Sunday, November 27, 2005

UUUUHHHHH!!!!!!

All I want to do right now is just scream as loud and as hard as I can! And ask, "WHY?!" I was having an ok day yesterday. My husband and I where putting Christmas things out, and he put the lights out side for me. I love this time of year. :o) I had to quit because of the pain in my upper stomach area, and in my back and hips. But we are going to finish it today. Then, I get a phone call from my daughter. She is visiting her relatives south of here. She went on line to check her email. Oh GEE, guess what she got?! ANOTHER email from our nieghbors!!!! WHY?! She has asked our nieghbor for a one of a kind picture back that she was holding for her for when she had room for it. She's had asked her weeks ago. And this was in the summer when "we" were friends. Since my daughter has moved, she wanted it. Well, The email said that they were going through their closet and "accidentally" threw it away! Ok, does that make sense? NO! If YOU knew you threw it away, then it's NOT an accident! How stupid do they think we are? And then to email that to her letting her know this?! It's never ending! I honestly don't know what to do. My daughter is very upset over this matter. It was something she can never have replaced. I'm livid! What do you do with neighbors like this? I have no idea! We don't talk to them or acknowledge them.


Then, my mom has hurt me once again! I did what she wanted me to do, and now she's acting like I'm the bad person! I just don't get it. We used to be very close...I guess she's changed her mind on that one too. And that really hurts me too. :o( What it all comes down to is she isn't speaking to my other sister because of my one sister that lives with her, and...she isn't telling her "friend" the truth about what she wanted me to do for her! So, from what I'm getting is that she has "chosen" -(for lack of a better word)-to assiated with only my sister that lives with her, because she says that she "needs" HER right now?! Not any of her other daughters?! So she's using the one thats living with her for help with money, and now just done with us? And we are the ones that she asked to do that favor for her! Now she doesn't want to face the fact that of what she's done to us. Or the truth about this situation! It's so confusing to me and my other sister! I guess she's done using us for what she wanted us to do. :o( So, yes my sister is very hurt and so am I! Plus, we are very confused over all of this shit with her! If I actuall knew what she is doing and why, maybe I'd understand why she has made such a choise, but she won't talk to me about it. Good Greif! She needs to tell the truth to my sister thats living with her and to her "friend!" Thats what would make this situation more clear and probably over with. Which I would love to have happen! Because I can't take this stress anymore! And my mom of all the people knows that!


And I was having such a good day yesterday until all of this bull starts up once again. I just don't know what to do about the neighbors. Any suggestions? And it seems that the situation with my mom is a lost case now. It really hurts. :o( If she only knew how much. :o( Today will be a better day! This stress has to pass! It's hurting my body very bad! My husband see's this and is not happy with any of these situations that are going on! He see's what it's doing to me. Thats why he's helping me with putting out the Christmas things this weekend. People- get a grip on your own lives and leave others out of it! God bless you all. Please all comments are welcomed.

9 comments:

alwaysasmilin62 said...

Do you ever have anything positive going on in your life - When one reads your journal, if it's not something going on with your illness, your mom, her friend, your neighbors or another one of your friends, their daughter or yours, your husband or even one of your own sisters, one would tend to think "KARMA" . Do you know what KARMA means? Because it seems to me your living it! If you say it's a Lost Cause or your over it - Then don't write about it.

seraphoflove9001 said...

Yes I do know what karma is. And yes, I've had it hit me back. I'm not sure if you read the top of my page, but it does say that I write about my life with fibro, and my life. I can't help some of the things that do go on in my life, but the things that I can help with, I do. I'm very sorry if my life isn't perfect. And you can't tell me that not one bad thing happens to you. Believe it out not, I've gotten emails from people thanking me because I've helped them through something. I also get emails from someone that encourages me to keep writing the way I do and to get it out so it will help my fibro. Do you know what fibromyalgia is? Do you realize that everyone has things that happen to them and just don't say anything about it and keep inside? I can't and I won't hold it in because of my disease. It helps me and the pain I go through everyday. Karma has hit me. But I'm going to sit back and wait for karma to hit the people that are doing these things to me. I'm not saying that I'm an inocent person that does no wrong, but in these situations, I haven't. Thats where karma will come into play with them.
Lisa

soupergirl68 said...

