill, and I might just do that here in a bit. I really don't like to rely on those. But, they have been working. Thankfully. :o) I don't have any plans today at all. Yesterday I went through some old clothes and pj's because all of my other ones are too big on me. YAY! I've found out that I am now wearing a size medium! :::::doing a dance::::::   :o) I like this! From a size 3X in January, now down to a medium! I've lost about 60 pounds now! :o) I'm very proud of myself. The less weight that I have to carry around on my legs and back, the better I will feel in the long run. :o) I'm getting there! :o) I guess thats all for now....going to try and take a pain pill and lay back down, and prop my right foot up some more. Still purple and numb. Gentle hugs. :o)

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Yesterday was so long for me. Only having 2 hours of sleep with no naps made my body just ache all over. Plus with this cold weather sin't helping either. When I get too cold, or too hot my muscles cramp up so much more, then add on no sleep. Yikes! I've been having problems with my toes on my right foot for the past 2 weeks. This morning when I got up, I've noticed that whatever is wrong has spread to the rest of my toes, and my foot and ankle are swollen. They are purple and I can't feel anything where they are purple. I'm going to have to be in bed again today to prop my leg up to see if it will help. If not, back to the doctors. Because my right leg is my good one, and having problems with it, messes up my balance, my left leg kind of drags along with me. Geesh! With this disease, you never know from one hour to the next what you're going to feel like or whats going to happen. I had a nice surprise yesterday...my mom and sister came over to visit. :o) I've been worried about my mom a bit, and to see her made me feel better. She had lost her husband a few months ago, and things just aren't going good for her right now.

Now, this is for the girl that keeps doing the drive by's.....I can ignore you, but you have now made other neighbors pretty mad. I hope your mother reads this, because she needs to tell you to stop this nonsence. There is an elderly couple that lives a house down from me that she takes care of her bed riden husband. She is disturbed by these drive by's. And her husband! She is going to call the police. I have another neigher that lives beside us, across the street, that it is also disturbing and he will not put up with all of the yelling either. So, if you and your friends want to laugh and think what you yell out your car window at "our" house, is just trying to get to us, you're wrong. Now you've gotten other neighbors invovled that will call the police on you for what you are doing. I'm hoping that you will stop acting like a 2 year old, and think of others besides yourselfish little games with your friends. Because you've now pulled in others in my neighborhood that will not put up with it. Again, this all needs to STOP! Because you are not getting to us, we can ignore, but not my elderly neighbors! Learn some respect for others, and stop thinking of just yourself. Please? If this doesn't stop, and I hear more complaints from my neighbors, I will get a restraining order. Ok?

With that said.....now I need to go lay down and prop my leg up. My grandson still doesn't feel good, so I might put him in bed with me too. :o) He's such a snugglebunny! :o) Gentle hugs to you all, and thank you for all the uplifting comments! :o)