:o)

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and in hopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life......

I haven't written for a bit. Just been resting a bit more. My chest has been hurting a bit more as well. You can actually hear the fluid in my chest....eeeewww! Pretty gross.

My daughter spent the night with me the night before. :o) I always love that! :o) My grandson was so funny and he acts more and more like my daughter did when she was that age! LOL :o) Too cute! :o)
I had a serious talk with my husband and my son last night. I felt that I needed to let them know what I would like to have done if anything happens to me before I am able to get my will wrote up and my living will. Today, I'm going to talk to my daughter as well. I know that when I go through the test on my heart I'll be ok...I have God watching over me. :o) I just feel that if anything were to happen, I'd have things covered. :o) I even told my best friend last night. :o)
I had my hair highlighted last night! YAY! :o) I love it! Miss E did it for! :o) I'm very proud of her! :o)
I suppose this is all for now. God bless you all! :o) Have a good one! :o)

Update....

Thank you all for your comments. :o) I just got back from seeing my sleep specialist and I told him what had happened last night. He did give me an EKG and it was ok. Whew! I have pluricy, and he really wanted me to get am enduced stress test done today, but I didn't want to. I should have I guess, but I didn't. He told me that if I have pain like that again to get ahold of him immeditly because of my heart and congestive heart failure thats in my family. When I was taking in the deep breaths last night to try to help myself....was wrong to do! I had no idea. He said that by doing so, it was making my heart rub against the linning. He could hear that with his stethiscope! EEeK! So...this will last about 2-3 weeks if I'm a good girl and stay in bed and rest. :o) So...Geesh...now I have more pain on top of what I already live with everyday! :o) lol Oh well! :o) Just very thankful that I didn't have a heart attack! I'm to really keep the stress down as much as possible...lol..yea right! :o) I'm living...so...um...stress? :o) Everyone has it, it's like a finger print! :o) Ok...if I don't make light of what I was told by the doctor and what I experianced last night, I won't get through this day! :o)
God bless all of you! He sure has me! :o)

A bit scared......

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and in hopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life......

Yesterday was a normal day for me. Nothing out of the ordinary. My daughter had spent the night on Monday to do her laundry and had an appointment to take my grandson to get his stitches out. She came back for awhile. I rested in bed. We talked a bit and that was really the extent of my day. I felt fine and nothing was wrong. After she had went home, I went ahead and took a nap. Oh..the only thing I did was I cut my hair. Nothing to that. Next I'm going to try and highlight it. Wish me luck on that one. I spent a lot of money on the products, so I hope I don't screw it up too bad. My son woke me up for supper, and I ate. I really wasn't all that hungry. Good..maybe I can loose some weight. :o)

Then last night, my daughter had called to talk to me about a few things. A few things that was said really got to me. I went to my room to take some deep breathes to calm down. It seemed to help. My husband asked if she could come over to talk because he wanted to talk to her about a few things as well. I started to feel a bit of pain in my chest. I didn't think anything of it at the time. But, it was getting a bit worse as time went on...I would get hot then cold, and the pain started going up to my face and especially my left jaw. When she got here, they were talking. The pain went to the left side of my shoulder blade on my back. Then my daughter and I started to talk, and the pain got worse in my chest and then went up to mt left shoulder...with still all the other pains going on. My throat felt funny and I had a har time talking somewhat. I got so cold I had goose bumps. Finally I told my husband about what was going on. He told me to go to my room to take some deep breathes and maybe I'd feel better. I did. No, it didn't help. She wanted to go home, and my husband followed her. I just went to bed. I was hoping the pain would go away. I couldn't sleep very well at all. I got up at 2:00, and got 4 hours of restless sleep. I was up and down. My shoulder still hurts a bit, but so far everything else is better. Last night scared me way too much! I'm going to look up what that meant. What ever it was scared me. I have a sleep specialist appointment this morning, and I'll tell him about the incident.
I guess this is all for now. God bless all of you! :o)

A very rewarding day!

Yesterday was a great day!!!! It was one of the most painfull days for me with my back pain. I finally seen the arthritis specialist, and I really liked him! He really seems to be on top of things! :o) He took me off of one medicine and put me on a new medicine just for the arthritis! :o) I see him again in 4 weeks for results of the blood tests I had as well. I was to meet my new home health aid yesterday, and got home in time. She was a bit late....but I really like her a lot! Before she left, we were talking about some things that I could be on to get my medical needs met. I will deffintitly check into them...she says that I could use a lot of thing to help me in my everyday life to help ease my pain. Cool....I'm going to see! :o) After she had left...I got a phone call from Advanced Medical Equiptment letting me know that I was approved for my electric wheel chair!!!!! YESSS!!!! :o) God hears my prayers! I have been blessed everyday of my life! Getting the negative people out of my life, things just have been falling into place! :o) I prayed and thanked Him for the blessing! :o) I will be getting it within 3 weeks! :o) I can't wait! I know how much this is really going to help me and the back pain so very much! :o)
I had the best Mother's Day as well! :o) I was gifted by being able to see family! :o) It has been so long since I've seen so many of them! Of course...I took many pictures! :o) We also had our grandbaby spend the night on Saturday! That was so much fun! Saturday was my husbands birthday, and the Sunday Mother's Day...so we both had a precious gift that night! :o)

Today...all I have planned it to get more rest. And my grandson has to go back to the hospital to get his stitches out. It doesn't look like there will be a big scare! :o) Whew! :o)
God bless all of you! And have a wonderful day! :o)
P.S. Please forgive me while I'm working on putting photos in my journal....I'm still learning! :o) I want to thank "you know who" for all the help! :o)

Mother's Day!