MAN ...ALWAYS SMILIN CAN I COME TO YOUR FAMILY CAUSE FROM WHAT YOU WROTE YOURS IS PERFECT!!!!! PLEASE. I f you dont like what you read why do you read it? if you want to have negative comments about what you read then do us a favor in our horrible family stop reading and commenting please.

seraphoflove9001 said...

Yea, it must be nice to live in a perfect world. And for someone to "pick and chose" out of what they read and make a comment about it isn't reading the whole entries. If you would like to know the whole stories, just email me. You can't tell me that you've never had a bad neighbor in your entire life, or something wrong go on in your family. This is a journal, and I write in it. I write whats going on in my life, just like it says at the top of the page. Obviously, you missed reading that part.
Lisa

apersonwithfibro said...

I don't mean to put my nose in this, but I strongly feel that I should. I too have fibromyalgia. I know exactly where this person is coming from. It has seemed to me, since I was diagnosed, that people, whether it be a family member or not, do treat you differntly then before you were diagnosed. Even friends and neighbors. I'm at home doing nothing, and out of the blue, someone has said that I've done something or had said something wrong. Which is not the case. It's a battle having this disease alone, and also having to deal with others that truly don't understand, or do not want to try to understand. Or to even get to know you. And yes, It does hurt, and that puts more stress on you. And the karma thing, I do believe in that. But when someone is inocent, they won't have to worry about that except for the ones that start the rumors. In my opinion, I feel that she is just trying to stick up for herself and writing to get most of this off of her chest. And what is wrong with that?

lifeis2short4me said...

I am not trying to sound mean or anything, I also have fibro along with some other things, but I dont have the constint problems that are being talked about in here. Yes fibro causes alot of things but it has nothing to do with how we treat others and how they treat us, they may not ask us to do as much with them (cause we cant) but it does not make them turn on us just to fight with us. I can understand where the person is coming from wanting to know if anything good ever happens to you. It does appear that every week there is something else, the problems all seem to be the same but the person is always diffrent, just seems a little strange that "everyone is out to get you" and you have nothing to do with it.
If "your" yard keeps flooding then my guess is that "your" pipes are broken, not your neighbors or your friends or your familys. and "you" need to take the responsibility. we cant always hide behind our fibro fog. Sick or not if we say or do things its still not right and they will come back to bite us in the but. if things keep happening, sooner or later we have to ask our selves maybe it is me? can everyone one around be insane except for me?  usually we dont like the answers we find, but all we can do is try to change the things we dont like. Again not trying to be mean just can see where that person is coming from. Just hope that tomorrow will be better!

seraphoflove9001 said...

No, you're not being mean. But however, I am not using my illness to hide behind. I had been asked by the people that I am talking about to do things for them, and I did. Now that things have went wrong in their lives, I was the one to blame. No, I don't understand it. And no, not eveyone is insane around me, and I do take responsabilty for my own actions. But when I do something as a favor for someone else, and something goes wrong on their end, it is not my fault. All that was asked from me if I could write a letter for someone, and I did because I have the time and they didn't. Something went wrong in their life, and now since I was involved, by typing the letter, I was put into their matters. Not fair to me at all. And my neighbors. I owed them money at the first of the month and have payed them back. Now, they will not leave this family alone. We have left them alone and my daughter and I have continued to get emails. Emails that doesn't make any sence to any of us. My husband is even very tired of this as well as I am. Thats what is going on that I am writing about. Ok? Nothing more, and no, I'm not hiding behind my illness nor think that everyone around me is insane. Yes, I do take responsabilty when it's mine to take! The person I typed the letter for needs to take her responsabilty, and the neighbors should find something else better to do. Thats it.
Lisa

soupergirl68 said...

Man is this pick on seraph day or what ? if all you people dont like what you read then stop reading ,this is a journal !! is a journal suppose to be all happy and fake? then thats not real life people. Sorry if real life is hard for you to grasp. I dont know any person who doesnt have problems, the problem is she just talks about them and doesnt mask her feelings and emotions. HINT: talk about your life it will make you feel better.

seraphoflove9001 said...

To Alwaysasmilin62-Judge not, that ye be not judged, For with what judgement ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.
Lisa