Thursday, December 13, 2007

writing and a video


Good morning. I want to welcome a few new readers as well....Welcome!

I got up pretty early this morning and not feeling too well. So I called to let them know to not have Monica, my physical therapist come this morning. My nurse comes today, and my Home Health Aide and my meals will be dropped off for the week. I'd much rather just go to bed and pull the covers over my head and disappear.

It's been raining here now for hours. I wonder what will come of it...sleet, snow or freezing rain? Oh well.
Not going anywhere.
I have a few things on my mind that has hurt me once again! And nothing I say helps, just makes it worse for me! Which in my mind it shouldn't! It's ass backwords and very hurtful. And he knows how much that hurts me and he only does it for one person, not even me, and NEVER has!

He did get good news yesterday and I'm very glad about that.
Christmas is what you'll see in the video. I've ordered them on credit. They are for my grandson. My stomachs in knots right now. I better keep my mouth shut or "I'll be in trouble again!"

I see that no one wants a card from me. Thats ok, I understand.
And thanks for you comments.

I can see that I've lost readers as well. Thats ok too. I'm not going to bring up my guestbook anymore, I got the hint! No one wants to sign it!
I would like to ask of you....if you read please leave a comment. Thank you.

I'm going to go now. I hope that you all have a great day! Ok?
Oh, I'm putting myself up for adoption, does anyone want to adopt me? I clean up after myself.

It wasn't a joke!




dca721 said...

I haven't signed your guest book because I've just read entries...
AND I didn't know how or take the time figure out how?
I think I need to get to your Main Page on your journal...but next time if it's still there.
I will sign it.
Don't be upset with time is small, my thoughts of you  GREAT BIG.
I took the day off today=need nap now, then clean house.
Tomorrow big day!  I am resigning...woke up this morning still seems like the right thing to do!
Probably will be the right thing for me tomorrow too.
Then maybe I can collapse and or clean house and put tree up...augh.
OFF for nap now.
Have a good day.

pharmolo said...

Hey Lisa,
I'm still here, even I do not comment, at which I can be a bit sloppy. My fault, not yours. I'm sorry things are still up-and-down with DH, but sadly, I'm not really surprised, bearing in mind what lies at the root of it all. And by that, I do NOT mean you. Sorry life continues to be painful for you.


my78novata said...

I cant pull up full pages and get to the guest books because of Journals with graphics in them take so long. I really cant seem to figure them out either when people have put links in I just dont get what they areabout. I mean you sign here you sign there it all shows you stopped by . I guess its one of thoethings IM in la la land about. well anyway...... Its been really hecktic around here with Thanksgiving and then hanukkah and we are doing some major remodeling rarrranging. I have posted some about it in my Journal. I understand that you can not make it around to mine and that its hard for you so I do hope you understand that it is just as hard for me with five in this house and Im trying to keep things taken care of and orderly and on top of that my grandmother and my parents I assist them. It keeps me very busy with only a few hours sleep. I just cant fit it all in even though I would love to. I hope you will understand that like I just cant make it around to everything and do everything> IM ONLY ME. and There is only so much me can do.

pharmolo said...

Having watched the video, I'm just wondering how on earth you manage to negotiate those stairs in your condition. And how you manage everything in the first place...

kirkbyj05 said...

My Dear Lisa,

I'm sorry I don't always go to your main journal as I just look at your alerts each time you send them.  Time is the motivater really.  I haven't got time to leave a message there and reply to your entry as well.
I'm sorry I haven't given you my address, as I live in England, which I thought might cost too much for you to send a card to me.  I know it does from this end as it costs over two dollars (£1. 30) to send from here.  I personally couldn't afford to send an individual one to all my new friends in the States and elsewhere.  I have over 70 cards to send each year to family and friends already.  It soon mounts up.  So I was being considerate of you and not trying to avoid your pleasure in giving cards out.
I held my breath when you climbed the stairs on your own and was worried that you might fall whilst holding the camera.  Please be carefull!
I'm sorry you are feeling miserable.  You have every reason to but please try and stay happy and positive.   We are all still here...its just a busy time of year for shopping for gifts etc.  Or as in my case I am indoors nursing a virus.
Please take care.  Saying prayers for you always.
I will send you my address in an e-mail.
Take care
Jeanie xx

chat2missie said...

I read all your entries but usually only comment about once a day.  I would love to exchange cards with you.  I'll send you my address email.

astoriasand said...

Well Lisa I am sorry to read how upset you are about certain things.I know right now people are very busy and I am one of them people.This doesn't mean people do not care.We do care but I follow believe it or not almost fifty journals and I try to get to them every day well this last week I am sorry but I havn't been able to keep up with them all.The reason being the pressures of Christmas and also not feeling too good myself.If I cannot get bye I am sorry if it upsets you.I think nowadays it is getting far too expensive to be mailing abroad.I know how much cost because both my daughter and son live abroad.I have just posted one small parcel and in Dollars it would have been $60,so please try and understand.We try to understand you and I realy do feel sorry you are like you are.I alays try and leave you a ncie comment.I don't like guest book signing.Sometimes there is always another catch  like your e. mail address needed etc so I do not sign them.Someone once told me they are full of spyware.So I do not know.I hope you have a better day today.Don't be climbing them steps it's far too dangerous for you I feel.Take Care God Bless Kath

sweetestsin52605 said...

