Update on my health.....

I had a doctors appointment this morning. I found out several things that I wasn't ready to hear...as usual. I do have good news to report about my cholesterol....it's back down to being normal! YAY! :o)
I also found out more about my heart. He is sending me to a heart specialist now. It's a bit worse then I even began to think in the first place. I haven't talked to my family yet, so I'm not going to write it in here yet. And I never did have pluerisy. I also found out about that stress test and why I should have had it the day my other doctor wanted me to. I wish now I would have. This doctor explained it better to me this morning. He is also having me go to the physical therapy at the hospital for the warm water exercise to try and help my back. It's really killing me right now after he touches it to check on the progress.
All I can say right now is that I can not have any stress what so ever in my life right now. I choose to live! God bless all of you. :o)

Be careful of what you say...it just might come back to you....

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and inhopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life......
I was going through some things of mine and I came across something I've had for years. I kept it because I feel that it's very true. I found it in the news paper. 
                      Charactirstics of Trustworthy People
1-They don't lie to you.
2-They don't stab you in the back.
3-They stand up for you.
4-They don't talk behind your back.
5-They help you with positive ways to improve.
6-They don't put you down.
7-Feel comfortable when you're around.
8-You're not an addiction in their life.
9-Supportive of what you say.
10-The relationship is not one sided.
My favorite...They're not manipulative!
It seems as though no matter whatI do to help someone when they ask for it...it just isn't enough....in ways of telling them the truth when they ask me a question! The truth hurts....just accept it...and move on with your life. Simple! So...I am only guessing on why I am not getting asked anymore questions! Fine with me....I've been moving on. Because thats just what you do. You do nothing but waste your life away if you don't.
We are getting My daughter and my grandson's things put away and in order. Today...I need to get a few things done in my room to make room for my daughter for her new bedroom. :o) Things are going great! :o) My grandson is doing great now and my daughter is much more relaxed as well. :o) It's so great to see my daughter "back" once again! YAY! She hasn't been herslelf for about 4 years. It was sad for us to see. And now...she has seen the difference as well! :o) Good girl! :o) I'm very proud of her. :o)
Things in my little "health world" have been pretty much the same. The pain hasn't went away. ggrrr! This morning I almost passed out. I got real dizzy and had tunnel vision...I just grabbed on to my walker and held on. I got in my wheel chair and used it. I'm so thankful that God has blessed me with the wheel chair...it has really been helping me. :o) Godhas really blessed my family! :o) Other then that dizzy spell...I guess I'm ok. :o) My home health aid will be here soon to help me. :o) I guess I need to get off of here. :o) God bless all of you! :o) Choose to live and move on in your life! :o)

Not such a good day......

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and inhopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life......

Well......yesterday just was not a good day for me pain wise. My back was hurting me so badly, I could barely do anything! I even had 3 of my prescription pain patches on my spine! It didn't even take the edge off! I did however, rest most of the day in bed to try and help the pain....no such luck this time. I can actually feel it getting worse. It feels as though the spurs are on all of my vertabras and more of my spine is deteurating. I had no strength at all. I went to get more blood tests done yesterday as well. I've been having so many, I forget what this blood test was for. I'm still having flare ups with the ms. Not fun. Very different then the fibromyalgia flare ups. ASAP!
Today will be a better day. :o) I went to bed pretty early last night. 8:00! I was able to get 7 hours of sleep! Yes! Boy did I need that! :o) Since I'm not able to use the patches today....12 hours on and 12 hours off.....I knew I had to get as much rest as I could to help the pain. It didn't help my back pain, but it of course helped everything else. :o) Whew! :o) Just please keep us in your prayers. :o)
God bless all of you! :o)

Enough is enough!

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and inhopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life......
I was told just last week by someone that they really loved my daughter just like their own. And was told that my daughter is like a daughter she never had. Even though she had broken up with her boy friend....she still told me that she felt that way. That made me feel pretty good. Well....for some odd reason...now my daughter seems to be a bad person, to this same person that told me these things! I'm confused! And so is she! Enough is enough with all the bad talk and bad things that you have done to my daughter! Because you're not only hurting her...but my grandson as well...that you say you love so very much! When she is as upset as she is now...he feels it too! :o( All she did was break up with her boy friend! Everyone does it! It's not like they are married. Geesh! Get a grip...please!
Please pray for my daughter and my grandson as they are both going through so much right now. God bless you all! :o)

Just a little update.

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and inhopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life......
Again....yesterday was another one of those days. I think I'm having a flare up with the ms. Thank the Lord I have my wheel chair now! :o) My hands are really cramping up on me...and my left hand seems to be the one thats worse. It keeps wanting to "close up" on me. As if I'm closing my own hand! I've just been doing my best with trying to exercise them to keep them both open. Both of my legs feel as if they are as tight as they can get, and I'm having way more muscle spasms then normal. Yikes! I layed down yesterday morning at 9:30, and didn't wake up until 1:00! I know I really need the rest. I'm still not sleeping very good at night. I guess I have too much on my mind still. I've been praying! :o)
God bless you all! :o)

Yada Yada Yada.......

