Tuesday, August 16, 2005

:o(

Yesterday was the most painful day I've had in a long time. :o( I had to use my wheel chair. My doctors appointment is today. I'm in a full body exacerbation. I have muscle cramps everywhere. And they are lumpy. When I say lumpy, I'm talking about you can actually see them coming from under my skin. I have the lumpy ones on my neck, upper chest, shoulders, back, lower back, my arms, and my thighs. :o( It's pretty gross to see, and very painful when I'm like this. Instead of being on my own pain scale from 1-10, I'm feeling an actual hard 12! :o( My neighbor and my daughter watched over me yesterday, and took care of me. I'm so grateful for them. :o) The night before, my best friend came over in the evening and surprised me. She came over just to help me get in a tub of hot water so I could feel better. :o) She's so busy right now, and took time out to do this great thing for me! :o) I just couldn't thank her enough. :o) But, needless to say, it felt good right afterwards, then I went back into this mess but worse now. I don't even have words to describe how this actually feels. I cried a lot yesterday. The pain just gets so bad that tears just start rolling down my face. This morning is only a bit better. I'm now maybe a soft 12 to a hard 11. :o( I do hope that everyone else is feeling good. I would never want anyone else to feel this way. Ever. God bless you all. :o)

1 comment:

missboogerhead said...

I am sorry!  I wish there was something I could do.  But I am limited to sending you hugs and prayers.
~Miss O