Friday, November 11, 2005

What a day.....

I went to bed last night at 10:00 and got up at 3:00. Not bad, more sleep then the night before. Which I'm hoping will help this pain. I still can't believe how this feels! Again, I never knew anyone could have pain like this. My husband helped me into a hot bath last night hoping that it would help ease the pain somewhat. It felt goo while I was in it, but when I got out, it seemed to feel worse, and was more swollen then it had been all day! That part I don't understand. You'd think it would have helped. I don't know what else to do about it. I'm just going to ride out this wave as well. This one feels like a big one too. I still can't get that letter out of my head either. Thats probably another reason why I'm in more pain. That letter really upset me. Plus, there were things in it that didn't make any sense. Which made it harder to get it out of my head. I have a strong seeling that her husband doesn't know about the letter. Only because of some of the things that were written and how. I know I have to let it go, but for some reason, I can't. It really threw me for a loop, and came out of no where. Oh well. I am going to try and put a lawaway in for Christmas today. I hope I'll be able to get dressed and drive. I could reall use to get out of this house for a few hours. :o) If I can't, I'll try to do it tomorrow. :o) Well, thats about it for now. I do appreciate all of the comments. Thank you so much! Keep them coming. :o) Gentle hugs.


lifeis2short4me said...

I dont know what your situation is so I am just sharing my own experiances.  I have loaned a friend money several times and although it does not "hurt" me to loan the money sometimes it does strap my pocket change a bit. Anyway we always make a payment arrangement for her to pay me back, I do this cause I know things are rough for her. She always gives me the payments that we have set up, yet several of the times, I see that she has extra money after giving me my payment and she goes out and buys new things for herself. This really hurts my feelings cause I feel as though she does not find me important enough to repay when she has some extra. There are times when I would like extra things also but am unable cause I loaned the money. Just because there is an arrangement does not mean you can not show appreciation for that person by paying back early if you have extra. Again dont know if this is your situation, just thought I would post it just in case it helps shed light on your situation. God Bless

seraphoflove9001 said...

Thank you. No, it wasn't our situation, but I do appreciate your help.
;o) I had already paid her all of what I owed. Then a few days later, I get a letter on my front porch with all of the nasty things wrote in it. When I "thought" things were all fine between us, and thats why it hurt me so badly. There were contradictions, and down right lies in this letter. My husband read it, and couldn't believe the letter either. It just came out of no where for the both of us. Thats why it hurt so bad. And I even took out of my Hot Tub Fund jar $80.00 to give to them to try my best to get it paid off. So, I just have no idea what to think about all of this. But thank you so much. :o)