Saturday, November 26, 2005

SSDD

Yesterday was just another day to me. I'm just so glad that I had such a good time on Thursday. I so needed it. Now everything is back to the same old stuff. I still have alot on my mind about a certain matter that has not been settled with my mom. As soon as that situation is over, my stress level shoulf go way down. Then my body can feel a bit better. My massage therapist came at 4:00 yesterday instead of in the morning. And YEPPERS....It hurt like hell! My husband was here and heard me scream and yell. After she left, he asked if I was ok, and I told him that this is what I go through everytime she comes. He helped me to sit down and got things that I needed. :o) He knows that I'm in pain everyday, but I don't think he realized what I have to go through with my therapist. He knows now. It hurt him to see me like that. He just kept asking me if there was anything he could do for me, and then he would stop himself and say, "I'm sorry, I know that there isn't anything." That was so sweet of him to help as much as he did. :o) Of course, I didn't do anything the rest of the day. I just sat on my chair and watched t.v. She even had to massage the palms of my hands. I had 3 in my right, and 2 in my left. So needless to say, I was having a hard time using my hands. It also seemed that I was having a pretty hard time yesterday with this "fibor fog." I would be talking, and then I'd lose what ever it was I was going to say. Thats so frustrating to me. So, I just stoped talking. It made me feel better. It gets so bad at times, I feel so stupid about myself. Even though I know I can't help it, it just really gets to me. Oh well, thats just apart of my life. I guess thats all for now. God bless you all. All comments are welcomed. :o)

2 comments:

soupergirl68 said...

Lisa Im sorry that you are being put thru this I was going to say going thru this but thats not exactly right because someone has put you thru this so u have no choice, I wish I had the answers for you but I dont. Again people who put you thru this are being very seflfish and not thinking of you I guess you need to rethink if these people are worth your pain. Maybe just let them go and if you want to be there for them when they need you then thats for you to decide then.

seraphoflove9001 said...

I'm begining to think the same way. It's sad that I'm the one that takes the wrap for it all. This time, I'm not and will fight back to prove that I am telling the truth, and someone else isn't! It does really hurt me a lot too. It's just like the neighbor situation, I was caught in the middle of "their" lies amoung them! I can't do this anymore. The pain is too unreal for these games.
Lisa