Friday, August 5, 2005
What a day.
Yesterday was a very, very painful day for me. When my physical therapist came, she had to rub out so many muscle cramps! I'd say it was 98% of my whole body that she had to do! Boy did it hurt bad. From the bottoms and tope of my feet, ankles, calves, and kness and of course my thighs and hips. Then both of my sides, shoulder blades and shoulders, my whole arms inculding both hands top and bottom. All of my back, and my upper part of my bum. The only thing that was not touched were my face, and private matters. Only two parts of my whole body was not touched! It hurt so bad. My pain level is a 9. :o( Right now, my right arm is doing this numb thing on me, where it's half numb and I can't hardly feel. gggrrr! I do know that this won't last for ever. I have so many things that I need to get done, but I still can't do them. My mom did help me change my bedding when she dropped me off from the doctors appointment. I still need help though. With everyones work hours here, it just leaves me and Nena to ourselves, and I can't expect her to do too much because of the baby. It makes it hard to ask for help, because I have and either they are too busy in their own life, or with someone else, or just wants to be alone. When it would only take a few hours. I'll keep asking. :o) If everyone only knew how much pain I'm in everyday, and the help I need to get this room done to help me be able to walk through it again, maybe they would actually help me out a bit. It just sucks so bad when there are others that are able to help but chose not to because they think I already have it because I have other people that live here. But that doesn't mean anything, they have their jobs and things to do also. One of these days, I'll mean something to someone enough for them to actually notice that, YES....I AM IN A LOT OF PAIN.....AND IT WOULD BE NICE FOR A FEW HOURS OF THEIR TIME! It just kind of hurts your feelings when it seems that by having this horrid disease, and you look ok on the out side, others think that you must be feeling ok. NOT! My feelings have been hurt by this and a lot of other things lately. Sorry for "rambling" on, just needed to vent a bit. I really hope that no one else has to go through this. God Bless you all. :o)