Today my nurse came. I really thought it would be a "good" thing. I was wrong.
Before I even got out of bed, I checked my blood pressure and it was 164/144 and my blood sugar was 217, my pulse 107. I was pretty concerned about this. I knew she was on her way here, and then she would see how bad all of that is and see that my body is still swollen like this for alittle over a week now.
Boy was I dreaming...then I woke up real fast. She did nothing and was basically here to put my medicines in the thingy. When she was done, I asked her about either a much higher dose of Lasix, or try another one. I also expressed how I felt about putting all of my "trust" in the "medical" field. And that something has to be done to help me "now!" She comes over to me and got down on her knees and said, "What do you expect me to do!" I'm thinking, You did NOT just say that! I told her that for one thing, you could be a voice for me and an avacit (sp) for me with my doctors that will actually help me. I couln't beleive she said that. Wouldn't you be a bit concerned about the vitals I took before I got out of bed? I don't think I'm over reacting. I just lost it! I started crying. I couldn't stop. I was sitting here thinking; is this all the medical industry give to me or even help? What do I need to do to get any kind of help? The ER won't help either, like I've said, they're just a band-aid place. No kidding.
I feel so alone still....and this melt down I'm having! My nerves are litterally shot! I feel like I've went through all of my choices and up agains't a brick wall.
I did call the company that she works for and asked for another nurse. I also let them know what she had said and how she was reacting to me today. I will NOT take it when someone is in my home and to talk to me like that, and to treat me in that manner. I just can't take much more of this bullshit. I miss my best friend really bad and my grandsons.
I'm going now.