Thursday, June 12, 2008

~Anorexia

I've forgotten to write about something that the doctor had told me.
I'm not sure how many of you know I'm anorexic. It started when I was 15, and I'm 44 now.
The damage stays around and lurks in you thinking pattern. It is hard to stop that way of thinking. I abused diorretics. I never purged. Just if I wanted to lose a quick few pounds, I just knew how to do it without anyone knowing it.
Yes, I am awhere that I  am a woman with weight. What caused this is the medication. Which depressed me because I've never had a weight issue. My doctor,(whom I've only see twice now), Straight out told me that the reason I am having all of these illnesses happen is because I'm obese!!! Dh was there and he told her that eating wasn't the case and tried to explain things to her for me. Nope.....it's all because I'm obese! Nice doctor huh?! In my opinion, I feel in "NO" way should a doctor (or anyone) tell "YOU" that anything wrong with you is because of a weight issue, or anything!
I couldn't sleep at all that night because I was fighting those feelings again. And the next day I was going to get some laxitives. Those were my choice.
The one thing that I wish I could do is to report her about this. You do not say that to anyone. I'm doing my best to fight it again. This is very hard on me. Everytime I eat, my stomach feels sick. <blah> I don't want this anymore.
Since when is it ok to be a 'professional' and act like you don't have any sense?
So, I'm fighting another evil pest. I hope I win.


Lisa


 



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7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Lisa, you should know that being overweight is the cause of many many problems in this society. Everything from Arthitis, to Congestive Heart failure, to Diabetes, all are aggravated by being overweight. I have issues that I wouldn't have if I lost about 70lbs. It's just a fact of life.  There are some Cancers that have been associated with being obese, too. So I'm not sure what you could report the Doc about. The Docs say that so we can be aware. I'm not defending them. Some of them are real assholes.
Have a good night.
Pam

Anonymous said...

No, I think you are right, that this doctor should not be saying anything to you that is brutal and unfeeling.  I think doctors should remember we are all human beings, too, and they don't have the license to be brutal which will do little good anyway.  It is obvious to me that being confined and unable to walk has a lot to do with weight gain.  In any case I think you are extremely honest about what you do and a doctor would get a lot further with you just by being civilized and respectful of your feelings. Gerry

Anonymous said...

Thank you Gerry, thats exactly how I feel about it as well.

Anonymous said...

Lisa the doctor could have been more diplomatic in her words, but weight gain has many many health problems associated with it, including cancer, diabetics, heart problems. Too many people are heavy and don't think it has a bearing on their overall health when it does...it can be the cause of serious health issues. Weight  issues are a leading cause of most health problems developing. Arlene (AJ)

Anonymous said...

My daughter is a recovering anorexic.  I know how you feel about food all too well!
Missie

Anonymous said...

(((((((((((((((((LISA)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))She should be reported.I aggree with you,no Doctor should ever say that to a person.I hope and pray everything goes alright.

Anonymous said...

You will win no matter what Lisa.  You are a winner no matter what anyone says.  I want you to know that common sense isn't dead, you have it, I have it, lots of people have it . . . just find the people that possess it.  Have a happy weekend.  Luv ya!

Allison