Wednesday, April 30, 2008


I just don't really give a dam anymore. I honestly don't know how much more of this I can really take. Ok, we all know one thing....I'm in pain, that goes with what I have. I did get reliefe yesterday when the nurse was here. But that pain is back again. I'm so tired of crying and just down right hating my life! Yes, I am thankful for what I do have. I'm just sick of this. My nurse called me and told me that my doctor WON'T let me have a catheder! And the reason of her desiscion? Because I COULD GET AN EFFECTION!!!!!!!! oooh! Oh boy! Like THAT would be any worse than what I'm going through NOW?!? My nurse also asked about the Lasix IV. I don't even have to say it. I just sat and cried my eyes out like a big baby! I called my doctor to see if I could explain the why and hear the why's from her!She told me that it COULD be possible "IF" I had a cath in for 3 days that I COULD get an effection!!!! Oh boy! And she won't lewt me have just the cath either because of the same thing!!! I told hwr that I'm in pain nowe and what would be tyhe differeence? Sjhe doidn't HAABVE an answer for taht!!! Then she tells me tgat there is a new dioctor in thta office and she wants me to CHANGE doctrsas! All I kmnow is I'M SOOOOOOOOO DONR right now! I even aslked about doinh it i the hospotl! Nopr! I'm just si tired of this and crying. I'n crying right now and its so hard to trpy through mu teras. All I know now is thet i'm DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



gehi6 said...

Oh, oh, I am so sorry.  Maybe you should change doctors, change to anyone who might be moe understanding and give you more relief. Gerry

heavenlybama said...

I'm sorry Lisa.  This is ridiculous!  Maybe the dr. will order that the nurse catherize you while she is there?  I just don't understand these doctors!

ajquinn354 said...

Lisa so sorry you are going thru all of this, could be with all the health troubles you have that this would cause further problems for you.  Wish you could get another doctor not necessarily associated with the ones you have, but someone new. Know we all wish we could help ease your pain dear.....try to keep your spirits up. Arlene (AJ)

specialadyfink said...

You really don't 'want' an infection there..even in the hospital they have to keep a close eye on patients with caths and I've been told they can get grown around and have to have surjery to remove.Wish there was more they could do-but a lillte bedside manners goes a long way-obviously they weren't taught that.
There are no magic words to make this all go away dammit and none to make you feel better or feel better about the situation or I'd use them all on you.
I feel helpless--know that I care!!

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pharmolo said...

You do have a bunch of numbskulls looking after you, Lisa. Catheters need changing daily (I think), which helps to reduce the risk of infections. You need changing doctors again? Sounds like the last one couldn't bother his/her backside for you at any rate. I don't blame you for being upset and fed up, but why can't they admit you to hospital for a few days to hitch you up to the IV Lasix there and drain it all off? They're absolutely incompetent and inept. Hope you feel better now.

imgr8phil said...

I just feel so badly for you that they won't do their best to help you.  They aren't worried about the water build up, they aren't worried about the pain, but damn it she won't get an infection because we won't let her have what could help her.  You are in my thoughts and prayers as always.  Take care.


peytonswater said...

I am completely speechless.  So many entries of yours I read and I just sit here in a wow factor.  I am reading a book called a NEW LIFE, finding your prupose. YOU have a purpose here and nobody truly knows what it is but God himself.  I think some of us reach the time in our life where we know what our purpose is and some don't feel they even have one.  We all do and so do you.  You can't give up, there is no such thing sweetie. I dont' know what you go threw or how impossible it is for you.  I do know that there are many of us are HEAR for you.  I know we don't talk much but I would be there at a drop of a hat at your house if you needed, I am truly not far away. I wish I could do something for you.
Much Luv

mortonlake said...

lisa          my heart bleeds for you sweety         hope and pray you find  relief     no more words              sorry  inadequate            love  mort  xxxxx

dca721 said...

Awww Lisa,
I am so sorry.
I wish I could do something to help you.
YOUR doctor sure is a dumb fuck.
I wish you would admit yourself to the hospital, I know you hate to go to the emergency room, but maybe get yourself admitted,  wouldn't dh take you?
I am thinking about you dear.
I wish I could wave a magic wand and have it made all better.
Love you,