I think I will watch teh video later. lol. Don't want to spoil it for Kayden. ;)
Yes, you are going to be going somewhere, and it is tomorrow morning!! My ultrasound! I will call you later on today after my appt. at Miami Jacobs.
I love you mom and I am sorry that people are being, well, people. I posted a bulletin on myspace asking if anyone wanted a christmas card then to message me their address. This was like 2 weeks ago I think. I only got ONE. lol. Oh well. No one wants christmas pictures os us to have. lol.
Love ya mom!

kamdghwmw said...

Hey Lisa! I am still here. Please come by and chat with me sometime!
I would love for you to send me a Christmas card. I thought that with all your readers that you would have a long list of card to send out. So far this year I have gotten a whole four cards! Don't laugh! LOL

lisa41076 said...

Awwwww Lisa I am so sorry you are upset, I would love to send you my address for a card but I think you have it already, if not I'll email it to you, Love You Lisa XO

lanurseprn said...

Hi Lisa,
Be careful on those stairs!! OMG I was worried about you watching the video. I'm not doing very many cards this year. Only a few. It's just hard for me to sit down and get 'em done. Don't take it personally. ok?
Hope you have a good day and are able to rest.

redpoppy007 said...

Those steps look careful, and hope you feel better.

gehi6 said...

Oh I alwaiys enjoy coming to your journal as there are always interesting things there.  I have grown so fond of that lilttle boy. I think I have adopted him, too.  He is so cute to watch dance, drum or whatever he wants to do, with such energy.  He must be like the energizer bunny for you, giving you energy with all his zip.  I think kids do that!  I am sorry you still have people who can make you unhappy.  That's not fun.  I am hoping you will have a very Merry Xmas.  I did't send my address because I thought you must have it, but I will send it again just in case!  I want you to be happy for Xmas.  I posted some fascinating stories from a medium, Tony Stockwell, in my journal this morning you might be interested in.  Love,  Gerry

ajquinn354 said...

Lisa, think folks are just overwhelmed this holiday season with all that is going on in each of our households, etc. know for me, the holidays will be here and gone before I have it all together this season.  Watched your video dear, was not easy hearing your brething and knowing you were going up and the down those steps with your having some dizziness was scary.  Gee be careful dear. Your words sounded like you were down, don't let anything get to you, just go with the flow, it's what all of us have to do dear. I've signed your guest book several times, don't know where my message has gone.  Arlene (AJ)

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mdplowright said...

Hello Lisa, I read your journal everyday, although I don't comment very often, but I have signed your guest book.   I would love to get a card from you but I live in the U.K. and the postage is so expensive.   I have just sent a parcel to my grandson who is living in Arizona, and because there was a letter in the parcel the post office wanted to charge another £10, needless to say, I took the letter out and emailed him instead.   I love seeing videos of your grandson, he's lovely, and can't he play the drums!!   Mags

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))I got your Christmas card,thank you sooooooo much,it put a smile on my face.Not sure if you got yours or not.I would adopt you.I am sorry you arent feeling good and that your having a hard time with someone right now.Just know,I am always praying for you.

su2rfree said...

Hi, I am new to the public journals and read your daily thoughts.....I don't remember what year exactly I was diagnosed with sever RA maybe 2002 but I went from totally fine to almost completely incapacitated in 2 weeks.  It was so painful that I could barely dress myself.  They put me on 30 mg of prednisone a day for 2 months till I could see a rheumatologist and that caused drug indused type 2 Diabeties!  The specialist got me back to "near" normal and working again in 6 months and at the time I thought that time was an eternaty but after alot of research I discovered I was very lucky the average time was 5 years!  It's been hard because even at 49 I still had problems with authority and being compliant!  I was a free spirit and now I had a box full of pills to take and rules to follow!  I was told "think of it as a life style change"  well that stunk, no matter how I see it my life was full of rules and restrictions!  Geez, I hated that and still have a strong dislike for it still!  Sometimes it's ok to embrace our feeling even if it's sad, angry blah, blah, blah!  It  was difficult  for me to understand this but often by embracing the feeling it helps us get thru it!  Think about it and I'll talk to u soon!  Mari

jmoqueen said...

(((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))) to you Lisa xx


queeniemart said...

i hope we dont get that snow they are forecasting. I signed your guest book weeks ago.....and i DID want the card you sent, thank you for sending it. Hope you are doing well today.

heavenlybama said...

As usual...I'm behind in alerts.  I think I signed our guestbook.  I'll have to go look.  Thank you for Cmas card.  I rec'd it 2 day ago.  I don't comment in every entry but I do read them.  Sorry DH is giving you probs again.

misswings60 said...

I'll adopt you honey...Oh!!! wait a minute...Your all ready mine LOL!!!! I Love You honey. I'm concerned about you going up and down those stairs,holding that camera. I know how those stairs are. They are hard for me to go up and down. Please take care of yourself honey I worry about you 24/7. Love,Love Mom