My day has been up and down. I'm doing my best to be more up than down.
Did you know that crying your heart out (no pun intended), doesn't do anything to make you feel better. In fact, It's made me have alot more pains now. That 'shocking' thing that happens that I still think it has something to do with the MS. And of corse, the fibro.
I've been in my bed to get my legs and feet to go down. They still are the same. I don't get it.
Well, My nerves are totaly shot. I don't have anyone to talk to about this ( the lquid in my left lung), so theres nothing I can do about that. I've cryed all day today. I just added this to my illnesses page. You can click on the proper graphic and it'll take you there.
I feel like I'm in some freaked out dream and I want to wake up. It's not fair that your soul is much younger than the flesh (body). But I guess thats just something we all have to go through in our lives.
When I lay down in my bed, I'm gasping for air, even with the oxygen. So I have alot of pillows and I just put them in a confortable position. That helps a bit.
I don't know what to do. I'm really trying to hang in there. I'm slipping. This information has me going into a spiral. A real melt down! Add all of this to my already melt down! I never knew one could have so many tears to cry. And then of course my 'real' life, Don't want to go there right now. And here I thought I could count on _____! I guess not. I should just try and go to be. Hopfully I can sleep.
And please keep me in your prayers. Thank you.