As most of you know, I havent been able to go and visit all of your journals. The reason being is because of my health. I just can't seem to keep up anymore, even though how much I try. I'm at least two weeks behind. What I've done is delete most of them to start over.
What I discovered last night....has hurt me so badly, and I didn't know! You're not going to understand this except for one person in my life.
I wasn't paying attention and had accidently deleted something very special to me! I wasn't told this until last night. Had I known! I'm so very sorry that I didn't know! I had no idea that I deleted it!
After I found out the news, I just sobbed! With two different feelings. One, that I had no idea and didn't even know this...and the other were happiness for her. I guess thats what I get for not paying attention hard enough to the journal entry's that I deleted. I'm so sorry.
Please forgive me. I didn't know. I'm so glad and very happy that she's safe!
All that I can do is go forward from here. Thats all I can do. I would like to be able to move on in this situation and please know that I'm still here.
I am having a very hard time keeping up with your journals. I'm sorry. I haven't been doing very good lately. Not an excuse, just the facts and being honest. I also apoligize! I hope that what is and has been going on with me and my health, is just something that will go away in time.
I have two video's from Tuesday that I took of my son and the dog. We were having snow flurries and my son came in and wanted me to see how Madia looked all speckeled! So I did my best to capture it, but it was in the mid 30's and the winds were high. My son stood in the doorway of the garage, and I was just up on the deck with just a night gown on! Whoooo!
The other video is pretty dark. I was coming in the house and came into my room and I have it dark in here because light hurts my eyes. And yes....I hate my voice! lol Now you see how I got the name as 'mouse' when I was in high school! Just think, I'm older now! :o) So it's deeper!
I was also thinking of taking a break for awhile. I have something very important in my life right now. And I don't won't to screw it up. Plus my medical condition isn't that best right now either. Please just bare with me and I do hope you understand.
Thank you all for your comments! And, thank all of you who have signed my guest book! Thank you! It's just on my side bar! :o) Gods blessings to all of you!