Sunday, September 9, 2007

Not feeling well....

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! God bless you!......


 



I love the saying on this graphic! It's so true!


Ever since Friday, I haven't been feeling well. I've been getting a stomach ache and hot and cold! I've been wearing my winter pj's and footies just to keep warm! The I'll get hot and off goes my footies! I'm even more dizzy then normal. Having lots of problems walking as well. ggrr! Last night was not a good night for me, sleep wise. I can sleep in my bed and get up, and it doesn't look as if anyone slept in it. ( that drives my daughter nuts..lol ) My bed looks like a tornado was in it! I remember tossing and turning and getting hot and cold and of course having more then normal pains! I even woke up screaming with pain in my hips and legs!

I've still been using my wheel chair. Bummer. But, I have no other choice right now. When your legs just shake so badly because they are so weak, then thats time to use the wheel chair! I woke up more 'numb' then usual and with the shakes and shocking feeling. I don't know what else to do for my body. This can get so frustrating! It's like being in a limbo with your body and your brain! Hard to explain it.
My daughter had fun Friday night! I'm so glad! :o) She got some pretty good gifts!

My husband and I were talking last night and I actually broke down. What ever is going on with my body...well, it is getting worse, and has seemed to just this week as well. gggrr! When we moved in this house, he told methat he would install a bathroom sink for me so I didn't have to go up the stairs as much. The toilet was installed in my room, but I said no way to the sink! I felt that it would make me dependent on it! I don't want that! Well, I told him that I'm ready for a sink to be installed. Thats where he's at right now, at Home Depot! I've been having so many problems just this week alone...I have no choice! I'm losing so much more of my abilities. It's making me mad! I don't like this one bit! I will continue to live my life the way I always have!!! Thats that! I don't go down without a fight!
So...this has been my few days. Not very fun. But, I still wouldn't ask for nothing more then God has given me....LIFE! I treasure it!


 


16 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you're having such a rough week. So is your room upstairs or downstairs? I had the impression it was upstairs and I wondered how you handled the stairs on a daily basis.
This summer in Mammoth we stayed in a Condo that had a sink in the bedroom and it was nice. If you have everything in one room that will make things so much easier on you physically.
Keeping you in my prayers.
Pam

Anonymous said...

i am praying for you....always...so sorry to hear of your continuing and worsening pain.
Love,lisa

Anonymous said...

For you to be saying you're not feeling well is quite something, Lisa. I hope things do start to look up soon.

Anonymous said...

Lisa, I am so sorry you are'nt feeling well, I really hope you feel better soon, Love and Hugs Lisa XO

Anonymous said...

I feel so badly for all you are going through.  You seem like such a nice person.  If you ever want someone to chat with fee free to IM me anytime.  : )

Allison

Anonymous said...

Lisa,
Sorry to hear you're not feeling well...most likely, the wave will pass and you'll feel better soon.   Hang in there, ok??

Love,
nancy

Anonymous said...

So sorry Lisa I do hope you start feeling better.  I think maybe this will pass and you'll feel better soon.  Love and Prayers.  Joni

Anonymous said...

I do hope and pray you feel better soon...hugs and love,
Joyce

Anonymous said...

Sending a big hug your way. {{{}}}
Hope you feel better soon.
Sug

Anonymous said...

i'm so sorry your not feeling well. maybe you should call doctor? ((((((hugs)))))))
Love,
Cindy

Anonymous said...

Oh Im so sorry your feeling bad hoe pyour better now

Anonymous said...

Ive finally mustered up the courage to comment here hun,I believe in being honest so i couldnt comment on the videos,firstly they were extremely moving,as you know my best friend suffers as you do,but secondly you looked so very sad,i felt like i was,i dunno,moaning about trivial things in my life too much,but they didnt humble me,ive watched them a few times and in the end i was angry about them,mainly as i feel the world lets people down,if im speaking out of turn here hun please tell me,but i feel the videos needed to show your dignity and strength too,we see it here all of the time,much as you may feel it doesnt come accross sometimes,it does,i just feel if that was the last time i was going to see your face,it would haunt me.I dont expect you to be laughing or joking about things,of course not,but you have an inner glow,i wanted to see that so much.I do feel proud and humbled when i read your entries,and i thank you for the education you have given me in this terrible ordeal you suffer,i hope that everyone visiting you here remembers you as i wish to,zoe xx
http://journals.aol.co.uk/zoepaul6968/domestic-chaos/

Anonymous said...

I'm so very sorry to hear you are feeling so bad and you feel you are getting worse so quickly.  You are in my thoughts & Prayers. I admire your spirit, you are an inspiration.  Sending you a big hug this morning.
Lisa
http://journals.aol.com/wwfbison/life-on-a-bison-farm

Anonymous said...

You keep on fighting!  Sorry that you aren't feeling the way you want, and I know it isn't fair.  You are an inspiration to many people.  It's good that you are getting that sink installed to make life a little bit easier for you.  Try to have a good week.

Phil

Anonymous said...

Lisa,
I'm so sorry that you are feeling so lousy.
Hoping you have a better day today.
You are so strong!
Love,
Donna

Anonymous said...

awww mom! Hopefully what you have is just some of my morning sickness to you. 0:)
Glad that JK is putting in a sink in your bedroom. That will definitely help you out for sure. Now all you need is a tub. :-)

Love ya mom