Sunday, August 17, 2008


Good morning. How is J-Land doing? I do hope great.
Well, of all times I didn't tape myself sleeping, I had alot of stuff done, a mess and all over my bedroom! No, the dog couldn't get in. But what upsets me is getting out of bed! And I know I did because I had my tapes stacked on the floor, ciggerettes, no lighter, it was just a mess! Too many things went on.

Also a bit of logging as well. I have the stupid shakes again this morning. Oh, thats fun. My whole body really feels like the tin need of oil to stay running. No kidding. My doctor wants me to see another neurologist. He just across from my gp. So, now everyone in that building I see. I'm not complaining, it's so much more easier on me. Tomorrow I have to go and see a dermatologist. I have a mole on my face thats needs looked at! LOL....I just had to do that! :o)
Jim had an Aunt die last week. His best friend was able to come down and go to the funeral. They've known each other since the crib. lol true. It was real good to see him. It's been longer than 10 years since I've seen him. The Aunt was also his friends Aunt as well.

I wonder how many accualy know that I'm back? It's been months now.
Oh, thats right....I don't have a "happy" journal according to most people here. Some of the emails are cruel. I didn't know that I had someplace on my journal that says "Please be mean to me," "I'm not going to put a comment in because she doesn't comment in my journal." Why? You could do it before. I'm doing my best to keep up with who I do go to. Hey, ask someone else that has what I do and see what you get. Yea, as you know, I do write what I want to in this journal.

I mean, when my body was up to doing things that they should, then I could go to all of my friends'. I remember that it would take me until around 3:00 to finish. I know you have jobs and your families, etc...  But you did it before, so why now the excuses? It really hurts. I know I'm being selfish and a big baby about this. It just means alot to me to get feedback.

In my humble opinion, you'd feel the same as I do. The feedback does help. Plus, it's nice to know that someone took the time to respond.
  Sorry, I just had to get stuff off my mind. Even though I sounded like a baby. It does help. This is theraputic. Plus, I considered all of you my friends.
I was on my way out to the garage last evening and I got another surprise! It was my friend! She was worried and stopped by and gave me a nice bear hug! :o) Loved it! She has always been able to cheer me up and make me laugh! :o) She couldn't stay, she had to do a few things before it got late. :o) If I could get a hug like that one everyday, I just know that I'd live longer! :o) What a freind she is. :o) Why is breathing just so hard to do? It really is. I know I'm depressed right now and I'm taking things out on others and don't mean to. Then I've got to just stop! Then breathe.
Well, I should go now...I've probably pissed some people off.


chat2missie said...

Your grandson is getting so big!  Enjoy your weekend.

lanurseprn said...

Big hugs are like therapy. Hope you enjoy your Sunday.

sugarsweet056 said...

Loved the pics! You look so happy & Gson is growing up fast! LOL Such a cutie pie.
Glad you're getting around to the Drs you need to see, & getting care.
Sorry about Jims Aunt, sending my condolences.
Sad to hear some people have been sending you cruel email, that's just awul!!! grrrr You have a right to put whatever you want in your journal! They can just stop coming if they don't like it!
I miss you visiting my journals, always could count on you to pay a visit when I made an entry (which is only wkly now). But I understand you don't feel like it. {{}}
I have yours & other journals on my Reader & get all the alerts that way. I can read the entire entry there. Then come to the journal if I want to leave a comment. Sometimes I simply have nothing to comment about, or come by & just say "have a good day", hoping to cheer you a little. But know I do read, & cont coming by when I feel like commenting on a paticular entry. :)
I love you my friend, have you in my prayers.
Big huggies,

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((((LISA)))))))))))))))))))))))Why would someone as nice as you are,gets hate email,i dont get it.Youa re right,this is your Journal,you have every right to say whats on your mind.Its good to get things off your mind.I love to get hugs.WHen I was working,me and my co workers all give eachother hugs,when we come and when we leave.One big hapy family.LOL.We all get along.My Boss took me to the Doctos the other day,to get the note right to go back to work.But She is very nice and looks after me.I love the pics.

siennastarr said...

I'm guilty of not always leaving a comment, Lisa, but I always read.  I don't leave comments in alot of journals, because sometimes, I just don't know what to say, or I have nothing to say.  It doesn't mean I don't care, because I do.

You are always in my prayers, whether you know that or not...

Gentle hugs
Jackie said...

let 'em get pissed... like you said it's your journal, your words and your life... it helps to get it out... I wish you the best and send you lots of good hugs...

sybiljb said...

Hi Lisa, Hope you are feeling better. I look forward to reading your journal and can't unstand why some people can send you cruel e-mail. I would say delete them. I don't comment much but I always read you. Later Syb.

eyesbaerle said...

The pictures are just adorable. It really shows how happy you are when your loved ones are around you. I am sorry to hear that some people write you cruel mails. I can't understand why people can be so mean. Try to ignore them and concentrate on the good people. I am thinking of you and wish you well. Hugs, Maria

pharmolo said...

In your position, I'd stop getting upset over those that are unfriendly or even hostile. I'd just leave them behind, you're in no shape to take all that on board. Good luck with the new neurologist.


ndnhunny30 said...

Hi hun I have gotten no alerts for what seems forever! I had to search for your journal just to see if you have wrote at all. I am sorry people are nasty to you because your journal isn't "Happy" all the time. This is your space and if you need to vent then vent away whenever you feel like it. NOONE can judge anything you say or feel until they have walked a mile in your shoes and dealt with the sicknesses and ailments you have. In my eyes you are a strong, beautiful woman who has had ALOT thrown on her plate. I think of you so often and have told you before I wish I could snap my fingers and make it all go away. Keep being you hun!
Love and hugs, Robyn

gehi6 said...

I trust that you are doing everything you can possibly do to visit your friends, too, but if you are too ill, visiting many is going to be impossible.  I am interested in the parnormal and your experiences and I like the fact that you are writing such a thorough account of your symptoms.  I also love your intereaction with your beautiful family and grandkids and the fact that you share them with us in videos and photos.  Andrew looks like such a happy baby.  You can just ell he gets lots of attention and is really a very healthy child.  I am so glad that your daughter and SIL seem like healthy vigorous people able to give these little boys a good childhood.  That should be comorfing to you and as for you, it is getting down right biizarre what happens to you at night.  I hope registeering my visit helps you to feel a little better.  I am sure that visits are theuroputic for you.  Gerry

courageoscat06 said...


i love the pictures. he is sooooooo cute, so is the cat!!!!!!
i am so sorry for jim.

love meg