Monday, September 5, 2005
I don't know whats next.
Yesterday was just as bad, if not worse then the day before. I took 2 Tylenol 3, and waited for them to help. All they did was make me a bit tired. Thats ok. My daughter and my grandson were all in my bed. We put his dvd in for him to watch, and my daughter and I played checkers. It helped me to be able to pass some time away. :o) I love them both so much. :O) I found 2 more new places with muscle cramp "lumps." One is on the side of my left wrist, and the other on my right lower arm. Then of course I have so many on the bottoms of my feet sticking out..it's gross to look at. :o( My feet and ankles look lumpy. I'm still not able to walk very far now. I prayed to not take away my being able to walk. I wouldn't know what to do if that happened. Which right now, it seems to be happening. :o( So much has been taken from me from having this horrid disease. Except for my faith. Even my son came home yesterday to check on me. :o) I have wonderful kids. :o) They are both worried. When thay are around, I try to not show how much pain I truly am in. But lately I haven't been able to even do that. So they are seeing the true me in my pain. :o( I am still able to walk a bit around my house, but not for very long. I have a bad feeling that this disease is getting worse, like it has before. Nothing has been helping me at all. I would love to just get in a hot tub to try to feel better. But that isn't going to happen for a long time. :o( I wanted to save up enough money to get a hot ub room at one of our Hotels in town so I could just spend some time to relax there. That will be awhile as well. :o( Not enough money right now. I prayed again this morning to not take away my being able to walk. I did get a small nap in yesterday. I got up feeling the same. I'm not able to get comfortable anymore to sleep. I got up at 4:00 this morning. 5 hours of sleep is pretty good for me. :o) I just hope that my body will show mw signs of getting better today. :o) Thank you all for your incouraging commetents. :o) They honestly do keep me going. :O)