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and inhopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life......

uuuggghhhhh!!!!! What a day it was yesterday! My physical therapist had came and done the deep tissuse massage. Well...somewhere in between Tuesday and yesterday, my whole body became all numb now! She started rubbing in one place, and I just thought it was just that area....nope....I couldn't feel her hands, fingers, nothing! All I could feel is the pressure of her hands! I told her about it, and thankfully she's a nurse, because with having so many different things wrong going on...she said that it sounds like the MS getting a bit worse! Yikes! So....I guess that explains a few things that I've done....and it really didn't hurt. :o( On Wednesday, I had stubbed all of my toes on my left foot and I thought to myself that it should have hurt me. But it didn't. I know I've been having more problems with both of my legs going numb on me without knowing it. When I get up to walk, I can't feel them or my feet. Which makes it hard to walk. With having the fibromyalgia, ms, and all the back problams....I never know anymore whats what. So...I've kind of had a lot on my mind lately...maybe alittle more then I should. But I can't help but think at times...whats next? I still keep pushing on everyday. I choose to live my life and not let what I have get the best of me. It ain't going to happen! I keep praying to God. :o) I keep my faith strong. Thats what gets me through this. :o) Please put me on your prayer lists. :o) I haven't been getting much sleep lately and have had some added stress. I had some more chest pain from my pluerisy...still trying to get over that too. I'm going to call one of my doctors today to get my records from him. A copy of them....I need to get them for my new doctor...and I'm going to go through them myself and see what is in there. My family knows which doctor and what I'm looking for. And if I find it....ggggrrrr! Last night...my husband came over to me to give me a hug....and he stepped onmy left foot with his shoes on, and I didn't feel it except for the pressure and it didn't hurt! He realized that he had stepped on me, and jumped back and kept apoliging...but I told him that I didn't feel it. I told him about how my whole body is now numb and I think that upset him. He gave me a big hug and said how sorry he was. I told him it wasn't his fault. :o) No ones! :o) God gave all of this to me for a reason, and I except it. :o) I've been using my whell chair. :o) I'm still having a bit of problems know and then still...lol! :o) I deffinitly think I do need a helmet! :o) lol It has really been helping my back and legs so much! :o) By the way...I want to clearify one thing....I know that there are others out there that get way less sleep then I do....but when I don't get sleep, it does make what I have worse, and acts up and I have a lot more pain then usual. Thats why I mention my sleep.
I made home made beef and noodles last night and invited my daughter and her ex over for super! :o) Thats her favorite that I make. :o) I had my son help with peeling potatoes because my hands are also cramping and gripping inward. They didn't come over. :o( But I think she said they might tonight for leftovers! :o) Thats good. I don't want him to ever feel that he is not welcomed here. Because he is. :o) All I want is for the both of them to be happy. And I support the both of them. ;o) I guess I've rambled on enough. lol ASAP! :o) God bless all of you! :o)

A bit upset.

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal is toward anyone in specific.....I've had this journal since aol came out with them, and I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and inhopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life......
I am a bit upset over a few things for my daughter. Maybe it's because I don't feel that it's right and it's my daughter. She has been in a relationship now for about 4 years now, and has decided to break up with her boy friend. She was unhappy. For a long time, they've been trying to work things out between them. It came down to where it just wasn't working. The baby doesn't need to hear the fighting that was going on. :o( It did affect him. :o( My daughter doesn't want that for her baby anymore as well. It took her a long time to make this decision. She just wants to be happy and not miseriable. The other day, the both of them, my daughter and her boy friend came to an agreement together, and broke it off. Yesterday....my daughter came over to visit. She was on line and was bombarded by one of his family members about her decision. :o( From what she was telling my daughter, his whole family now feels that my daughter is a bad person for making this decision. :o( It's not like they were married...and it's not like others haven't been divorced with their children being young. She is not a bad person for doing this. Everyone that lives up here and has been around them...knows and have wittnessed for themselves what has gone on in front of us. No...we nor his family do not live with them so no one really knows what goes on in their house. Except for the two of them. But what I and others have seen is enough for me. I'm very proud of her for all this time of trying to work her relationship out. I'm proud of him as well. What I'd like to know is why then do they feel that my daughter is such a bad person? No one on my daughter's side up here thinks he is a bad person for making the same decision. I don't get it, and it hurts me to see how my daughter is hurting going through this break up and now his family thinking that she's a bad person and now has turn on her on a dime. Makes no sense to me. We have not done that to their son, nor would we. When my daughter went home from visiting me, she told me that she was telling him what his familyhad said to her and she just broke down in tears. :o( She doesn't understand all of this either. In my opinion....I feel that it's between the two of them...not his family and the two of them! They need to stay out of it and let them work on their own decisions. It really hurts me to see her go through this. It just needs to stop! Everyone that knows my daughter, and the relationship that she was in...knows that she is not a bad person for making this decision. If anyone feels they need to back me up on this and make a comment, go ahead.
God bless all of you!
Lisa