Thursday, January 6, 2005

Nothing different.

Yesterday, my hips and legs felt a bit better. I was able to walk with my walker. By saying I "felt better," doesn't mean that I'm cured! Ok? It means just that...a bit better. With all of this rain we've been getting, seems to be making me hurt a little worse. Something like when it gets too cold. I don't have arthritis, so I have no idea as to why this happens. I'm still learning. I'd like to thank all of the people that gave me positive feedback from my last entry. I feel so bad that they have been going through the same thing as I am. I know how it feels. It's like when you're going to get married and you're told that you'll lose most of your friends.....you end up with a disease that isn't curable...and you lose the rest of them! Why? Like I've said, I haven't changed. I'm just a person that looks "ok" on the out side, and is in pain on the in side....thats all. I'm a person thats on a mission to find all the information that I can about fibromyalgia. Anything wrong with that? You'd think that the people in your life would want to do the same. But...in the same breath, you dare say anything about you, or about how you are feeling...they're down your throat with...."I know how you feel!" Ya' think?! Give me a break! Or, you're whinning! But...talk about where you've went, what you've baught, or what you've gotten...then it's a great conversation for them! It sucks! How about....doing what you've said you would do to help us out, or, ask if there is anything you can do to help us?! Hmmm. I've asked that question...."Is there anything that I can do to help you?" And then DO IT! I've always thought that you were always suppose to treat others the same way that YOU would like to be treated. I guess some people don't see it that way. But...I'm not changing that thought...I'm still going to treat others the way I would like to be treated....then maybe it might give them something to think about. Or not!

3 comments:

shelt28 said...

I know your frustration with friends. I have lost my best friend due to this. She has been "too busy" to care or listen.  Perfect stranger have cared more for what I am going thru than her. I try not to harbor bad feelings for her. She is not interested in what I am going thru and I can't make her be. So we have drifted apart. Everthing happens for a reason. We just don't know why yet.

Take Care.
Carolyn

seraphoflove9001 said...

I'm so sorry to hear that. :o( It is hard to get family memebers to at least acknowledge that you are still the same person, just in a silent pain. It does seem that family and friends have drifted apart from me as well. I don't know why. Because I can't dance, walk as fast, or have to take my walker with me....I'm here, and always will be, and always have been. I still have feelings....and they still get hurt. I would have never thought that being diagnosed with this disease, my life would have turned into what it has. And it's so hard to get family to understand that you're in pain....not mad...because of the look in your eyes, or on your face. I do want to thank you for your responce. It makes me feel like I'm not alone anymore. I do wish the best for you. :o)

seraphoflove9001 said...

Thank you for your responce. Yes I have, and it's not just my friends, it's family as well. I do relate what you mean by just getting out, and being happy to "just get out." :o) It does feel good! But, yes, I have, and they are either too busy, or, no time. It was nice of your friend to talk to you about the situation. No one talks to me about anything. They automatically feel that I'm either wrong in even feeling the way I do, or think I'm mad. I'm not. Just want communication going. :o) Thank you again....gentle hugs to you. :o)