Friday, July 4, 2008

~An understanding.

I love this graphic for what it says. Thats me, now. Nothing can stop me now from dancing again, because it's a part of my memories now, the good ones! :o)
I haven't been on line for a bit. I just didn't have the energy to. People that know me knew I really wasn't feeling good at all. No, not any of my illnesses, just so many other things. (well, a few pangs of my illnesses)

I didn't even have any doctors appointments to go to. :o) Yay! Accually, I don't have any for this month at all. That feels strange! lol
Dh and I were just talking last night, not about really anything in specific. I told him about this lady that came on Monday morning to talk to me. I told him what it was about as well. I brought up an idea of mine to rearrange my two rooms. He agreed. We now have 3 empty rooms up stairs. Thats going to help.
I started talking about how I felt about leaving this house. Because I hear others with something that "will" help me. When I say that "I'm just too tired," they think sleepy tired. Thats not at all the case.

When I was talking to dh last night, he finally understood what I meant. It is hard to explain what I mean. My body is tired, but my soul is not. I'm ready.
I have this certain peace in my soul thats so content. :o) And I like it this way. I love the feeling that I have thats ready. :o)

Thats me, my soul is still so young at heart. I still play when my body lets me. My grandsons are what I live for, as well as my son and daughter. It's just me here now in the daytime. My son worked, but was only called in when they had more parts to do. He's afraid that with whats going on in this world, he might not be able to keep his job and be let go. I pray that that does not happen. This week, he moves out and lives now in another city. Now that really upset me. I know he needs to go, but I guess I'm an old motherhen that likes to keep her chicks and chicklets either living here or very close to me. I of course cried my eyes out. I'm getting better. Its just so funny how I can get! LOL :o) Sometimes I make myself laugh! :o)
My dughter and her cute little family went on a vacation to Gatlinburg again. This time, they took the babies. ;o) Everything went great. My oldest grandson (hes 3) loved riding the elevater! It has glass on one side so you can see the inside of the hotel. :o) I'm just so thankful that they were fine. She did get some pictures. I'll find them and post them. :o)
I do need to go. Dh went to the little carnival the city has on every 4th of July to get chicken dinners and sugar waffles! mmm mmm! :o) It's sitting out there in the kitchen! :o)
Love you all! :o)

The grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.

- Allan K.

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ajquinn354 said...

Lisa glad you are at peace in your heart and soul and that you were able to talk with DH and he now understands. Enjoy each day, make the most of it, it's what keeps us all going I believe.  Know it's hard to see you son move on, but that's part of kids growing up and reaching for their goals, etc.  Sounds like your daughter and family had a great time at Gatlinburg, always was one of our favorite places to visit.  Though must say the traffic the past few years there has been horrendous....maybe the higher gas prices will keep a few folks away. I'm just not one of those bumper to bumper, sit and wait in traffic folks. Have a good day dear, happy 4th to you. Arlene (AJ)

dca721 said...

Hi Lisa,
I love the graphic too.
Food from fair sounds yummy.
We are not doing anything special today.
I slept until noon, I cannot believe it.
I've been stressed lately too.
Wishing you a great day.

eyesbaerle said...

I am wishing you and your loved ones a happy 4th of July.
I understand your motherly feeling toward your son. I went through it myself... as so many other Mom's did before us. I remember the feelings they come with it.
I wish him the best. - And I wish of course the best for you as well. I am thinking of you a lot. Can't wait to see the pictures you will post later on.
Take care, take it easy and have a blessed day. Hugs, Maria

buggieboo1 said...

Happy 4th  Keep Safe


gehi6 said...

Sorry to hear that your son had to leave for another city.  My son Raymond went to Utah so that was a parting, but he is doing better up there and can live cheaper than he can here, so that is the best place for him. Yes, a lot of jobs could be at risk now days. We are going through a big adjustment to the diminishing of fossil fuel, I am sure, but it has to come, if not later than sooner.  We will have to get out the bicycles!  I have always thought people were very wasteful with running their big cars here and there over the smallest errands.  It is good to hear that you are in a better place now as to what lies ahead.  I was just reading this story this morning about a guy who was in a terrible wreck at 38 years old.  He had no pulse for around an hour and a half when a minister came and was inspired by God to pray for him.  He described his experience in heaven for those ninety mnutes.  He said it was the most wonderful place.  He hated to come back to pain and agony for months, but he did not want to leave his young wife and children. He also experienced a miraculous healing at the time of all internal injuries and head injuries, but the rest of him was a huge mess.  He said he knows he was in heaven and it was a wonderful place, so he will never be afraid again to die.  I just hope you can stick around to watch that precious new baby grow.  If you have to go let it be at some future date, because I think you need more time to prepare.  Your attitude is good, however.  And an inspiration.  Gerry  

cuteallison1980 said...

I do understand what you are thinking and how your feeling.  Being content is a good thing if it is a positive in your life.  I do hope you have a good July 4th and maybe some firewords will brighten your evening. : )  Luv ya!


specialadyfink said...

Hey I want some of that sugar waffle-oh double ymmm.
I worry bout you ya know.......many big hugs

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))))))))I ope you have a HAPPY 4th of JULY.I wish that all of your family could live righI next door to you,because  I know it would make you happy.Love you lotds.

chat2missie said...

I know you feel ready, but girlfriend, you ain't going any where for a long, long time!