Mothers' Day

 

In life we have a journey

it begins in the womb

Our hearts are attached

as our souls begin to bloom

To the Mother God gave us

be it good or bad

Without our Mother

life would not be had

I offer these words

for the mother to be

the mother we are

the mother we need

to love and to cherish

the woman we became

from the words of our Mother

to be and to remain

a constant in life

mother, sister, or wife

Our Mother's who love

the best that they can

unconditional love

that is how the story goes

to have and to hold

for a borrowed time

I love my mother, I see her in me

the ultimate love

the which became the

Mother in me.

Had a good day!

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and in hopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life...... 
Yesterday went so much better then I had expected. :o) My mom came over after work in the morning and surprised me. :o) I love it when she does that! :o) A friend that works with her gave her and I a Mother's Day gift and card! :o) I was very surprised! The gift plays a song that made me cry...plus the surprise of it made me cry first! lol I'm emotional. lol :o) Everyone knows that one! lol :o) It was just beautiful! :o) Thank you so much "J"! :o) I had a great visit with my mom as well. :o) I was talking about some things for my future and I didn't even think when I was talking about it that it would upset her. :o( I'm fine with it, and I guess I don't think about it that everyone else isn't. I just know that I'll be in Heaven and out of pain! YAY! :o) After my mom left, I rested in bed for awhile. Then I asked my son to go with me to the store real quick to pick up a few things. I'm so glad I did because as soon as I got into the store, I got real weak and was having a hard time walking again. My son helped me so much! :o) When we got home, my daughter was here to borrow my camera to take with her to visit her dad. She's helping her sister get ready for prom and wants some pictures. :o) I can't wait to see them! :o) After she left my son and his girl friend went back to the store and made supper for us! :o) How sweet of them! Plus...for Mother's Day, they are going to cook a nice brunch for me! :o) When they came back from the store, they had a box of tie dye! YAY! LOL :o) I love to do that!!! :o) I'm stuck in the 70's! LOL :o) Sooo...thats what we did last night...we tie dyed shirts, and we had some left over so I got another shirt, a pair of shorts and a pair of socks! LOL So...I'm going to have some pretty cool looking things to wear! lol :o) I had ordered an Atari awhile back and it finally came the other day. My son hasn't stopped playing it since I got it! He loves to play Pong! :o) It brings back a lot of memories for me and to see that my kids love to play it makes me happy! :o) Theres nothing that shoots, kills or anything bloody to it...just skill and fun...:o) We had a Pong tournement last night after tie dying...and my son was unbeatable! He's good! :o) Even my husband tried to beat him. lol :o)
After all of that...I went to bed. With having only two hours of sleep the night before, I was finally getting sleepy. I had 8 hours of sleep last night! YAY! :o) Boy does that relly help me. :o) Today is my husbands birthday! :o) He's two years older then I am. I don't know what we have planned for today yet. I've just been playing it by ear. It's getting harder for me to plan ahead. Depends on how I am feeling.
Thats all for now....God bless all of you! :o)

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.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and in hopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life...... 
Yesterday wasn't a very good day for me physically. Mentally was great! I felt so much lifted after my last entry. My physical therapist came again because of my back is getting worse. I was up way too early tonight, because of the pain in my back was too painful to sleep. My legs seem to be fine lately, which is great. :o) I haven't checked my blood pressure for the past day and a half. I just don't want to see the numbers anymore. I can feel the spurs getting worse on my spine. All day yesterday, no matter what I was doing, I was getting so much pain, and this shocking sensation going through my body and making me jump! As if I had been electically shocked and it jolted me! So...I now know that the spurs are touching the nerve. Yikes! I knew it would happen sooner or later.
I want to go ahead and move my bedroom into this room as soon as possible. I'm starting to have problems getting around in my old room. Which it hasn't changed at all. I have. My son and I looked underneath the carpet in this room to see the condition of the floor. It look pretty good, so I would like to have this stinky carpet pulled up as well. Not that hard to do, we done many times before. I can see how much harder it is for me to get around in this house lately. I'm not liking it at all. I went to the mall again with my daughter on Wednesday, and this time I took my wheel chair. It really takes too much out of me anymore to go places. But I still will push myself until the day I know I can not do it. I know that day will come. So I'm trying to get so much done and out of the way until then.
All I have planned for today is to try to get some rest. I got up at 11:30 tonight...and thats way too early! 2 hours of sleep! God bless all of you! :o)