I've forgotten to write about something that the doctor had told me.
I'm not sure how many of you know I'm anorexic. It started when I was 15, and I'm 44 now.
The damage stays around and lurks in you thinking pattern. It is hard to stop that way of thinking. I abused diorretics. I never purged. Just if I wanted to lose a quick few pounds, I just knew how to do it without anyone knowing it.
Yes, I am awhere that I am a woman with weight. What caused this is the medication. Which depressed me because I've never had a weight issue. My doctor,(whom I've only see twice now), Straight out told me that the reason I am having all of these illnesses happen is because I'm obese!!! Dh was there and he told her that eating wasn't the case and tried to explain things to her for me. Nope.....it's all because I'm obese! Nice doctor huh?! In my opinion, I feel in "NO" way should a doctor (or anyone) tell "YOU" that anything wrong with you is because of a weight issue, or anything!
I couldn't sleep at all that night because I was fighting those feelings again. And the next day I was going to get some laxitives. Those were my choice.
The one thing that I wish I could do is to report her about this. You do not say that to anyone. I'm doing my best to fight it again. This is very hard on me. Everytime I eat, my stomach feels sick. <blah> I don't want this anymore.
Since when is it ok to be a 'professional' and act like you don't have any sense?
So, I'm fighting another evil pest. I hope I win.