Remember when I said that I really don't feel like writing in my aol journal anymore? Well, today you'll see why! I really don't like the way others treat you and "asumming" things about you that just are not true! It's really driving me crazy! It's like I said; I write for ME and not for anyone else! Is that too hard to understand? I honestly don't know how else I can say it! It just sucks!
This one person is "always" doing this same shit with me and I'm so fed up with her anticks! She does this all the time to me, but has never left a comment like she did to me, she usually writes me an email! She claims that I have her blocked from emailing me, I was going to copy and paste "ALL" of who I have blocked, but it wouldn't let me. But I had a lot of emails from her this morning when I logged on! hhmmmm, I wonder how she emailed me if she was blocked? I just can not take all the bullshit anymore that goes along with the stupid aol journals! And I don't understand when others will tell me..."Just go private!" NO! I'm NOT going to let anyone rule me and my life! Ever! Especially someone on line that has nothing better to do!
And yes, I am still sick. I don't understand why I haven't gotten any better. This is really concerning me! It's been over a month now. None of the 4 antibiotics have helped me at all, which I find strange, at least one of them would have. The only thing thats working is this liquid I take to break up my chest. That stuff started working the same day I started taking it! Cool!
On top of all that, my body is doing it's own thing once again! I don't know how long this relapse is going to be this time. Of course, I never know.
After taking some deep breathes and walking around the house a bit....I'm starting to feel better. Calming down a bit.
And the weird thing is....when I write stuff like I did this morning....no one comments in them, except a few, Like Guido. And everyone talks so much about how J-land is supposed to be so helpful to you and supportive! I'd love to see that one! I've seen it with the others that have cancer. Not trying to be crass, just stating what "I've" seen. And guess what....I'm a cancer serviver! At the age of 23 is when I had to have a full hysterectomy because of indometriosis that I had and on the out side of my uteris, cancer was starting to grow. I've thank God for letting me live. Plus being able to have my kids. It did take awhile until I got better, but I did get better! Thank God for that!
I'm leaving now....not feeling so good right now..ick!
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By The Beatles
Release date: 25 October, 1990